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I walked home. Alone. In the rain.
It sounds. So cliché but it's true it was raining and I had no umbrella so when I got home I was beyond soaked.
But you know what? I didn't care all I was paying attention to was the pain in my chest.
Is this what heartbreak feels like? Does it ever go away?
I walked into my room and went into the shower. But of course I undressed first, I maybe be heartbroken but I'm not stupid.
I took a very nice hot very needed shower. I decided on putting on some gray sweatpants and and a white tank top. My hair is in a messy bun.
I looked around my room and a photo caught my attention. I walked over and held it in my hands.
It was a photo of me, Adrian, Josh and Jane. I was so passed I almost ripped it but like I said before I'm not stupid.
I went to my closet and grabbed my escape.
Jax's guitar.
He loves this guitar. I had gotten it for him for his birthday and he loved it. I remember how happy he was when he saw that was his gift. He literally treated me like a princess for months.
I started singing 'White Horse' by Taylor Swift.
Say you're sorry
That face of an angel
Comes out just when you need it to
As I paced back and forth all this time
Cause I honestly believed in you
Holding on
The days drag on
Stupid girl,
I should have known, I should have known
[Chorus:]
That I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale,
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet,
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town,
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down,
Now it's too late for you and your white horse to come around
Maybe I was naïve,
Got lost in your eyes
And never really had a chance
My mistake, I didn't know to be in love
You had to fight to have the upper hand
I had so many dreams
About you and me
Happy endings
Now I know
[Chorus:]
That I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale,
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet,
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town,
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down,
Now it's too late for you and your white horse to come around
And there you are on your knees,
Begging for forgiveness, begging for me
Just like I always wanted but I'm so sorry
Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale,
I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well
This is a big world, that was a small town
There in my rear view mirror disappearing now
And it's too late for you and your white horse
Now it's too late for you and your white horse to
catch me now
Oh, whoa, whoa, whoa
Try and catch me now
Oh, it's too late
To catch me now
I finished the song and I didn't even realize there were tears running down my face.
I was starting to get a headache so I decided to lay down.
Crying tires you out. A while after laying down I feel asleep.
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I woke up to the sound of a knock on my door. I sat up on my bed and rubbed my eyes.
"come in" I said groggily.
The door opened and my mom stuck he head in.
"Hey honey there's somebody here to see you" she said opening the door wider.
Who? Oh-uh is it Aiden?
"is it a guy or a girl?"
"it's Aiden" she said. She knows me to well.
Should I let him in? Should I pretend to be sleeping?
It's now or never.
I sighed. "let him in" I said to my mom.
She nodded, gave me a small smile then walked out leaving the door opened just a little.
I sighed thinking about what he could possibly say, what could possibly happen.
About a minute later the door slowly opened and Aiden walked in.
When he saw me he visibly gulped.
Damn! Do I look that bad?
"Kat-" he started with apologetic eyes.
"it's Katia" I said cutting him off.
He had no right to call me that anymore.
"sorry" he gulped.
You could tell It hurt him but at the moment I don't really care. I think he hurt me worse. I may be possibly in love with him and he broke my heart.
"if you're here to just stand there then leave, if you're going to talk, talk" I said my tone as cold as Ice.
"Look I'm going to talk. Please don't interrupt it's taking all my courage and both my balls to say this. So no interruptions okay?" he said fiddling with his hands as if he were.... Nervous?
"okay" I sighed.
To tell you the truth I'm actually eager to hear what he had to say.
"okay so I'm not going to say 'sorry' because that won't change anything. But I am truly sorry I swear if I could go back an redo that moment it would have been so much more different. All I heard what the last bit of the conversation and it kind of sounded like you guys were trying to set up a date. I should've talked to you about it. I get it now. I swear. Okay so now to tell you why I made out with that bish. I was hurt. Hearing that the girl you like is going out with another guy hurts you know. I mean I kissed you a week ago you ignored me and I let you be because I knew you needed space to process it. Today I decided that I couldn't wait so when I was going to find you I saw you with Mr. Asshole talking about a date. I was mad. So the I saw Allison, and well I thought of it as an escape. I know it was irrational thinking but I didn't know what else to do. Being hurt doesn't let you think properly. I know you probably think of these as excuses but they are the truth. I like you. A Lot. Not in a friend kind of way. I want to be more than that with you. So I do hope you can forgive me" he finished.
I was lost of words.
I mean what can you say to that.
Just when I opened my mouth to speak again he spoke. His next words made me freeze, my heart beat faster and my time stop.
"and honestly I think I'm falling in love with you. Harder and harder everyday. I don't think I can stop it and honestly I don't think i- no I know I don't want to stop it. "
His eyes held nothing but honesty. So I did the only thing I could think of.
I kissed Aiden.