i really hate to say this but yes i did push you away
i threw away everything about you as far as i could, wanting to forget every single little things related to you
because i hardly breathed when you were around
i hardly focused when you smiled
i didn't choose to be like this at the first place, neither did i want to fall for you this hard
but universe was playing with me
i saw you lately, with your cat-like lips drawn on your beautiful face
you're a brunette with a new haircut and i couldn't deny that you looked so good and so fresh
i couldn't remember exactly how everything turned out wrong
i was supposed to run
i was supposed to turn my heels so i didn't have to see your face
but i just stood there, froze like there were nothing around but us
my heart started to scream in agony
reality just hit me hard
i thought i did it
i thought i've got you out of my mind
but i was wrong
seeing you were nothing but fine just made everything worse
because i knew you never really vanished from there because you're always there
and i just realised that it was the sense of longing of you that took all of my breath and my sanity
i've just missed you so bad
ich vermisse dich, herr sirius. ich vermisse dich