You feel as though you're on cloud 9. But then you go crashing from the clouds to the grounds. Why is that you wonder? You find yourself constantly asking 'what could I do better'. But it's not you, it's the liars and the people you manipulate you to the point where you just brake into a million pieces. Maybe you should just leave them. You need to stop letting them hurt you over and over and stop your own suffering. Why do you always let everyone walk all over you. You always make everyone thing they can treat you however they want. You're so pathetic for that. But you can be better than that.
I'm sorry to the old person that as once you. I'm sorry that you're a not happy anymore. I'm so sorry that your in pain.