So Falling asleep with Luke was like the best thing imaginable. We didn't do anything bad. Cuddling was enough contact to make me feel alive. Everything was different with Luke than it was with Ashton. He was hiding something, and hurting himself because of me. Luke was supporting me instead of having a little pity party for himself. I know Ashton wasn't trying to seem that way, but it really came off that way. Sleeping with Luke was amazing, but waking up to his mother calling you a whore wasn't too nice.
"Wake up you two! Why is she in our house Luke?" His mother threw the blankets off of us as if she expected to find us naked or something. I was horrified to realize that I had wiggled out of my shorts once again. I really had to learn to stop doing that. Ezpecially in these situations. I got up and quickly slipped them on, blushing and not making eye contact with Luke.
"I'm sorry. We were watching movies and fell asleep. I'll be leaving now." She avoided talking to me and instead turned to face Luke.
"What's this Luke? I find you and her on the couch and she's missing her pants? So now she's taken your virginity? And you're okay with that Luke." I had to step in. I wouldn't let her tell people Luke and I had sex.
"Maam... I'm sorry and I shouldn't be here. But you should know that your son and I simply layed together. Neither of us have ever done anything, so pleae don't think worse than it is." My voice shook even though I was trying to be calm. How dare she try to tell me that I wasn't a virgin.
"Luke, is this true? You two didn't do anything?"
"Yes mom... I mean no mom... Ugh I mean it is true. We did nothing together. Just a sleepover like we used to have."
"Things have changed Luke. She doesn't care about you anymore." Great. So now I was some heartless brat that liked to play with her son just to do it.
"Mom. She does care about me"
"And how could you know? She barely remembered you the other day!" They were both talking about me like I wasn't in the room anymore.
"She told me mom. Last night. I know she cares because she's never lied to me and so there's no reason to believe that she's lying now." I stood in shock as her face turned from pity to anger and she looked at me, her eyes killing me a hundred times over. "I don't care if you like it or not, I love her,, and I will continue to talk to her, even if she doesn't feel the same way." His mom's eyes went from me to Luke, and I was tired of staying silent. I had to say something before the two of them decided to kick me out. I loved lLuke too, It wasn't the best circumstances to tell him, but he had to know before his mom convinced him that I didn't.
"I do Luke." My voice was quiet, but they both heard me as their heads snapped to the corner off the room. I think they forgot I had been there. "I don't care if you want to believe it or not, but it's true. I love you." I hadn't even told that to Ashton since the coma, and here I was telling Luke. The difference was, I was positive that I loved Luke, but with Ashton, I want't sure. How could I love someone that lied to me like he did?
"You love me Amethyst?" His eyes were focused on mine, and I didn't dare to look away. I nodded.
"I love you Luke." He rushed over to me as his lips crashed into mine again, this time he didn't seem afraid that I would push him away. I wouldn't. We had completely forgot that his mom was in the room until we heard a cough from where she stood.
"If you want to believe this little brat, I don't care. But don't come crying to me when she breaks your heart. And by the way, I don't want you two in my house together. She can go be a slut somewhere else. Luke nodded and we both just left. We didn't say anything to eachother, we just walked out the front door and headed down the street. As we were walking, I read a text on my phone, ignoring the five missed calls from ashton.
Bubblemuffin:Meet you at the park in five!
"Hey Luke? Do you know Avery?" He scratched the back of his neck.
"Um yeah, we used to date. she's like your best friend. You've known her since kintergarden."
"I know we're friends, but can I ask what happened between you two?"
"After we kissed, we didn't want you mad at us, and we decided we didn't really like eachother anyway. I actually havent talked to her since you went into the coma" I nodded.
"Okay. I have to meet her at the park. You can come if you want." His eyes looked down and he kicked a few rocks away with the side of his foot.
"I don't want to intrude or anything. You can go, I'll just go back home."
"No Luke. That wasn't the question. I do want you there, but I want to know if you want to be there. Support is always nice, but if you don't want to then I can go alone too. Whatever you want."
"I'll go." We walked the rest of the way to the park in silence. I wasn't sure how to act just yet. Yes, I loved Luke, I felt it, but at the same time, there was Ashton, and I had to find out what he was hiding from me. We got closer to the playground as I heard someone shout my name. In front of me stood a girl, she was tall and really pretty. Her hair was black, but it had the perfect wave to it, and her green eyes pierced into me. My vision went completely white as it felt like someone was hitting me in the head repeatedly. If this was a flashback, it sucked.
All of a sudden, every memory I had ever had with Avery came rushing back to me. It was like I was reliving our friendship all over again. I remembered when I met her, and our little arguments in elementary school, and practically every moment I had ever spent with her. It was like I couldn't feel my body anymore as memory after memory flooded back into my brain. I was happy. I knew that there would be one part of my life that I could completely remember. I wanted to smile, but I couldn't even make myself move. I remembered our favorite sayings and our late night talks about everything under the sun. I remember her saying bubble buffin rather than banana muffin, that was when we started using nicknames. I remembered every little secret she had ever told me, and I was glad that I would be able to talk to her like nothing had changed. I had a friend, and for the first time, I could remember averything about her.
"Amethyst! Amethyst!" Avery and Luke were both shaking me, and my head was in Luke's lap as Avery hovered over me. She opened her mouth to talk to me, but I stopped her by wrapping my arms around her so tightly. I had all of my memories with this girl, and it scared me that I had forgotten our relationship together. I could trust her, and she trusted me. I was finally able to share everything with someone, and I knew that I could talk to her about Ashton. I could tell her about my feelings for Luke. Maybe she would tell me about Ashton's secret. I had somebody I knew I could trust.
"Amethyst! Are you alright?" I could tell by her tone of voice that she genuinely cared. I had a friend.
"Avery. I can remember you. I remember it all. I didn't forget." Luke looked extremely confused while Avery's face only showed joy.
"Amy..." Luke said, "What just happened? And what do you mean you remember?"
"I-I don't know Luke. I had another flashback when I saw her. It's like I never forgot her at all. I remember all of our times together." They both seemed to understand. I could feel my phone vibrating in my pocket, but I was really too happy to care at all. The two of them helped me onto my feet as we walked towards the swingset. I remembered playing at this park with Avery when we were just kids. It felt refreshing to be positive about one part of myself.
"So..." Avery spoke up, "You remember everything?"
"About us I do. It's like I only remember the parts of my life with you in them. I still don't remember alot about me, but I know everything we had together." She breathed a sigh of relief and wrapped her arms around me. I didn't realize how bad I missed her hugs until just now. I had gone four months without my best friend. My thoughts were interrupted by a buzzing in my pocket again.
Ashton <3
I silenced the phone and went back to sitting with Luke and Avery. I didn't need Ashton ruining this moment I was having with them. I had two people that cared about me, and I cared about them too. Ashton couldn't understand that I needed my space, and he wasn't helping the situation by calling and texting me constantly. After feeling my phone ringing for the seventh time, I excused myself from the conversation and gathered up the courage to answer him.
"What do you want Ashton? I'm kind of in the middle of something." I'm sure it sounded rude, but I didn't really care.
"Amethyst. Thank god you answered. I was worried. Is everything alright?" I rolled my eyes.
"I'm fine, thanks. If that was all you wanted I'll be going now."
"No, please don't hang up. I'll tell you Amy." I put the phone back to my ear to listen to him. If he was going to tell me his big secret, I wasn't going to stop him. "I want to do it it in person though. Can I meet you somewhere?"
"Meet me at the cafe. Half hour." he didn't answer, but I knew he was nodding on the other end. I hung up and walked back towards Luke and Avery, deep in conversation over bands. Apparently Luke was in one. I didn't catch the name, and I wasn't really listening for it anyways.
"I have to meet Ashton. He's going to tell me." The two of them exchanged looks and it was obvious that Avery knew what I was talking about. He must have told her like he told Luke.
"You have to go get ready then. How long do we have?" She seemed way too excited for the circumstances.
"I have half hour, but I don't really care wat I look like Avery." She rolled her eyes and put a hand on my shoulder.
"Of course you do. You always want to look nice for a guy. And you can't act mad at him if you're wearing his T-shirt." I had completely forgotten about wearing Ashton's shirt. I let Avery drag me to her house. She practically shoved me into the shower and I quickly got to washing my hair. Once I was out, Avery had a beautiful dress layed out on the counter. It was a turquoise color, with a braided belt. It came up a little above my knees when I slipped it on. My flats matched perfectly. When I was back into Avery's room, she had a variety of beauty items spread about on her dresser. Luke was sitting akwardly on her bed, watching as Avery pulled half of my hair into a ponytail and started to straighten it. I couldn't help but laugh when she called Luke over and handed him a bottle of nail polish. She really was trying, but it wasn't necessary. She put makeup on me and I could feel Luke putting the polish on my nails. I still had ten minutes when we were done, and I looked more beautiful than I could have made myself look in three hours. I needed to make Avery do this more often. Luke was apparently good at painting nails, because there was barely any on my skin. I was amazed at what the two of them had accomplised.
"I don't see why she has to look this good to go see him." Luke looked at me, but his voice was filled with disgust.
"We're not trying to impress him. We're trying to get him to realize who he hurt. Guys always feel bad if the girl looks pretty." He rolled his eyes and we walked out towards Avery's car. When we pulled up at the cafe, Ashton could be seen sitting at one of the little tables, head in his hands. His eyes were obviously red as I walked towards him. Luke and Avery promised to wait in the car. I had to do this by myself.
"Ashton. Are you going to tell me now?" I slid onto the chair across from him and he looked up at me.
"I don't really have a choice. You might hate me Amy. Just promise you'll let me finish? Don't leave until I say I'm done. It isn't as bad if you listen to the whole thing."
"I promise Ashton. I'll stay until you say I can leave. Now tell me please." He looked down at the table and his voice lowered. Tears started flowing down his cheeks and his voice cracked when he looked up at me to speak.
"I've been lying about the accident."