| Emma's POV |
Cmon Emma don't be a pussy, just press play on the fucking video.
I'm laid in bed with my right leg jigging up and down, my computers is propped up on my quilt and my cursor is hovering over the neon purple
The Dolan Twins
The thumbnail catches me breathless and I don't know whether I'm going to make it through the video.
They both look so... good, how else do I explain it? They're older, taller and unbelievably hotter.
Although Grayson looks like a god my eyes seem to be burning through the screen towards Ethan.
I told him! I told him he should do this! Although I still hate him for leaving me I feel a massive surge of pride. Look how many subscribers he has, look how well he's doing, look at how many fans adore him.
I adored him once and I swore he adored me too.
EMMA SHUT THE FUCK UP
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"Thanks for watching"
"Thumb me the frick up phahahahahaha"
"Subscribe... if you want"
"PEACE!!"
My breath hitches and suddenly I can't breathe. He said it, they both said it, THEY ALWAYS SAY IT. A single tear trickles down my cheek, I can't believe that stupid projected started all this, and what I can't believe the most is that I was the first person he did that with.
I can't even express currently how good he looks and how much I miss him... Im-
A ping snaps me out of my thoughts and a notification appears above my phone that tells me that mine and James' collab was now online.
I decide I'm not going to watch it because I was there myself but I do choose to scroll through the comments when they start to flood through. I don't even mind about reading hate as long as it took my mind off of the twins.
My phone pings again and its a message from James and my smile spread across my face, he really did make me feel grateful that my job.... and fans were bringing me so far
James}
The amount of comments I'm getting is insane. You were a huge hit, kitty girl
{Me
The views are mad!!! We did good... let's do it again
James}
Imagine my views if I did a collab with you AND the Dolan's
My throat goes dry. Please don't fucking ask because I'd rather crawl into a hole and die
{Me
Yeah... imagine
James}
Would you be down?? I can text them now... we could hang this weekend
{Me
I don't know if I want to
James}
Cmon remember I promised that I wouldn't mention school
James}
Pleaseeeeee
James}
For meeeeeeeee
{Me
Only for a video, I wanna get dollars if I'm putting myself in an uncomfortable situation
James}
YAY!! I LOVE YOU
{Me
I guess I love you too🤷🏻♀️
But I really don't love him right now because somehow he's just convinced me to meet up with Ethan Dolan and not only have we not seen, spoken or heard each other for three years... but I think I still love him.