Sophia
If I was still on probation I'd only have one week left which means I leave LA in two weeks. And for once in my life, I don't want to leave. Every time I'd come here I couldn't wait to leave and be with my friends again. Though I did miss them, I wanted to stay here forever.
But I couldn't. I may be an adult now and able to make my own decisions, but I need to go to college. I need a back up plan in case music just doesn't work out. I had a place waiting for me when I went back. I'd be moving into a dorm, meeting new people and starting a new life.
The more I thought about it though the sadder I got. I seriously needed to speak to Calum about this because although he knows I'll be leaving, I don't think he really knows. Like, he's kind of in denial about it all because every time I bring it up, he changes the subject and forgets about it. He needs to realise that we're both going to be going our separate ways in two weeks and at the moment he's caught up in this dream world where everything seems to be working out, but I hate to be the bearer of bad news, but it isn't.
I don't know what's going to happen with us when we go separate ways. Will we still talk? Like on the phone? Facetime? Will he ever visit or will I visit him? Or will he still want anything to do with me. Because they're starting their tour in a month and so he's going to be busy all the time so he won't even have time for me.
I don't know why I'm even thinking about any of this, he's not even my boyfriend. We just like each other.
This is why I needed to speak to him. I needed answers.
Me: Hey are you free to hang?
C-dizzle Swizzle: For you, i'm always freeee
I rolled my eyes at the name he put himself as in my contacts and couldn't help but laugh to myself. He really was a big dork.
Me: Where can we meet?
C-dizzle Swizzle: I'll pick u up in 10 xxx
Okay, well now that's sorted, now I need to come up with a plan on what I'm going to say to him.
I pulled out my laptop from it's case and opened up the notes app.
1. Ask how he is feeling and how the boys took the news about yesterday
I definitely needed to know what they were thinking after Calum dropped them from their management team without even telling them. Even though I knew they wanted it out, he still kinda just did it anyway.
2. Make s-
"Sophia honey." My mom said, popping her head into my room. She had her serious voice on, this couldn't be good.
"What is it?" I said quietly.
"There's been a change in plans. We're going home early. Your dad is needed at the hospital and one of my long term patients needs me. I'm sorry but we're leaving tomorrow and you're coming with us." She spoke in a way that was trying to sound apologetic, but I knew deep down she didn't care.
"What the hell mom! I can't just leave, there's still 2 weeks of summer left!" I snapped.
She shook her head, "Chris phoned me, he explained what happened, the way you spoke to him so let's just call this your punishment and we'll leave it at that." She said raising her voice, she closed the door behind her.
You have got to be kidding me. My life was such a joke right now.
I grabbed my pillow and held it to my face, I released a scream that had all my anger built up. Funnily enough, I didn't feel any better.
C-dizzle Swizzle: here x
I groaned and slid off my bed. I shoved my phone in the back pocket of my denim mom shorts and swung my bedroom door open. I dramatically slumped through the hall and into the lounge, making sure everyone knew how annoyed I was.
"Where do you think you're going, you need to pack." Mom said, sorting through all the food in the kitchen.
"Out." I said and opened the door, ignoring her calls after me. But it wasn't stopping there, she followed me out and down the stairs to the street.
"Sophia Jensen, don't you dare get into that car, we are not done talking!"
"Mom leave me alone, I'm going to say goodbye to my friends!" I snapped.
I marched up to Calum's car and flung the door open, slumping into the seat. "Drive." I said monotonously.
Calum quickly glanced at my mom and then put the car in to drive and pressed down on the gas, as we sped away from my screaming mother. "I have a feeling she doesn't like me very much." He stated as soon as we were in the clear.
"Welcome to the club." I sighed as I rested my elbow on the window.
"What happened?" He asked cautiously. I couldn't help but tear up. God why am I so emotional lately. "Sophia what's wrong?" He grabbed my hand.
"Can we talk about it later, first I need to speak to the boys." I said. I needed to speak to the boys alone first before I broke the news to Calum. I needed to know they were willing to be there for him when I leave.
***
"Cal, please wait here. Just trust me okay?" I asked as we pulled up at his house. He frowned but nodded anyway.
I sighed and climbed out the car, strolling round the front of the car to get to the front door. I didn't bother knocking, he said it should be open.
He was right, I opened it to reveal Ashton, Michael and Luke all huddled around the TV playing some stupid battle game.
They didn't notice my arrival until one of the lads died and they all through their heads back in annoyance. It was a funny sight to see.
Ashton was the first to notice me, he frowned but smiled. "Hey Soph, what are you doing here?" He asked, pausing the game and standing up.
I ignored his question. I had some of my own. "Are you guys okay? With Calum quitting Chris' management? I feel like it was kinda my fault?" I asked as I perched on the only seat left.
"Sophia, it was long due. I'm glad he had the balls to do it." Luke said.
I sighed with relief, "What are you really doing here?" Michael asked.
I bit my lip, I could feel my breathing getting shaky. "I'm leaving tomorrow. I'm going home."
"What!"
"No way!"
"Shit."
The boys exclaimed.
"Have you told Calum?" Ashton asked. He came to sit closer to me so he could put an arm around me in comfort. I was grateful for Ashton, he has a really kind soul.
I shook my head, "I needed to tell you guys first. I need to know that you're gonna take care of him when I go. He needs to not go back to how he was. Please can you all promise me that." I said.
"Of course Soph. We don't want him like that either." Ashton spoke softly. I smiled at how Ash called me Soph. It was comforting, and I never really noticed till now but he's the only one that really does it.
"Is this why you're here then, to say goodbye?" Luke asked, he looked actually really sad. Man I was gonna miss these boys.
Calum
About fifteen minutes had passed when the door opened and Sophia walked out, holding her hand to her nose like she had been crying.
She got in the car and I decided to take us on a drive.
We hadn't spoken for about ten minutes when I noticed she was crying softly.
I pulled over for the second time today and cut the engine off.
"Sophia this is killing me, please tell me what is wrong?" I sighed.
"I'm going home tomorrow." She said bluntly.
I frowned, "Hey it's okay, we can talk to them it's going to--" I began but she cut me off.
"No Calum! You don't get it you never do!" She snapped. It had been a while since I had heard her speak like this, it shocked me slightly, this would normally be me. "I don't have a choice, this is really happening! I'm getting on a plane tomorrow to fly back to Phoenix. Phoenix Calum, that's in Arizona, not LA!" She was talking a lot with her hands, so I found myself not being able to concentrate properly.
I shook my head, not wanting to process her words, "No we'll sort it out, you can stay with me and the boys." I started to explain.
She threw her head back in a frustrated cry and this time she was crying. "Calum." She said, she began shaking her head, "This was always going to happen, but now it's happening earlier. I'm going home for college and soon you're going to be on tour. We're going to be leading separate lives."
I sighed. "Sophia, I know that. But I still want to see you. You can come on tour with me." I said. Yeah, that could work.
I looked at her to see if she was on board but her eyebrows were furrowed together, "I can't come on tour with you. And why would you even want me there, aren't you afraid--"
"I know you're not Sophie!" I cut her off. I knew exactly where she was going with this. "I know you're nothing alike each other. What happened to her would never happen to you. Sophia, you've changed me for the better and I'm scared that if you leave I'll go back to being how I was..." I trailed off.
I studied Sophia. She was staring straight ahead now, I could tell a million thoughts were circulating through her mind right now. I needed her with me at all times. Ever since our first kiss, it's all I could think about.
"I think we need to say goodbye Calum." She finally spoke.
My hand slipped off the wheel and accidentally sounded the horn, this made her jump slightly. "What?!" I shouted. "No, we can't. You can't ditch me. Sophia, please. How could you, after everything we've been through. What you've done for me." My voice was shaky and I was getting all worked up.
"Calum, please don't make this any harder than it is." She said softly.
"Is that why you were seeing the boys? You told them first, you were saying goodbye to them?" I raised my voice.
"Yes Calum. I had to make sure you would be okay."
"I'm not a fucking child. I can take care of myself." I said a little too harshly.
"I know. It was just for closure. I'm sorry Calum. But it's for the best." She spoke determined to get her point across. She leant across the seat and placed a kiss on my lips, it was short and sweet but I didn't want it to end. I was so mad at her right now, but kissing her made me forget about everything. So when she started to pull away I pulled her back, deepening the kiss.
When we both finally pulled away we were slightly out of breath.
She looked at me with sorrowful eyes, "Goodbye Calum." She climbed out of the car and began walking in the opposite direction.
What just happened?
If she thinks she can just leave, just like that. She has another thing coming. Time for a plan.
AN
Hi look at me with the quick updates!
Lol so the ending of this book has completely changed to how I had originally wrote it, but idk this just suited the plot better. But there's 3 more parts left after this!!
- Liv x