Alan
Have you ever been so secretly in love with someone that the word 'love' just wanders around in your mind, dances on your tongue but you won't ever allow it to escape your mouth?
That's how I feel about Austin. We've known eachother for years, but his family doesn't have money like mine and my parents don't exactly like the idea of me hanging around someone 'poor'. Not to mention, he doesn't have the best reputation either.
But I like him. I like hanging out with him, I like skipping school with him and drinking in the parking lot at midnight with him on Sundays after church. I like the feeling of adrenaline and the feeling of knots tying in my stomach when I look at him and he smiles at me.
But with the way things are right now and the fact that he's pretty much hetero to no end, I guess I just have to keep dreaming.