Sophia
I needed to know, why was Calum the way he is? Now was the moment, surely he knew it too.
"Please will you tell me what happened now?" I said softly.
I studied his face, he breathed in deeply as I spoke those words and his eyes shut slowly as he processed my question. After a few seconds he breathed out and bit his lip as he opened his eyes and looked anywhere but me. He was uncomfortable right now. I put my hand on his lower arm and showed him that he could trust me.
He looked at my hand ad then looked at me and nodded, "Okay, yeah, I'll tell you, walk with me." He said and shoved his hands in the pocket of his hoody and gestured for me to put my arm through his.
The air was much cooler on the beach and especially with the night getting later.
After linking my arms with his Calum began to tell his story.
"So when I was sixteen and we were first recruited by One Direction, I had a girlfriend. Funnily enough her name was Sophie and I'm not even joking." He laughed softly as we began to stroll back along the beach. So now I know why he hated me so much when we first met.
"She was my best friend we did everything together and she was the one who pushed me to take this opportunity...we decided to take a pause on our relationship since we were young...we were kids. A few years later I reunited with her when we were eighteen. Her parents finally allowed her to join me on tour and honestly it was incredible to have her back. But her coming on tour with me, it unleashed this wild side in her and at first I loved it but then it took a turn for the worse." He said, I couldn't see his face properly but I could tell how he was hurting from the voice cracks and the sniffs.
"We met these dodgy folks in one of the places we toured I can't quite remember where...it was a hectic summer. Anyways she started taking drugs and at first it was just harmless like weed but then it kept getting worse. One night we were at an after party for the last day of our tour, this was about two years ago, well we got into a fight." I think I knew where this was going from what I had already heard.
"I finally snapped at her and told her enough was enough and that I didn't want to be with her if she was going to act that way. I knew she wasn't really this person it was just the drugs doing it to her...well the fight got really heated and she stormed out we were in some city we had never been to before and...and...she stole someone's car from the party and she raced off into the night before I had time to stop her. The next morning the car was found about a mile off from the party completely smashed to bits from a tree...they said she died instantly. It was all my fault, I should never have let her go, I never should have argued with her and I should never have taken her on tour with me. I...I...I killed my girlfriend." By this point we had stopped walking and we were facing each other.
Calum was hunched over and was practically sobbing. His hand was covering his eyes like he was ashamed of himself and his shoulders were shaking uncontrollably.
"Hey." I said softly. I took his arm and the one that he had to his face and squeezed his hands. "This was not your faulty." I said in a way that was stern but also sympathetic. He was still looking away from me. "Look at me." I put my hand on his cheek and he slowly turned his head. "Calum Hood, you did not do this. You did not kill your girlfriend. Please don't blame yourself."
He shook his head and looked up to stop the tears from falling. "Everyone keeps saying that but they don't know how it feels. It was me Soph--God do you know how much it hurts being around you!" He snapped, his mood changing instantly.
I stepped back, giving him room to breathe. "You practically have the same fucking name. You look like her god you even smell like her. It kills me spending time around you." His voice was getting louder and louder and he was getting closer to me each step he took.
"But...everything you do, say and move is also so so different and I couldn't help but fall more in love with you everyday." His voice changed back to a much softer tone.
"Calum, I don't know what to-"
"Which is why I can't be with you. As much as I'm falling for you, it still hurts me Sophia. I can't watch what happened to Sophie happen to you. And next thing you know you'll probably be touring with us and I can't go through it again." He baffled.
I shook my head in confusion. "Calum I am not Sophie. I'm not gonna take drugs and do reckless things, I don't understand. I always hated you because I thought you hated me...all this time you've liked me from the start?" I honestly didn't know what to say but one thing I knew was that I felt the same way.
I knew from the moment I met him right down to us singing together. I had developed feelings for him from a long time ago I had just been blinded by my false hatred for him.
"Yes but like I said, nothing can come from this." He looked me in the eye. He looked so sad, it felt like I could cry any second.
"Calum it's okay..." I went to hold his hand but he snatched it away.
"Stop." He turned on his heels and started running from the beach, ignoring my calls after him.
What an emotional day.
***
I had tossed and turned all night thinking about the events of yesterday. Ashton trying to kiss me and Calum finally telling me about his girlfriend. And yet I was still unsatisfied.
I had decided to take the day off, I told Chris I was ill. I had been so busy with my music that I hadn't had chance to do what I first came here for. To spend time with my family.
I was gonna hang with my brothers today, Sam and Miles...don't worry I forgot I had brothers too until I got in last night and they were being annoying shits.
We decided to go to the mall and grab some lunch, just a simple but normal day. Something I hadn't had in a long time.
It had all gone so well until we were leaving the mall to get to Miles' rental car when we were stopped by a man with a microphone and with him was a camera man. Shortly after a whole crowd of paparazzi formed around us.
"So the reports are true Sophia, you were spotted here today." The overly-eager man held the microphone right in front of my face and I frowned.
"Uh how did you know that?" I looked at my brothers, they were just as shocked as me.
"Since when did you become so famous Soph?" Sam asked.
"Since it was announced that Calum Hood and Sophia Jensen were dating! Is it true!" One woman asked.
I looked at my older concerned brother and he did not look happy.
"Erm, yes it is true..." I trailed off. I didn't know how to react, I'd never been in a situation like this.
"Miles please get us out of here." I whispered to him. He rolled his eyes and grabbed my arm with one of his and Sam's with the other and dragged us out of the mob. We started running towards his car, the paparazzi all following us.
When we had made it safely out of the parking lot and onto the highway Miles finally broke the silence.
"Would you like to tell me what that was all about?" He looked at me in his rearview mirror as I slumped in the back seat next to all my shopping bags.
"No not really." I said bluntly and folded my arms, looking out the window.
"I thought you weren't allowed to have romantic interactions with this idiot?" He said.
"Don't call him that!" I snapped back protectively.
He glared at me, "Answer the question Sophia."
I rolled my eyes to the back of my head and groaned. "We're not. It's fake. Not real - nada." I said.
"Then why do they think it is?"
"Because that's what Chris wants them to believe it's all for publicity Miles."
"Am I the only one that thought that was awesome!" Sam said grinning from ear to ear and I couldn't help but laugh and neither could Miles. He was only being protective and looking out for me. None of us could ever stay mad at each other for long.
Man, I missed my family.
So the cats out the bag, now you know.
Sorry for the wait but I've been sooo busy with assignments for uni and I saw 5sos last week. They were soooo good and I was so close.
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-Liv x