After reading the test I couldn't help but cry. I was so happy. I didn't expect it but I've always wanted a child. I truly was happy. I got something to call my own that came from me. From Jackson.
I decided to wait and tell Jackson when he gets back. More show him since I'll be about 2 months in by then but whatever. I immediately called my family. They were so excited. I told them to keep it a secret so they wouldn't spoil Jackson's surprise.
After going downstairs to grab a snack I texted the boys.
Hey Guys how is tour?
Gooooood -Tall_Maknae
Jackson won't shut up about you and it is only the 2nd day! -DoubleB
Hey speaking of Jackson I have a surprise for him.
Oooo what is it -Markie7
You promise you won't tell?
I'll keep them quiet. Just tell us -Jae.Boom
I'm pregnant....
Very funny Noona -Not.Jr
I'm serious
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(Pic of positive test)
Theres going to be a little Jackson! I'm sooooo excited!!!!! -Your_Sunshine
I am too! I'm not sure how Jackson will feel though...
He will be happy, why wouldn't he be? -DoubleB
IDK I guess I'm just nervous.
What if we aren't ready.
K. I'mma stop you there sis bc no. You both will make the best parents. We will be there to help. -Not.Jr
You guys are the best 💖
We know. -Markie7
Luv u guys! Have fun!
You too!!! have a fun time. We miss you!!!! -Your_Sunshine
I felt reassured talking to them. They were right. Jackson and I will make great parents. I sat on the couch sorting my thoughts. Names. So many choices.
I decided to scrap that idea and wait for Jackson on that one. I had so many other things. What will I do. It's a lot. I wasn't expecting it. Sure I'm happy. But this soon. I have to keep it though. I would never get rid of my on child. I love it. It's really crazy. I love something I just found out about and that is barely there. Yet, I want to give it my everything.
I not being prepared, know absolutely nothing about pregnancy. I pulled out my computer and did research. After about an hour I got overwhelmed. I started crying. What is Jackson doesn't want it? What if we will fail as parents? I feel so much more emotional. Its going to be a hard 2 months without Jackson. I miss him.