Chapter 23- Alone
Connor
This is boring.
I have realized it is boring living by yourself. Without the guys. They make everything better.
And Beth.
Oh I love her. She always seems to find a way to light me up.
And god do I miss her.
I could really use some cheering up right now.
It's back. The depression is back. I always was depressed when I was in middle school and high school. I mean it wasn't full on, I didn't want to kill myself. But I felt as if I had no friends and no one to talk to. I tried to isolate myself from everyone. I was in my own world.
And I feel the same. I feel alone.
***
I have been up all night. Staring at the ceiling. Thinking.
It's 3:45 am.
If I couldn't fall asleep at the o2l house, one of the guys would most likely be awake and I would have someone to talk to. So I wasnt bored.
But now, I have no one to go to.
None of my friends.
My ex girlfriend.
Even my fans. I don't want them knowing about this. They still think I'm with Beth.
I don't want to go to my family, because they'll just put me back in therapy. I always hated therapy.
***
Bethany
I arrive to Madison's house. It was pretty far. Almost an hour away. All the lights are turned on. I've never been here before. She sent me the address when I was leaving. Well it's actually not a house. More like an apartment. I'm in a gated community.
I knock on the door. No one answers so I knock again, harder. Still no answer. My fist bangs against the chestnut wood. Finally, I hear a click. The door unlocks and it's isn't madison who answers the door. It's a male I've never seen before. He looks to be about 20 or 21. And I won't lie, he is pretty good looking.
"Who are you and what do you want?" He asks.
"I was looking for a girl, her name is Madison. She has long curly brown hair. Kinda slutty but she's pretty I guess.
He pulls his phone out his pocket and unlocks it. He shows me a photo of him and her.
"Is this her?"
"Yup." I say.
"She doesn't live here. She is my ex girlfriend."
"Oh. Well she sent me this address saying it was her apartment."
He laughs. "Defiantly a prank."
"Oh." I furrow my brows.
That bitch.
"Sorry about that. I'll leave now. Nice meeting you." I say.
Right when I'm about to turn he stops me.
"Wait. You should stay. It's about to rain." He says.
"I can handle rain." I say.
"You should still stay."
"I don't know you."
"Well then get to know me." He says. "My name is Hunter." He smiles.
"I'm Bethany."
"Wait I know who you are. You are that beauty guru from YouTube. My sister loves you."
"Aw. What's her name?"
"Kate."
"Well tell her I said hi."
"I will. Do you wanna come in now?" He asks.
"I don't want to." I say. It's true. I can't go in there. I'm still in love with Connor and I want him back. He'll never want me back if I start anything new.
"Oh." He says.
I grab a pen from my purse and write my number on his hand. I don't want to be mean.
"I'll use this." He smiles.
I smile back then walk away. I hear the door close behind me. Then I remember why I came here. Madison.
FUCK.
I dial her phone number in my phone and call her. She answers on the second ring.
"Helloo?" She says.
"You bitch! I can't believe you madison. I am never trusting you again."
I hear laughs and I hang up.
I begin to drive home when I realize it's pretty late. And my eyes are drifting off. I can't drive back. I drive for twenty minutes to the nearest hotel. I cannot stay in a motel.
I park my car and walk inside. I hope there is a room available at this time.
I ask the woman and I pay. Luckily, there was a room available. I take my key and go in the elevator. Even though I am only on the second floor, I do not feel like waking up a flight if stairs. There was enough in front of the hotel.
I find my room. I open the door. In isn't big but it isn't small. It's enough. There is a tv and a queen sized bed. Bathroom with a decent toilet and shower. I don't plan on showering. I put my bag down and strip down to my under wear. I grab the complementary robe and slide my arms into it then tie the belt. I jump into the bed and go under the covers.
It never rained.
I laugh.
Then I fall asleep
***
I wake up on my own to the sound of the birds and the sunshine through the window.
I tie my hair back since I don't have a brush and take the robe off then put my clothes back on. I am a mess. I do my business and wash my mouth out with water so it doesn't smell very bad.
I grab my purse and all my belongings. I exit the room.
I walk to elevator. When I walk into it, it's not empty.
Connor stands there looking down on his phone, unaware of my presence.