damned if i do and damned if i don't i'm
fucking trapped in this cacophony of a shell
i'm a butterfly but nobody's here to see me fly
ugly brown paper pupae i'm flimsy and only
starlings are gonna want to eat me
i got three weeks to find somebody to be with
for the rest of my life before i say goodbye to
the yellow yolk of the sun and the pimple under
my nose the childish insecurities taped under
the desk a wad of gum stuck in my teeth
not even worth my last two dollars i'm
drowning
i'm outside waiting for him in my red gremlin
blasting music i hate and wearing too much
lipgloss and perfume and the air con is on too high
it's night time but it feels as lethal as the day
i wait in the car listening to the hum of the a/c and
a moth comes floating by
a moth with a skull on its thorax and a
sword clutched to its legs it has a crest
of latin and i reach out for it and
the neighbour's dog reaches it before me
and snips its wings in half
i am nothing more and
nothing less
i keep waiting for him in the car.