when you destroy me completely
and i have to pretend it doesn't faze me
it kills me
giving back the things i lovingly gave you
stomping your foot over my words
i forgave you for all this
but you keep making me cry
making me want to die
and just kill myself
but then when i smile everyday at you
knowing you wont even glance twice
saying hello how are you
everyday without fail
looking at you shamelessly
all that is gone now
you tell me it's not 'cause of me
that you avoid me
but why then
do you make me want to die
make me cry
and just feel so damn disgusted with myself
why then do you hurt me?
why are you so intent into making me not like you
i cannot hate you
but i will play you at your own game
i will be as heartless and as cold as an ice monster
i will be mindless and thoughtless
silent and shadowed
like the monster you make me feel like i am
this is all about you
the pain you threw
and the hurt i feel
do not worry
you will come begging on your knees for me
you will miss me as i missed you
i step out of my body and
a shell is all you see
a shell i will be
i'm a monster
Fear Me