"So I guess this is goodbye" Maryah said. We all waved.
I kept on replaying that part over and over again. But this is it. It's going up tomorrow morning at 9am.
Right now I'm in my apartment. I was eating some sour patch kids.
I think we had no choice but to end our channel.
Alexis was no where to be found after a visit home during her parents anniversary. We called but she never picked up. Then she sent us an email that she was fine but she wasn't returning to California. Allison received a scholarship for a study abroad program in Australia. Lauren had to return home because of family problems. Victoria had to quit YouTube for Gymnastics World Championships that was held in Germany. That left me, Maryah, and Monique. But we all knew we couldn't continue.
I close my laptop. We worked hard for almost 3 years. But it wasn't only us. O2L split up 2 months ago. Cameron, Nash, Hayes, and Carter were moved to 26 mgmt. It was the end of an era.
Most of our relationships were kinda gone too. Connor had his coming out video released in December. But before that he and Maryah split up. Hayes and Allison kinda broke up too because of long distance. Lauren and Sam broke up after 5 months. Trevor never made contact with Alexis after she disappeared. Victoria and Aaron never hit it off. The good news is that Monique and Matt are still a happy couple.
There was a knock on my door. It was 3 am. Who could it be?
I opened it. It was Nash.
"What are you doing here?" I asked. He was dressed with his magcon hoodie, beige pants, and some black and white converse. "I just wanted to see if you were okay" he replies.
He was wearing a red beanie that pushed his hair back. I let him in. He makes his way to the couch.
"Why is this happening?" I ask him. I sit down next to him in his arms. "Why does everything have to end?" I ask. He hugs me. "That's how we progress to the future" he responds. He kisses me on my forehead.
I fall asleep in his arms. I wish I could just stay asleep forever. It was way easier than facing the harsh reality.
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I wake up. Which is the worst part of my day. But I love waking up next to Nash. He was still sleeping. I wake him up by kissing his cheek. He smiles but his eyes were still closed. "You're up already" he says with his eyes still closed. I look at the time. 10am. The video was released an hour ago. I looked at my phone. My social media was blowing up. I put my phone down.
"Are you gonna be okay?" He asks. I nod. "I'll be fine" I reply.