Present day- September 2018:
Dear diary,
I'm not quite sure how to feel. Sad and confused? I think those are the best two words. I don't know how to handle this, it's too much for me. Between school stress, this, and just life in general I'm so scared and so confused. What if this is the end? One second he's there, and the next he's... not? I want to hold onto some hope. I really do. But I'm terrified. What if he's..gone forever? Ha the irony of those words. Gone forever. They sicken me. This just isn't fair. How can I not know if and when he'll be back? It's....ugh...I need to figure out a way to deal with this. I can't keep living off "if"s. I mean, I know it's not like he's dying but gone from my life...forever? I don't know if I can handle that.
-Alisha M.
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share, comment, vote if u want. I'm writing this for me cuz I really need it but I figured might as well share it. Yes this is all a true story. Um okay for the beginning the time kinda jumps around so just check the top every chapter to understand what's going on. Thanks 💜💕
If you're confused as of rn thats normal. This is present day but the whole story goes back a year ago. So patience pleasee.