- Felix's POV -
What were we? I mean, I enjoy his company and those kisses weren't anything to sneeze about but.... would you consider us dating? Or am I just another toy to him?
I hated him for throwing my mind through a loop. I was silent the whole way back, the crappy radio was the only thing filling the silence. He dropped me off at my apartment,
"Bye Felix" he smiled sadly as I climbed out. I looked back at him, giving him a nod before slamming the door in his face.
"Why's your face all red? Got a fever?" Nikki asked, putting the cigarette out in the ashtray. I didn't even realise what she meant until I felt the warmth in my cheeks. I shook my head, groaning before flopping onto the reception couches.
"Feet off nerd" she said, opening some gossip magazine. I sighed but obeyed,
"What do I do Nikki?" I asked the ceiling.
"Huh?" She said,
"Go have this existential crisis in your own room"
"..... Nikki" I whined.
"What?" She asked, her tone a bit softer then before.
"I really, really like him" I glanced over at her. A smile appeared on her face,
"So you two a thing now?" She gasped,
"Do I finally have a son-in-law?!"
I laughed, laughed so hard I fell off the couch. It was a good feeling,
"N-no" I said before the smile vanished.
"At least.... I don't think so..."
"Honey, just admit that you're gay and like Kaiden Smith" she blurted,
"Don't do non of this 'beat round the bush' bull crap. Admit it, confess, date and move on. That boy is head over heels with you anyway"
"..... I'll talk to him tomorrow at school" I said. My phone loudly rang in my pocket and I was highly disappointed that it wasn't Kaiden.
"Heeeyyy!!" Melissa's voice came through the speaker phone.
"Yes?" I asked politely, hoping this conversation could be over.
"So I was thinking of upping the club meets from once a week to twice. Kenzie agreed to it but we need three or more votes to carry the motion" Melissa rambled. I rubbed my eyes,
"Plus we have a competition coming up within the next 5 weeks, we need to be on top of everything! We're facing the all girls school of Saint Margrets Academy and we've lost to them so many times. Kenzie's cousin is the leader and let me tell you, she is such a gloater! Plus-"
"Yeah sure whatever" I cut her off.
"Really?! Awesome, thank you!!" She yelled before I was greeted with the dial tone. I looked at my phone, seeing that Hector had texted me during the conversation.
'Whatever you do, don't say yes! She wants to do it every Saturday as well!! Don't make me loose my weekend!'
3 seconds after I read it, another text cane through.
'Goddamnit Felix you traitor'
I let out a loud groan. There goes most of my weekends too.
~
Our school colours flooded the halls on Monday, students chatted about the upcoming semi-finals for, you guessed it, basket ball. I haven't spoken to Kaiden for a while due to him being busy with practices and I've been busy with fighting. At least that was my excuse, I've fought with ex-military with bulging muscles and a need to win yet I'm terrified of my own emotions.
I shut my locker with my books in hand for History. Hector was standing there, Melissa next to him with a broad smile. They looked so different, Melissa a cute little Labrador puppy but Hector an older black cat with a new piercing on his ear.
"Hey Felix! I'm soo glad you agreed with me and Kenzie" she chirped, handing me a sticky note with the information.
"We'll see you this Saturday at midday, don't skip right Hector?" She glanced playfully at the ever so quiet Hector.
"Hector?" She nudged him with her elbow making him blink back into focus.
"Huh.... yeah sure"
The bell rang, students began to walk to their classes.
"Oh no! I'm gonna be late for Physics" Melissa practically tripped over herself with a look of terror on her face. Hector chuckled lightly before looking at me with an unreadable expression,
"Felix..... can I talk to you for a second" he jerked his head to the bathroom and I followed him in. He shuffled on his feet nervously,
"Hey... uh, how-how do you know Annalise?" He asked straight forwards. His question surprised him,
"Just....around.." I replied vaguely.
"Is it true what she says about you? Are you actually..." He visibly gulped,
"Razor?"
I'm kinda sick of people working out who I am at this point. The bathroom door swung open and a freshman scuttled past us.
"I thought she might've been lying but then she sent me this picture and... well..." he said quietly before showing me a picture on his phone of me from ages ago when we did the spray painting that the city council has covered up with boring white paint. It was undoubtedly me, there was no way of lying and saying it wasn't. I had my arm around Kaiden with a broad smile on my face and spray paint in my hand, luckily Kaiden was cropped out so you couldn't see him.
"She said that it's Razor but I know for a fact that it's you. She doesn't know but..."
The freshman washed his hands, glancing at us curiously.
I chuckled, slowly removing my glasses and folding them up to put in my pocket.
"That's absurd...." I said still laughing until the freshman was out. When the door shut, I immediately turned on Hector. Pushing him up against the wall by the collar of his sweater. He let out a small sound, all the 'tough, emotionless dark emo' act melted to show a terrified boy. Something in his wide eyes made me hesitate, it was like looking at my own eyes in the past.
"Listen to me and you better listen good" I hissed,
"You tell anyone, ANYONE" I tightened my grip making him flinch.
"I will be after you next got it?!"
"I got it! Let me go!" He began struggling, I dropped him which made him fall into his ass on the tiles
"I won't tell anyone, I'm sorry"
"Good" I said putting my glasses back on, blinking as my eyes adjusted to being able to see (yes I did take them off just to fuck with him). I'll have to see Annalise very soon about this.
"See you this Saturday" I said, a bit more threatening then what I meant. Hector nodded, scrambling up and practically bolting from my sights. I sighed, pinching the bridge of my nose in frustration.
"Come on Felix" I muttered,
"Stay calm, stay hidden" I looked at my reflection. Seeing a hallowed out shell of a teenage boy, bags under my eyes showed my lack of sleep. The more I looked, the more I saw my father. I wasn't him, I will never be him!
But he's your father, it's in your blood a voice in the back of my mind spat. I squeezed my eyes shut but when I opened them, I didn't see me. I saw the dark closet. I saw my mothers limp body as I couldn't do anything. I saw him.
"GODDAMNIT!" I yelled, tears prickling in the back of my eyes. My breathing got ragged, I started to loose my sense. My body felt numb, but not numb enough. I raised my fist, bringing down on the glass mirror. It cracked, shattering my reflection. The pain brought me back to reality, I gripped the sink with shaky hands.
"You're okay.... you're okay" I mumbled, washing the blood off my hands. I had small scratches up the side of my hand but nothing major. I took a few deep breaths before making my way to history, 20 minutes late and with a throbbing hand.