Taylor P.o.V
Saturday morning came very fast. Ed was still not sure about letting Allison go camping with Chris’ school. So, around seven a.m. the four of us were there, by the forest. Ed didn’t seem to care that people were actually staring at him, all he cared about was his little girl.
We were talking to one of the teachers and I couldn’t help a smile to appear on my lips. Ed wasn’t paying me any attention, but my eyes were glued to his face. His hair was still a complete mess, but I can’t imagine it any differently.
Ed knelt down before Chris and Allison, filling their ears with wishes of carefulness. I kissed both of them, holding Ed’s hand when it was time for the kids to go. His fingers quickly held mine and I gave him a reassuring squeeze.
“You might be thinking I’m acting ridiculous”
“No, I know what you’re feeling” I held Ed’s arm with my free hand, bringing his eyes to my face “they will be fine and by Sunday night, they will be back home”
“I know… it’ll pass, I just have to get used to it”
“Well, at least I’m here with you”
Ed smiled at me, his fingers in my hair, tucking some strands behind my ear, his lips on my forehead.
“I have no idea what I would do without you”
“Well, how about I cook us dinner tonight?”
“Sounds perfect”
I know what you’re thinking, but you’re wrong. We haven’t kissed or anything like this. Nor had we gone any further than sleeping. Ed and i… things were slow between us. Although I just wished he would kiss me, right here, right now.
I steel feared the fact that he has to leave in three weeks, but like he said, I didn’t want to think about it now. I loved him too much to just stand near him, close enough to touch and let him sleep away, right through my fingertips.
So, around 7 p.m. Ed popped a bottle of wine up for us. I thought it was just lovely that he asked me which one I preferred. Red, I told him. Ed even helped me to cut some vegetables, but I wasn’t sure about him near a knife, thought I really wanted him to learn.
So, Ed told me everything about his new album. I finally admitted that I am a huge fan, and such thing seemed to make him excited.
“What is your favorite song?”
“So far… is Sunburn”
“Really?” Ed seemed genuinely surprised “that’s new”
“What it?” I asked him, not taking my eyes from the oven.
“Most people are passionate about Give Me Love”
“Well, I relate more to Sunburn” in that very second, I knew Ed was trying to find that connection I had to the song, so I decided to tell him, before he jumped to conclusions “You know, for a long time…” I can’t believe I’m gonna say this “… I was just like that line you wrote: I’ll try to find another one who suited me as well as… him”
I finally moved away from the oven, turning to Ed. This handsome redhead was looking at me as if I was the most interesting thing in the whole world.
“When I heard it the first time… I realized… I was trying to find Chris’s dad, Jake, in every man that showed any interest in me”
Ed didn’t remain silent, as I thought he would.
“Is it still like that for you?”
Ed was being extremely serious right now and I couldn’t take my eyes from him. His eyes were pure electricity, flowing from his body to mine.
“No, it is not”
“Why not?” Everything in Ed’s expression told me he was desperate to know.
“Because you’re here now” I didn’t give him the chance to speak, for I gave my back to him, turning to the oven, though it was unnecessary “and now I know not every single guy will leave me like Jake did…. And you made me realize that what I had with Jake… it wasn’t love… It was more like an obsession, you know? On my part, of course…”
Ed stood up. I wasn’t looking at him, but I could still hear his footsteps on the wooden floor. The next thing to hit me was the warmth of his hands on my waist. I didn’t jump or anything, I just realized really fast that I was craving for his touch, one more time.
He spun me around to face him, and in the back of my mind I know he turned the oven off, but all my senses were fixed on Ed and the fact that his beautiful, pinky lips were inches from mine.
His hands soon enough were on my face, guaranteeing that I wouldn’t take my gaze from him. Then, he spoke the most terrifying words he could have ever said to me:
“Do you love me, Taylah?”
This time, his cute accent was pure lust. It felt like I was hypnotized by his green eyes and before I knew, I had answered his question. Blame it on the wine, blame on all the time I had wanted to tell him. Whatever. There is no undoing what I did next:
“Yes…” I breathed out the words. I had just inhaled again when Ed’s lips crushed against mine. They were sweet, gentle, rough and passionate… all at the same time and the result was mind-blowing.
My hands were soon in his soft, ginger hair. I don’t think I would ever be able to ‘control’ it, for it was designed to be a mess. And it looked good on him. My lips were burning against Ed’s, I threw my arms around his neck, having my stomach smacked against his own due the strength he was pulling me into his chest.
Our lips moved fast, I’ll tell you that. I’ve never made out like this before but I don’t really give a damn that I can’t really breathe. There was this amazing amount of adrenaline in my bloodstream and I wanted more and more. At this pace, I’ll become addicted to his taste really fast.
Because Ed tastes like peppermint, chocolate and alcohol. I was in this incredible high and I don’t ever want to come back down. And I had never experienced this kind of thrill before. No one has ever made me feel this wanted, loved and sexy.
The way Ed was kissing me right now… it was needy, it was rough and it was all we did for seconds and seconds. When he pulled away, I didn’t loosen my grip on his neck. Our foreheads were glued to one another; our breathing rates were not synchronized. Still, I had a smile on my face when I opened my eyes and saw Ed staring at me.
I guess he was waiting for my reaction. I also think he hoped it would be a good one, because he hugged me when I laughed. I was laughing because I was happy to finally take that heavy weight out of my chest.
“Taylah, i…”
Ed didn’t have to explain himself. I kissed him again and he quickly shut up to kiss me back. His hands on both my hips hugged my back, bringing me closer to him, if it was possible. This kiss was quicker, but it still mattered the same to me, because it took my breath away all the same.
“Thank you” the words came out of my mouth quicker than I had calculated.
“For what?” Ed was breathless, still hugging me close to his chest.
“For making the first move” I laughed, but I wasn’t embarrassed. I was glowing, so damn much. I could light up this whole town. Ed smiled at me, digging his nose slightly into my neck, lifting me from the ground “I don’t think I would be adventurous enough, at least not today”
“That’s okay, luv” Ed set my bangs back to place, now holding my face between his hands, his thumbs slowly caressing my cheeks “I just had to do that. It was getting way too hard to resist your lips”
“I’m glad you didn’t” I laughed when Ed pecked on my lips again. It seemed so natural already. It made me so happy that we were past the point of weirdness and it made me so happy that I, and only me, could do that “So… I hope you’re still hungry”
Ed P.o.V
I felt like a lightweight, to say the very least. To make what’s long short… when Taylor said she realized not every guy would abandon her like Jake did… that’s exactly what I had been trying to tell her, but failing all along.
I had to kiss her. I just had to. I had reached a point where I had to kiss her to be completely released from all the negative thoughts I was getting. Every time I thought of all the things that could happen to ‘us’… I would have shivers. ‘Us’ needed to happen so I could be fully happy.
I was fully happy, before, with only Allison and my career… until I realized I lacked of something. I didn’t quite know what I was lacking, until I met Taylor. And now… I knew I couldn’t let her go. She’s mine, no matter what I have to do to prove her, to prove it to rest of the world.
We dined and things were light between us. Simply perfect. Now, we were on the couch, the same couch we had slept on a couple of nights ago. Some TV show was on, but Taylor was on my lap; her long hair, I had my fingers in. she looked so beautiful, no matter what color the TV would reflect on her pale skin.
“You tired, luv?” Taylor soon had her eyes on me.
“No, I’m good. How are you holding up? You know, about the kids”
“I haven’t really stop to think about it yet”
“Then, don’t even start now” Taylor sat up beside me, her fingers in between my hair. I can’t describe how much I like that feeling; the way she smiles at me whenever she touched my face “focus on me”
“You got all my attention, luv”
“Good” with a marvelous smile on her delicate lips, Taylor turned the television off. She stood up to do something, but I didn’t let her. I just wasn’t ready for that. She was so warm, so good to cuddle with… “Ed…”
“Shh…”
Our lips met and Taylor seemed to forget what she wanted to do. With each of her legs straddling my waist, Taylor had her fingers traveling from my neck up to my hair, her warm and gentle fingers sending chills down my spine.
God, I never felt this way before…
It didn’t take long until the kiss lost control. I’m not gonna lie and say that I was worried it had lost control, for I really needed to kiss Taylor the more I could, and it had to be today, but I never meant for this kiss to take the proportions it took.
Though we didn’t say a word, my hands found their way underneath her shirt. Taylor didn’t jump or move away, so I guess I was allowed to go on. At this point, I was no longer sure of anything I was doing. I don’t want to hurt Taylor or cross the line.
But Taylor aimed for the bottom of the long sleeved shirt I was wearing, forcing us to part so the fabric could leave my body. Taylor had a smile on her swollen lips as soon as her skin found mine. I have to admit that it felt really nice. All my tattoos were even shinier now that they were contrasting with her pale, untouched skin.
Soon, her shirt met mine on the floor. Her bra came to my view but what really caught my eye was the red on her cheeks. I gulped her face in between my hands, slowing us down a little.
“What are you blushing for?”
“No one has seen me shirtless in a long time”
“I’m really satisfied with this fact, I’ll give you that” Taylor laughed, which made me feel better “Taylah, maybe we’re moving too fast. We don’t have to do this if you don’t feel comfortable”
God, she’s so beautiful. I couldn’t help but smile every time I discovered a new curve on her hips, her bellybutton, basically everything. Taylor laid over me again, kissing me one more time, quickly.
“The way you look at me… it makes me comfortable”
Smiling up to her, I easily lifted the both of us. Taylor hugged my neck, smacking her breasts against my chest. I walked up the stairs, to my room. In my bed, I loved her deeply, madly.