08/30/18
i'm pathetic.
being the oldest fucking sucks.
you're constantly being pressured into being a good role model for your other siblings. my parents want me to be perfect because i'm the oldest.
but i'm not.
my brother on the other hand, he's probably the best role model for my siblings.
so if i were to kill myself, it wouldn't be a problem right? they have my brother after all. i'm emotionally unstable and am in no place to be a role model for my siblings. they deserve better.