EPIGRAPH
❝ i wanted to make you proud
but i just got in your way
i found a place that i can hide
what do i have to do
to try to make you see
that this is who i am
and it's all that i can be
i tried to find myself
looking inside your eyes
you were all that i wanted to be
there must be something else
behind all the lies
that you wanted me to believe
what do i have to do
to try to make you see
trying to be like you
isn't good enough for me. ❞
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PLAYLIST
unsteady || x ambassadors
❝ mother i know
that your tired of being alone
dad, i know your trying
to fight when you feel like flying. ❞
mother || john lennon
❝ children don't do what i have done
i couldn't walk and i tried to run. ❞
boulevard of broken dreams || green day
❝ read between the lines
what's fucked up and every thing's all right
check my vital signs to know i'm still alive. ❞
100 ways to be a good girl || skunk anansie
❝ childhood of violence, filled with heart ache
i know a hundred ways to be a good girl
a hundred ways, my willingness to please
crushed by your power, by my willingness to bleed. ❞
a little less sixteen candles, a little more ❝touch me❞ || fall out boy
❝ i don't blame you for being you
but you can't blame me for hating it. ❞
polaroid || imagine dragons
❝ love is a polaroid
better in a picture
but can never fill the void. ❞
the boy in the bubble || alec benjamin
❝ punch my face, do it cause i like the pain
every time you curse my name
i know you want the satisfaction,
it's not gonna happen
knock me out, kick me when i'm on the ground. ❞
say amen || panic! at the disco
❝ and if i try to change my life one more day
there would be nobody left to save. ❞
way down we go || kaleo
❝ father tell me we get what we deserve,
oh we get what we deserve. ❞
idfc || blackbear
❝ tell me pretty lies
look me in the face
tell me that you love me
even if is fake
you've been out all night
i don't know we're you been
slurring all your words
not making any sense. ❞
trust issues || olivia o'brien
❝ trust issues with trusting you
i got trust issues with trusting you. ❞
apologize || timbaland
❝ tell me that you mean it
then you go and cut me down
tell me that your sorry. ❞
dna || lia marie jonhson
❝ six pack coors light
you don't look the same,
hate to see you like a monster so i run and hide,
i won't be, no i won't be like you
fighting back, i'm fighting back the truth
eyes like yours can't look away
but you can't stop dna. ❞
far from home || sam tinnesz
❝ if you get to me too late,
just know that i tried. ❞
broken || lund
❝ yeah, i could slit my wrists
but it really wouldn't help
wouldn't fix my issues
or change my mind. ❞
bad man || austin jenckles
❝ ain't my fault, it's all i got
its so bad, man
you broke my broken will
and i can't go back
now i am who i am
you can't change me
'cause you made me. ❞
nicotine || panic! at the disco
❝ it's better to leave
then be replaced. ❞
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AUTHOR'S NOTE
So, as you can see, most of these songs are based off the relationship she has with her dad. And how she feels like she has to be good enough for him, perfect even.