Dear Jon, I just wanted to say that I love you. And thats saying alot in my opinion. As you know these last few days have been a rollercoaster for the both of us. Feelings have been thrown around and I think this is how I can say it best. Im in love with you, head over heels in love. Everytime im near you my face darkens to a crimson, my heart races, and I get butterflies in my stomach. I care about you alot, when I hear your upset I feel bad, because I want to make you feel better. I understand that this may be a bit pathetic to say but I am crazy in love with you. You mean so much to me and I want to make you happy. Even if I have to sacrifice my own happiness I want to. Sometimes I cry when I realize you probably wont love me back. Your one of the most important people in my life. You make me happy when your around, whenever you hug me or hold me I feel happy and protected, like nothing else in the world matters, like nothing can hurt me. You have helped me through the good and the bad, the bright and the dark. You have carried me through the darkness and stayed by my side until I was back in the light. You've helped me whenever I was scared or panicked and it means so much to me. I wish that I could have something deeper with you, deeper than friends. I want to date you, and hug you, kiss you...Sometimes I wonder about that and think 'If we were dating what would happen?' Everytime I ask someone they say that this is a first love. I would love to go on a date with you sometime...If you ever see this, which you probably won't, but if you do- consider it. Please. I have fallen for you, and hard. No matter how much you hurt my heart, and add a small crack, I dont care..I'll still love you. I cant just ignore my feelings like I have been. And I get why you wouldnt like me, but I will always love you. Your kind, funny, smart, creative, and all around an amazing person. We have similar interests and your pretty hot, if im being honest with myself. I just wish you would love me like I love you, as a lover. You have made a large dent in my heart with your behavior towards me, confusing my emotions and leading me on a bit. I hope you read this. Because I want you to know exactly how I feel. The honest truth. I love you and there is nothing in heaven nor hell that can change my mind. Your an incredible person jon, and Im honored to love you, be friends with you, and be loved by you. Even if it isnt the way I want.
Hi! Thanks for reading my crappy teenage sappy love story. Jon if you ever see this just know its the honest truth