CHLOE'S POV
"MIIRAA!" sigaw namin saka tumakbo papunta sa kanya sina troy at zach naman ay tumakbo papunta doon sa direksyon kung saan nanggaling yung pana. Si raven ay nanatiling nakatulala
Nang makalapit sa kanya ay lumuhod ako at nilagay ang ulo niya sa hita.
"Mira! Wag kang pipikit! Parating na iyong mga healers" sabi ko ng makita kong parang pipikit na ang mata niya at may lumalabas ng dugo sa bibig niya
"N-no need. A-alam kong di na ako m-magtatagal. T-tinamaan ako sa v-vital parts ko at w-walang magagawa ang mga healers dahil walang m-magic na ginamit sa p-pagpana sa akin" nahihirapang sabi ni Mira saka napaubo ng dugo
"Wag ka ng magsalita mira!" saway ni lia na may luha na ang mga mata. Damn! Pati ako naiiyak na din. Medyo napalapit na din kasi si Mira sa grupo namin kahit papano.
"P-please take care of Oneechan. Don't leave her. Just be patient with her. She maybe looks like she doesn't care to all of you but trust me she does. Kahit paunti-unti alam kong nasisira niyo na ang diyamanteng nakabalot sa puso niya. Kayo na lang ang pag-asa para magbago siya. Para maligtas ang mundo. Para mailigtas siya. Save her for me. Save her from the darkness. She needs all of you. Now is the time she needed the love you have for her that you always claimed. Be a good friend to her. Take care of her for me dahil kundi mumultuhin ko kayo at ako ang tatapos ng buhay niyo"
Paano niya nagagawang intindihin yung ibang tao gayong nasa bingit siya ng kamatayan? Paano niya nagagawang intindihin iyong taong ni hindi man lang siya matignan at kausapin? This kid. She is really selfless.
"How did you still manage to be selfless in the verge of dying?" naiiyak kong tanong mapait namang napangiti si mira sa sinabi ko saka napailing.
"I'm not being selfless. In fact, I'm being selfish. All along I protected Raven because I wanted her to be safe and knowing that she is safe gives me happiness. You see, I'm protecting her because she's my happiness not because I wanted her to be happy. I'm selfish because even though she wanted to die to end all her misery, I didn't let her. After all, she's my happiness. If she dies I will be miserable. All I think is myself and my happiness. I've never been selfless, when it comes to Raven I've always been selfish. This is the only selfless thing I can do for her" nanghihinang sabi ni Mira
"I-I'm happy to d-die p-protecting you Raven. Y-you're a-all I have. Y-you're my only f-family. Y-you're the sister that I never had. I'm g-glad that I m-met you. Y-you, g-gave me reasons to live my life to the f-fullest. I know that even just a little I have already become important to you even though you're not showing it. I hope that I have become useful to you. I l-love you Raven" nanghihinang sabi ni Mira saka napaubo ng dugo. Pero ni hindi man lang siya kinibo ni raven. Nanatili siyang nakatingin sa harap habang walang kahit anong emosyon ang nakarehistro sa mukha niya.
Damn! Is her heart that hard?! She could at least pretend to care and sad the person is already dying! How could she be this heartless?
Unti-unting pinikit ni mira ang mga mata ng may ngiti sa labi at doon na siys tuluyang nawalan ng hininga.
Nagulat kami ng naglakad palayo si raven.
"Raven! Where are you going?!" tanong ni lia
"Somewhere," malamig na sabi ni raven saka tuluyang umalis ng di man lang lumilingon
"Let's just understand her, maybe she's having a hard time accepting mira's death," tanging nasabi ni zach
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Mamaya na ang libing ni mira pero hindi parin nagpapakita si raven kaya napagdesisyunan naming puntahan siya sa dorm niya.
Nagdoorbell kami at ilang minuto bago niya binuksan ang pintuan. Napabuntong hininga lang siya saka umupo. Pumasok naman kami dahil iniwan niyang nakabukas ang pinto.
"Di mo man lang ba titignan kahit isang beses lang si mira?" di makapaniwalang tanong ko
"What for?" tanong niya
"Di ka man lang ba naawa doon sa bata?! Binuwis niya ang buhay niya para sayo pero kahit tignan man lang siya bago siya ilibing di mo magawa?" tanong ko
"What do you wanted me to do then? Do you want me to cry for her? To mourn for her death? Or do you wanted me to blame myself for her death?" malamig niyang tanong
"That's not what I meant! I want you to atleast say goodbye to her for the last time! That's the only thing you can do to show your gratitude to her for saving your life!" sabi ko
"If I did that will she bring back to life? Not right? So what's the use of doing that?" malamig na tanong ni raven
"Hindi ka man lang ba nalulungkot? Alam naming nasasaktan ka pero pinipilit mo lang itago. Okay lang naman maging mahina ka raven kahit pa minsan-minsan. Kami nga na sandali lang siya nakasama ay nasasaktan. Ikaw pa kayang matagal siyang nakasama! May mawawala ba sayo kung ipapakita mo samin na nasasaktan ka. Hindi ka naman namin huhusgahan" sabi ni lia
"I think you got me wrong. I'm not sad nor hurting. I don't feel anything. I don't have any emotions and I'm not saying it just because I wanted to look cool or I'm just being hard. Sa tingin niyo ba gusto ko na ganito ako? Na walang pakiramdam? Gusto kong malungkot, sumaya, magalit pero hindi ko magawa kasi wala akong nararamdaman. Hindi ko kaya. Buhay ako physically pero patay na ako mentally and emotionally. I'm death itself. I'm already too damaged to be fixed. I already accepted that. I already gave up so stop trying to fix me because it's all useless afterall. It's not like I wanted to be fixed at the first place" sabi ni raven na nagpagulat sa amin. Akala namin kaya niya sinasabing wala siyang nararamdaman dahil matigas lang talaga ang puso niya pero hindi pala.
The key for her to change is bring back her emotions. But how? How can we bring back the thing we didn't know how it lose to begin with?
"Raven" naiiyak na sabi ni lia
"Don't look at me with pity. I don't need it" malamig na sabi ni raven at akmang lalapit si zach pero pinigilan siya ni raven
"Don't. Don't come near me. Stay away from me, all of you. Ngayong alam niyo na siguro naman susuko na kayo. Sabi ko naman sa inyo diba? Mabibigo lang kayo sa akin. Yung pagkakaibigan na binibigay niyo sa akin kailanman ay hindi ko matatanggap at tatanggapin dahil hindi ko alam kung paano magmahal at magpahalaga ng iba kahit nga sa sarili ko eh hindi ko kayang mahalin at pahalagahan kayo pa kaya? Yung pagbabago na gusto niyong gawin ko wag niyo ng ipilit dahil hindi yun kailanman mangyayari" sabi ni raven saka ngumisi
"See? I'm a heartless person. I'm happy when the people around me die. All of them deserve to be in hell and die. I killed them mercilessly and I did that without even blinking and feeling remorse that's how heartless and cold-blooded devil I am" sabi ni raven habang nakangiti na para bang demonyo
Nanlaki ang mga mata namin dahil sa sinabi niya? What the f*ck?! She even killed her own adopted parents?
"Stop!! Kung sinasabi mo lang ito para sumuko kami. Please stop!!" nanginginig na sabi ni lia napatawa naman si raven
"You see, I'm a heartless person. I'm happy when the people around me dies. All of them deserves to be in hell and die. I killed them mercilessly and I did that without even blinking that's how heartless and cold blooded devil I am"
Lumabas kaming lahat ng bigo. Tama paba? Tama pabang pilitin namin siya sa isang bagay na hindi naman niya kayang gawin at hindi niya rin naman ginustong gawin? Tama pabang ipilit namin ang gusto namin? Dapat naba talaga namin siyang sukuan katulad ng sinabi niya?
"Ngayon niya tayo pinakakailangan. Di natin siya dapat sukuan. Hindi niya kailangan magbago. Minahal natin siya kahit gaano pa siya kasama at kawalang puso. Malayo na ang narating natin ngayon paba natin siya susukuan? Saka di naman tayo santo. Kahit tayo nabahiran na ng dugo ang mga kamay. Ang pinagkaiba lang niya sa atin ay mas masama siya kaysa sa atin" sabi ni zach pero di na kami sumagot
"Ano ba guys? Why are you acting like that?" malamig na tanong ni zach
"It's just that we don't know what to think of her anymore. Yes we killed but when it was just needed. We don't kill for no reason" sabi ko
"If you think that she's a devil then I'm also a devil. We're just the same. My other side Dark King has also killed for no reason. He killed thousands of people. Physically and mentally we're just one person. So if dark kings is a devil then so do I. And we don't know the whole story maybe she has a reason for killing her adopted parents and other people. We shouldn't judge her drastically" sabi ni zach
"Understand her and fighting for her is the only thing we can do for her. If she's really a devil then she shouldn't have saved us in the first place. She's always saving us every time we needed help. She can do her plan without fixing our friendship and saving our asses but she still did" sabi ni zach
"You've changed Zach. Before you won't talk more than 2 sentence but now you can able to produce a speech. How marvelous. Is that what love can do?" nang-aasar na sabi ni Lia
"I don't love her" walang emosyong sabi ni zach
"Yeah. Sure. Maybe you're face and voice were emotionless but we know you better than that. You can't always fool us with that cold expression of yours" sabi ni troy pero di na sumagot pa si zach
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RAVEN'S POV
NAPABUNTONG hininga na lang ako ng umalis na sa wakas sila ash. Pumikit na lang ako saka nilagay ang braso ko sa mata ko para takpan ito.
"The more you show you're true feelings the more people find ways to hurt you"
Bigla na lang pumasok sa isipan ko ang sinabi noon ni calissa. Napabuga na lang ako ng hangin.
"Siguro naman titigil na sila sa ginagawa nila" sabi ko
I wanted them to gave up pero may kung ano sa loob ko na hindi gusto ang mga katagang iyon.
I already had too many wounds that will never heal. I don't need to have more scars from them. They won't bring any good to me and vice versa. I will push them far away from me repeatedly until they decided to give up because being far away from me means no danger.
Bigla na naman pumasok sa isipan ko ang pagkamatay ni mira. Naaalala ko ang binulong niya sakin bago siya bumagsak.
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It's a code and I know what it means. I will make sure that they'll pay tenfold. You'll reap what you sow. I'll make them realize that they did a wrong move. They shouldn't mess with the QUEEN.
"Miss Raven!" napahawak na lang ako sa sintido ko ng marinig ko ang boses na iyon
Aish! Di paba siya nagsasawang sundan ako? Daig niya pa ang stalker kung makasunod! Pasaway!
"What?" inis na tanong ko sa malamig na tono
"Pwede bang samahan mo akong pumunta ng restroom? Natatakot kasi akong pumunta ng mag-isa baka mamaya may dumakip na lang bigla sa akin na isa sa mga stalker ko" sabi ni mira
"But-" di na niya ako pinatapos at bigla na lang akong hinila papunta sa restroom.
Nang makapunta na kami doon ay huminto siya sa tapat ng cubicle.
"What are you waiting for? Faster. I'm going to be late" sabi ko
"Okay! Wag mo kong iiwan ha! Diyan ka lang sa labas!" sabi niya saka pumasok sa loob ng isa sa mga cubicle. Napailing na lang ako. Itong batang ito hindi talaga natatakot sa akin. Kung turuan ko kaya siya ng leksyon? Lagi siyang nakabuntot sa akin kahit na alam niyang ako ang pumatay sa buong pamilya niya. Ang sabi niya lang sa akin noon nung tinanong ko siya ay
'Because you're a mystery'
Oh diba? Napakaganda ng sagot niya? Sa tingin ko talaga nasiraan na ng bait ang batang iyan dahil sa pagpatay ko sa buong pamilya niya.
"Mira lumabas kana. Alam ko namang hindi ka talaga na ccr. It's just an excuse, right? They did it again, right?" tanong ko
Binuksan niya ang cubicle saka lumabas doon.
"Wala talagang makakalagpas sa galing ng pakiramdam at talas ng pag-iisip mo" sabi ni Mira saka nagkamot ng ulo
"How many times do I need to tell you that you don't need to save me everytime they're doing it? I can protect myself." sabi ko
"Hindi naman ako sa iyo nag-aaalala eh! Doon sa mga estudyanteng nambubully sa iyo ako nag-aalala baka kasi di ka makapag pigil at mapatay mo pa sila. Makulong kapa ng dahil lang sa pagkitil sa walang kwenta nilang mga buhay" sabi ni mira
"So you don't wanted me in jail? Why is that?" tanong ko
"Because you're the only one I had so I don't wanted to lose you too" sabi ni mira
"You don't have me Mira and it's not true that I'm the only one that you have because you still have yourself and you have your gangmates that loves you and cares for you not just because you're their leader but because they already considered you as a sister. It's just that you're only focusing on me so you couldn't see the people who truly love and cares for you. Stop wasting your time on me, Mira." sabi ko
"Lumalapit ka lang naman sa akin dahil akala mo magkaparehas tayo. Pero nagkakamali ka, dahil ikaw buhay pa pero ako? I'm already dead inside and out. The only one that keeps me moving was the hatred in my heart" dagdag ko
"Get away from or else you'll die" sabi ko sa malamig na boses saka umalis at iniwan siya doon
Makauwi na nga lang total hindi naman na ako nakapasok sa first subject mas mabuti pang ituloy-tuloy ko na.
Kinabukasan inagahan ko ng pumasok baka may gawin na namang kalokohan ang mga MABABAIT kong mga kaklase. Well wala namang may gusto sakin dito sa paaralang ito. Kahit nga ang mga guro at ang may-ari ng school na ito ay hindi gustong nandidito ako.
Sino ba namang may gustong makasama sa iisang lugar ang isang monster freak na katulad ko diba?
Naghihintay lang sila na makagawa ako ng pagkakamali para magkaroon sila ng dahilan para mapaalis ako sa school na ito. So I have no choice but to endure their shits. Ito na ang huling school na pwede kong pasukan. Lahat ng school dito napasukan ko na pero lagi akong nakikick out. Nakakatawa pa nito ay hindi naman ako ang nagsimula ng gulo ako pa nga ang naagrabyado pero ako pa ang napaalis. Ironic isn't it?
Pagkadating ko sa school ay nakita ko si Mira na pinupunasan ang upuan ko. Nakita kong may mga drawing doon na halimaw at nakasulat doon ang salitang halimaw gamit ang pintura. Kulay pulang pintura ang ginamit nilang pangdrawing sa upuan ko kaya nagmukha iyong dugo.
Nagsidatingan na din ang mga kaklase ko. Napatingin sila kay mira. Nakita ko ang pagkadisgusto at pandidiri nila habang nakatingin sa ginagawa ni mira.
Nakita ko kung paano nahihirapan si Mira na tanggalin ang pintura sa upuan ko.
"What do you think you are doing Mira?" malamig kong tanong kay mira
Pero di niya ako pinansin at nagpatuloy lang sa pagpupunas sa upuan ko.
"Bakit ikaw ang nagpapakahirap na punasan yang upuan ko? Ikaw ba ang nagpinta niyan diyaan? Itigil mo iyan" sabi ko ngunit di niya parin ako pinansin at mas lalong pinag-igihan ang pagpupunas sa upuan ko kaya napakuyom ako ng kamao.
"Ang sabi ko itigil mo iyan" galit na sabi ko saka ko siya tinulak palayo sa upuan ko
"R-raven it's my fault. I'm the one who did that to your chair" sabi ni Mira
"Do you think I'm stupid to believe that? Who did this to my chair?" malamig kong tanong sa mga kaklase ko
Nakita ko ang bakas ng takot sa mga mata nila.
"Wala bang aamin sa inyo?" tanong ko
"It's Mira. She already admitted it so why you keep on asking us?" tanong ni Shayne na halata namang natatakot pero pinipilit lang magmatapang.
"Because I'm not that fool to believe her. So tell me who f*cking did this?" sabi ko pero walang nagsalita ni isa sa kanila kaya hinawakan ko ang upuan ko saka itinapon sa kanila ng malakas pero wala namang tinamaan nasira lang yung upuan.
"Wala ba talagang aamin sa inyo?" tanong ko
"What's the meaning of this Miss Scott?"
Napatingin sila sa nagsalita at ako naman ay nanatiling nakatingin lang sa harap at pinipilit kontrolin ang galit ko.
"Salamat at dumating din kayo sa wakas Mr. Manalo. This monster freak keeps on blackmailing us! She's scaring all of us" sabi ni Lea ang Queen Bee dito sa school at numero unong nagpapasimuno sa pang gugulo sa tahimik kong buhay.
"Is this true, Miss Scott?" Mr. Manalo— the school's Dean asked that made me scoffed.
"If I tell you no would you believe me?"
"See? Mr. Manalo did you see how ill-mannered she is? She's a war freak! We want her out of this school! Di na nakakapag-aral ng maayos ang mga estudyante dito dahil sa takot sa kanya" sabi ni Izel kaibigan ni Lea
"Bakit ba kayo natatakot sa akin? Ni minsan ba may sinaktan ako ni isa sa inyo?" tanong ko
"Because you're a monster freak can't you see it? Halimaw ka! Hindi ka tao! Kaya bakit hindi kami matatakot sa iyo? Bakit kaba kasi nandito ha? Wala namang may gusto sayo dito! Ang dapat sayo mawala dahil isa kang salot! Halimaw! Demonyo!" sagot ni lea
"How can you say I'm a monster? Are you a God or something?" I retorted
"I don't need to be a God to tell that you're a monster. Only blinds can't see that you're one" sabi ni Lea
"If that's what you really believe then I can't do anything about it. But I'm telling you no secret can be kept forever." sabi ko sabay sa tiyan ni Lea at saka tinignan si Mr. Manalo
"Miss Scott! That's enough!" sigaw ni Mr. Manalo
"What do you mean?! I don't keep any secrets! You bitch! Don't slander me! I'm not like you! Everyone here knows that you're a slut! You're flirting with all the boys here at school!" sigaw ni lea pero halata ang takot sa boses niya
"If you really don't have a secret then what will you call to the baby inside your womb and the father who turned out Mr. Manalo who already has a family? Oops! It suddenly slipped in my mouth and I mean it. I'm a bitch, right? Then I'm going to show you how bitch I am. It's better to be a bitch than to be a leech. I'm flirting with all of you guys here at school? Is that why you f*cked all the men here in the school? Just to prove that you're way more beautiful and famous than me? Are you really that threatened to me? How itchy your pussy is to make you desperate to have a dick inside it? I won't be shocked if you already f*cked all the guys here in school. You said I'm a slut well congratulations because you're a professional whore. It's better to be a monster who did nothing but to scare others than to be a homewrecker, whore, and a gold digger like you. Also, I never flirted with any man. In fact, they're the ones who keep on throwing themselves to me. Because, unlike you Lea, I can get any man I want without doing anything while you on the other hand have to put an effort to seduce them first just so you can get them and that's our big difference, remember that." sabi ko kaya napaiyak na si Lea sa sobrang pagkahiya
"You don't have any evidence you bitch!" sabi Izel at nagngitngit sa galit habang pinapatahan si lea
"Evidence you say? Here and oh! I forgot to tell you when I said that all guys here in school are her f*ckmates, I mean all of them, and your oh-so-lovely loyal boyfriend is not an exception. Is that the new definition of best friends today? Sharing with one d*ck eh? How generous of you, Izel." sabi ko saka hinagis ang cellphone ko kung saan pinapakita ang sex video ni lea sa lahat ng lalaki dito sa school kasama na din doon ang boyfriend ni izel. Mabilis na sinabunutan ni izel si Lea.
"You whore! I trusted you! I treated you like a sister, you bitch!" galit na sigaw ni Izel pero di ko na iyon pinansin at naglakad na palabas
"Miss Scott where are you going?!" galit na sigaw ni mr. Manalo
"Kicking myself out before you kick me out? Don't you worry Mr. Manalo I already sent a copy of your sex scandal with Lea to your lovely family? Oh! And I also sent a copy to the owner of this damn school and the media. So you better say goodbye to your job, to your family, and your goddamn reputation. I won't go down alone, I'll drag all of you to hell with me. Isn't great?"sabi ko saka ngumisi at tuluyang naglakad palayo.
They wanted to piss me off? I will give them what they wanted. I will give them a fair share of their medicine. I let them hurt me physically and called me names but it's a different matter when it comes to that child. That kid, I don't want her to be like me. I can see myself in her when I was her age but she still has hope. She can still change her path to the light. I can still get her out of the darkness that I'm within. I'll make sure she won't end up like me.
YUN yung naging dahilan kung bakit ako nakick out sa huli kong school na pinasukan sa mortal world. Binubully ako dati hindi lang halata at ayaw ko ding may makaalam. Ayaw kong kaawaan ako ng iba. Sa totoo lang di na nga lang iyon basta bully, harrassment na iyon eh. Doon lang sa school na iyon ako nagtiis at pinahaba ang pasensya ko dahil yun na lang ang huling school na pwede kong pasukan.
Sa mga dati ko kasing school lagi akong nasasangkot sa gulo. Minsan ako yung nagpapasimuno ng gulo minsan naman hindi. Pero kahit naman sabihin kong hindi wala din namang maniniwala sa akin kaya nga ang ginawa ko pinapatulan ko na yung iba eh. Kasi mapapaalis na lang din ako sa school so dapat hindi lang ako magdusa kundi pati sila. Yun nga lang ako ang nagpaparusa sa kanila so ibig sabihin mas brutal at mas masakit hindi lang ang katawan kundi pati na utak nila. They need to suffer the consequences. Di ako papayag na di ako makakaganti.
And that is what is going to happen to the Cerberus. I will punish them. They wanted a war? Then I will give them war and their lives will be the payment. It's not enough that they'll die. They need to suffer. They need to feel pain. I will drag them all to hell with me. Slowly and painfully. Tooth for a tooth. Eye for an eye. Life for a life. Soul for a soul. I will bring them all to hell.
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To be continued.....