I look around the cafeteria for Dylan, I couldn't find him this morning. I really wanted to talk to him about yesterday and everything that happened. Was he even here. I turn bumping into someone.
"Sorry" we both say. I look up. It was Jasper. He was on the basketball team.
"Oh hey Jo" he says.
"Hey, have you seen Dylan?" I asked.
"Yeah.. He should be at our table" he responds. "Come" he nods and I go with him to their table. He was sitting talking to friends.
"We've got a visitor" jasper sits down. Dylan looks.
"Hey can we talk?" I asked. He nods curtly. He gets up and we get out of the busy, and loud ass cafeteria.
"Hey... so I wanted to talk about yesterday" I said fiddling with my fingers.
"Yeah, can you tell your friend Sam, that he can mind his own fucking business and that you can speak for yourself" he says. Huh? I give him a confused look.
"Wh-what? I'm confused?" I said.
"Yeah, your friend Sam got mad at me for the talk we had yesterday" he rolls his eyes.
"Why? What did he say?" I asked.
"Why don't you ask him. You guys are super close" he says.
"Can you not be a moody dick right now" I groan. "I haven't done anything" I mutter. "Like what? I'm confused."
"Ask Sam Jo" he sighs.
"I will" I say.
"Are you coming tonight or not?" He crosses his arms.
"Yeah I probably am" I said. "This is not what I wanted to talk about."
"I don't want to talk about yesterday, I'm sick of Sam always being in shit" he says.
"I didn't know..." I sigh.
"Yeah I know" he sighs back.
"What's going on?"
"I don't know" he shrugs.
"Why are you and at me?" I asked.
"I'm not" he runs a hand through his hair.
"Then are we good?" I asked.
"Yeah were great" he nods.
"Fine, you obviously aren't willing to talk though so I'm going" I sigh. "I'll see you tonight."
I walk away, confused and kind of mad.
I get to our table and everyone's there.
"You good?" Austin asks I nod. I turn to Sam.
"We need to talk after school" I said. I didn't want to have an argument or whatever with him right now as well.
"Alright" he nods.
"How was Dylan?" Austin asks.
"He was fine" I mutter. "I don't know what's going on" I sigh shaking my head.
"I'm sure he'll be fine. Maybe it's basketball" Austin pats my back.
"Yeah" I nod. I didn't believe that. I was confused and honestly hurt by what Dylan was doing. I thought we were going great. And what did Sam say to him? About what we talked about? Why would he? I'm so confused that it was literally giving me a headache. I look around just thinking of everything. I wasn't concentrating on the conversations or anything. Just Dylan and Sam and all that shit. Why did life have to be complicating right now? Can't everything work out once for me?
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I go into my closet grabbing some clothes.
"So, What did you want to talk about?" Sam asks me when I come out of the closet dropping the clothes onto my bed. He was sitting on the bed as well.
"What did you say to Dylan?" I asked looking at him confused.
"When?" He asked.
"Yesterday. When I was kinda mad and called him a douche?" I asked again. "He told me that you cake up to him getting mad."
"Yeah. He was being a douche bag" he nods.
"Sam" I sigh.
"What?" He asks.
"You can't do that!" I state.
"Why?" He asks. "You're my friend. And he had no right to treat you like shit."
"It's different" I raise my voice a little bit.
"What?" He scoffs standing up.
"Yeah. You aren't my boyfriend, I can stand up for myself if I needed you to do something for me I'd ask" I say he rolls his eyes. "I'm a grown girl I'm sure I can handle myself."
"Don't tell me you problems them" he says. "Sorry is good up for you! When you didn't do anything for yourself! Sorry I'm there for fucking YOU! You have no logical reason to be mad at me for standing up for you!" He raised his voice.
"I do!! I can do it myself. I don't need my FRIENDS! To go and do it for me" I yell.
"Well Jo. Your FRIENDS! Don't like to see you angry or sad about a fucking douche bag like him. And maybe he should be more of a BOYFRIEND and be there! Like when you're at a party drunk and want to go home. He should maybe drive you home! Or when you have a panic attack and need someone He should be there calming you!! Or when you want someone to er coffee with at nighttime. MAYBE!! You two should do that. Don't come at me for being a good friend and not letting an asshole hurt you!" He yells.
"Just fuck off Sam!! Honestly!! You can't get into fights I have with my boyfriend!" I yell back.
"Then don't come running to me for advice about shit. Or when it comes to your fucking dad who hated him by the way!" He says.
"Whatever. I won't. I don't need to" I said. His jaw was clenched.
"Good to know" he mutters.
"Get out of my house" I said.
"I was planning on that" he looks at me disappointed. "Go have fun with that asshole that you call a boyfriend, and don't come running to me after he goes and hurts you like the fuckboy he is" he says walking out of the room.
"Believe me I won't" I said back.
"Great for me! I don't need that baggage" he yells out. And I hear the door slam. I stare at my room door lips parted. Confused, angry, sad, everything. What just happened? I take a deep breath and turn around closing my eyes for a minute. It all happened so quick and... weird. Oh my god.
I text Austin assign if he can drive he responds yes. Maybe this party will help me. I really, really need a distraction, something to make me forget tonight. I sit on my bed. So was that it? Were me and Sam just done being friends. I look around my room erratically. Please let the rest of my night go well.
~
"So what happened?" Austin asks as he drives.
"Me and Sam got into a fight" I sigh.
"About?" He asks.
"I really don't want to get into it again Austin please. I just want the rest of my night to go good" I said.
"Okay" he nods. "I'm here babe."
"Thanks I know, I love you" I say.
"Love you always" He smiles.
We got to the house moments later. It was packed and I felt a little bit of anxiety rise in my throat. But I was sure I would be fine.
We get inside and the music was loud people were everything. It reeked of alcohol and weed. I look around. I see Dylan.
"I'm gonna go get drinks" Austin says I nod.
"I'm gonna talk to Dylan" I said he nods and we go out speedster ways. I walk over to him.
"Hey!" I yell over the music he swings around to face me.
"Hey Jo" he slurred. He was wasted. Completely. "Where's your friend sammm" he says.
"No here" I say.
"Surprising" he rolls his eyes. "I mean. You guys are seeing each other right?" He asks.
"What?" I scoff. "No, were not even friends anymore."
"Why's that? He found someone else?" He laughs.
"Don't be an asshole right now Dylan" I say.
"Sorry baby, I just don't want my girlfriend to be having an affair" he said.
"I'm not. So stop saying it" I said.
"Alright" he nods.
"Do you really not believe me?" I asked.
"I don't know anymore" he shakes his head. "I just want to have fun Jo, please don't ruin it."
I stare at him.
"Have all the fun you want" I mutter walking away. I go to the kitchen. I needed to have serious fun. Real fun. I hated what was going on in my life right now. Austin had drinks ready for us. I take one and down half of it.
"Wow bitch" he laughs.
"Believe me I need it" I groan.
"Wanna dance with me?" He asks.
"No go ahead though" I said.
"I'll be right there waiting if you wanna join" he leaves to dance. I finish the rest and pouring myself more. Let's have some fun.
~
I had a couple of drinks. I was tipsy. I was not fully drunk. But it was nice. I was dancing. Laughing. Having a good time. I needed it. And I was enjoying it. I sit down on the couch with a sigh. I was sweeting a bit.
"Jooo!!!" Kyle sits next to me.
"Hey Kyle" I smile.
"He's the night going for you Joey?" He asks.
"The beginning of the night was complete shit. But I'm actually having a lot of fun now" I smile he nods.
"That's good to hear" he nods. "My nights pretty great."
"That's good to hear as well, we shine deserves a good night" I reply.
"I completely agree with that" he nods. "Here's to good nights am I right."
"You are" I nod.
"So where's the bf?" He asks.
"Somewhere around here" I shrug. "He's a little mad at me for some odd ass reason.."
"That's dumb" he sighs.
"I gotta pee" I say.
"You do that" he laughs. I get up.
"See ya" I said and make my way upstairs
Now which one is the bathroom? I open the first one and nothing only an empty room. Nope. Another. Nope. Jesus this better not be endless. I sigh opening another to find 2 people half naked almost having sex jeez.
"Do not disturb please" Said a familiar voice and the girl giggles.
"Sorry, I was just looking for the washroom" I say and the guy turns immediately. I blink to adjust and my jaw drops when I see Dylan. I felt tears immediately make its way to make eyes.
"Jo!!" He gets off the girl and runs up to me.
"No" I shake my head. The girl looks and I felt the tears almost spill out of my eyes at who I saw. Stella was riding there wide eyed and shirtless. "Oh my god" I said.
"Please!" He grabs my hand.
"Don't fucking!! Touch me!" I pull it away from him. "You... you guys..." my lip quivers I bite it. "You disgust me" I breathe out.
"Jo... I'm drunk. I don't know anything I'm doing right now" he says.
"Don't speak to me! Both of you" I look at Stella.
"Wait" she says.
"Don't even look my way" I said. I blink back the many tears that are threatening to spill. "I can't believe you Stella."
"Jo... no just listen please" he says.
"I'm done with you Dylan please leave me alone, you've done way more than enough" I say. Oh my god. So much was going through my mind. I stare at them for one more minute and turn around and run downstairs. There were way too many people in here. I was starting to panic.
I take deep breaths pushing past the crowds. Oh my god. Dylan... Stella. I felt the tears rush back. I make my way outside and gasp for air. The tears immediately start spilling out of my eyes. No! No! This can't be. Why tonight. I just start crying walking away from that house. My breathing is messy and choppy and it's hard. I feel like I'm suffocating and gonna die. Breathe Jo. Dylan and Stella. "Do not disturb please" her giggle. Everything. Dylan, Stella... Sam. Oh my god. I look around me. I was gonna have a panic attack. I was having one.
"No... no... please" I breathe out my tears keep faking. "Please no" I breathe. "Stella..."
I don't have anyone. Austin is having fun, I don't want to ruin it. I'm having a panic attack in the middle of Butt fuck no where. I can't breathe. I'm sobbing. I'm drinking my own tears. Oh my god. "Why!" I cry out wiping them away but they keep coming back. I hear her giggles on repeat like it's taunting me. Stop!! Stop.
I continue walking. I need to get home. As soon as ducking possible so I can breathe. So I can calm down. I really really needed someone right now. But I have nothing. No one. As I walked along the side walk panicking and crying. I realized I had nothing. No one here for me. Austin was drunk and having fun. Sam is mad at me. Dylan fucking cheated on me with one of my best friends Stella. And I didn't even have a mom to go to. Please mom. Be here with me right now. I need someone.
"I need you" I cry. "Someone..."
My house was like 20 minutes away driving. Everything was falling apart. Of course... the night I have my fight with Sam, this came crashing down on me also. I needed to control myself, and breathe normally and calm down. I'm panicking hardcore. I lean against a tree taking deep breaths. I wipe my tears but those don't stop. I need to get home. As soon as possible.
I some how made my way to my house. I go in and went straight up to my room and. Cried. Thinking about everything. Letting everything come out. This night ruined my life. I lost Sam... over me protecting my dumbass boyfriend ex, and Stella... and the least I care for. Dylan. Tonight has ruined my life.
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A/N
And here was the drama.... DUN DUN DUHHHHHH. Sorry!? I don't know guys. I just hope you liked it, tell me your thoughts on this chapter and what you think will happen with everyone. And Stella really!? But yeah, Jam has broken up... there friendship obvi. We'll see what happens with them tho. Enjoy and you know my usual. Lmao. Xoxo.
-Jana🤙🏽