The elevator stopped and I turned to them
Me:go to the fourth floor room 592 I'll text mickey when you need to knock on the door cover to peep hole say your room service
Mickey:Okay
I got off and went to room 389 which was directly under room 592 I walked in the room and no one was in there. I went on the balcony and I climbed on it I grabbed room 592's balcony the curtains were closed so I climbed up onto 592's balcony and I texted Mickey I heard the knock from inside and put the silencer on my gun I opened the balcony door and saw my babies sleeping. Mickey and his brothers pushed their way inside and I shot the guy in the head I tossed Mickey my gun and I picked up my babies and we left. We got home and I put the babies in their basinets in the kitchen Mickey's brothers left I washed the blood off my hands and I pulled off my shirt which had blood on it
Mickey:You okay
Me:Yeah why
Mickey:Cause youjust killed two people for the first time
I looked at him
Me:They took my babies a so I killed them
Mickey kissed me but differently than usual the kiss broke
Mickey:I love you
I was taken back Mickey had never said that sober
Me:I love you too Mick
The door opened and Lip walked in
Lip looked pissed
Lip:seriously
Me:what
Lip:do you not remember the conversation we had
Me:Yea and I told you I didn't like you
Lip:and you chose a fucking Milovich
Mickey:watch your fucking mouth
Lip:what are you gonna do Mickey
Mickey stepped up to him and he pulled out a fucking gun and put it to Mickey's chest I walked over and I punched Lip in the face and he dropped the gun I kicked it away and he stood up
Me:What the fuck is wrong with you?!?!
Lip:Good thing about being with a milkovich there's always someone better
Me:Shut the fuck up
Lip was clearly drunk
Lip:why Tessa your angry that I'm nit picking your fag
Everything went red I kicked Lip in the balls and he hit the ground I got on him and just started beating him. The front door opened and Ian walked in Mickey pulled me off Lip and Ian Pulled lip away. I tried to get out of Mickey's grip but he held my arms
Mickey:hey hey!! Tessa look at me
I looked into his eyes
Mickey:everythings fine right your Okay....right
Me:*sighs* Yeah...yea
Ian came in
Ian:what the fuck was that
Me:I-I uh I don't know
I got outta mickey's grip and went upstairs into my bathroom I put cold water on my face. I walked back downstairs. and Mickey and Ian had the babies in their carseats
Me:what the...
Ian:come on
Me:Where are we going
Ian:the doctors
Me:Why
Ian:you need to see somebody what your doing isn't normal
Me:what the fuck are you talking about
Ian looked at Mickey
Mickey:c'mon just get it outta the way
Me:*sighs* Fine
We left and got to the mental doctor and I got evaluated and then Mickey,Ian and I sat down in chairs across a desk from a female doctor Mrs.Dime
Mrs.Dime:So I am diagnosing you with DPD
Ian:what's that
Mrs.Dime:Its' Dependant personality disorder the symptoms dont also ocurr but when they do they can be scary the person with DPD can become attached to someone who makes them feel secure and safe but they are in a somewhat constant state of fear that the person will be hurt which in turn causes vicious actions it's like a uh flip switches in their brain that said person will be gone if the threat isn't taken care of
Me:this is fucking ridiculous
Mrs.Dime:Ms.Parker I am going to put you on medication it'll tkae 2 weeks for it to work properly and kick in then the protectivness will start to fade and she should resume normaly.
We left the office and we got home. It was late the babies were asleep and Ian and Mickey were upstairs. I finished the dishes and I dried my hands and I grabbed the six pack outta the fridge and I sat down on the floor and I drank until the last on was empty. I heard footsteps and I looked up and saw Mickey He sat down across from me on the floor.
Mickey:what are you doing
Me:Sitting here
Mickey:what he fuck is wrong
I laughed
Me:*laughs* Jesus fucking christ, I'm so alone that I have DPD and I have attached myself to you *laughs*
Mickey:so
Me:God I'm fucking pathetic
Mickey:No your not
Me:I may not be physically alone but mentally.......I see no one I never even know if I'm really happy or if I'm just oing through the motions because I'm comfortable
I crawled over to him and I grabbed his hands
Me:But when I'm with you I feel like I'm actually living like I'm not just fucking sitting in space running through these motions cause thats what I'm supposed to do You make me want to live but I guess thats why I have DPD cause without .....I'm nothing
Then I fell asleep
Mickey's POV
"Tessa:But when I'm with you I feel like I'm actually living like I'm not just fucking sitting in space running through these motions cause thats what I'm supposed to do You make me want to live but I guess thats why I have DPD cause without .....I'm nothing" She laid down on my lap and fell asleep. Jesus fucking christ Tessa what the hell. This girl really fucking needs me
The Next Day
I woke up in bed. I grabbed my phone it was 1 p.m. I got outta bed and I showered and I got out and put on the outfit below
I walked downstairs and into the kitchen the guys were down there with the babies. I got myself coffee in a to go cup.
Mickey:So we gonna talk about what happened last night
Me:I have Business tot ake care of so Mickey your staying home and Ian I know you have the day off today so you'll be assisting him
I started walking away
Mickey:Tessa!
I turned around
Me:I am not talking about me being pathetic last night cause I had a 6 pack in my system
Ian:Pills
He threw me my bottle I opened itand took one I threw my bottle back and left. I had a few meetings then I left to the laundry mat. I walked in and Fiona was there.
Fiona:Hey mom
Me:*smiles* Hey
Fiona:I'll be right back I'm gonna go in the back and get the cash
Me:Okay
She went back and came back out and handed me an envelope.
Me:looks like business is booming
Fiona:Yeah few weeks open and the cash flow is imense
Me:I see I'll see you around Gallagher
Fiona:You too
I left and I went and diposited the money into the bank and then I went grocery shopping and went home Ian helped me bring everything in and I put everything away
I grabbed a notepad an a pen
Me:Ian
Ian:diapers,baby powder,toilet paper,
I wrote that down along with a few other things
Me:is there anything you want Ian
Ian:yes here
He gave me a list
Me:Mickey
Mickey:I'm coming with
Me:*sighs* fine lets go
We left we got to the store and I got everything for the house then I started getting things Ian wants.