Sounds of something breaking
I suddenly wake up from my sleep
The sounds are full of unfamiliarity
I try to cover my ears but I still fail to get back to sleep
My throat keeps hurting
I try to cover it up
I dont have a voice
Im hearing those sounds again today
The same sound is starting to ring again
The cracks start to appear on the frozen lake
I threw myself away into the lake
I buried my own voice for you
On top of the winter lake that I threw myself into
I thick layer of Ice has formed
Even in dreams that I visit for a short time
My phantom pain continues to agonize me just the same
Did I lose myself?
Or did I gain you?
I suddenly run to the lake again
I see my face lying in it
I beg you, please dont say a word
I reach out my hand to cover your mouth
Spring arrives in the end
The ice melts and drifts away
Tell me if my voice was ever real
Should I have thrown myself away?
Tell me if this pain is even real
What should I have done back then?