I used to live and breathe this club. Everything I did was for the club or because of the club. Here I am again in church and all I can think of is Vi. I love her more than I ever have anyone, apparently even my club. I know Vi is safe in my bed with Diego watching over her so I shake myself from my thoughts and concentrate on the club.
"So we know this is where The Diablos were keeping Violet, I suggest we go hunting and take out any of the mother fuckers still there. What do you say guys?" Bear says pointing to the map
"Let's do it" Knuckles says banging his fist on the table
"I'm in" says Dragon
"We should hit it tonight. I want those bastards to suffer" I say looking around at my brothers. Everyone agrees so Bear closes church and we head out. I find Diego sat at the bar and he turns towards me
"We need to talk about Lucy" he says, I can see how concerned he is, but she's like a sister to him. I nod and sit on the bar stool next to him
"We need to figure out how to get the old Lucy back. I said about training once she heals and she told me she's not fighting anymore, that she's done. She called me Diego, she's always called me Didi, since we were kids." He says before knocking back another tequila
"I know, I hate seeing her like this, I want the girl I fell in love with back. I think she just needs time, we need to pull together for her and help her get through this, she'll soon be back, I know it." I reply as the prospect sets the whiskey down in front of me.
"We're going to the hideout they held Lucy in tonight, thought you might want to tag along. I'll get Erica to watch Vi" I say before letting the whiskey burn my throat.
"Oh I'm in, I'll show these bastards a new level of suffering." Diego says I fire rising in his eyes. Circuits comes up to me and hands me a file, I'm hoping Bi won't shut down when I show her this, I'm hoping it'll bring her anger and passion back.
I nod to Diego and head up to my room, I find Vi lying in bed
"Hey Vi, listen, I know you're hurting, but I need to show you something" I say moving around the bed and sitting next to her. She sits up but doesn't say anything
"We're going to raid where The Diablos were holding you. I've got mugshots of The Diablos and I want you to pick out any who hurt you in any way so we can make them suffer for what they did." I hand her the folder and she placed it down on the bed in front of her
"I can't do this. I'm done, I'm not fighting anymore, my parents are gone I don't need revenge, I need to get away from The Diablos and stay away." She moves to lie back down but I stop her
"Leave me alone Bones" she whispers as tears roll down her cheeks
"Vi these men killed both of your parents and look at what they've done to you. Where's the girl I met full of fire ready to act out her vengeance on these assholes?" I say angrier than I would've liked, but it needs to said.
"Where's the girl you met? The girl you met has been raped by three men, that's where she is. The beating was nothing, my dad trained me for that but do you know what I had to do to escape? No? Let me tell you" Vi bellows standing up from the bed
"When the third guy was raping me, I knew he wasn't as smart as the other two so I played along. I pretended he was you 'baby that feels so good' 'oh god don't stop' I asked him to untie my hands so I could feel him. When I faked an orgasm the fucking idiot let my hands go so I knocked him out, grabbed my jeans and ran.
My dad taught me to withstand all forms of torture, ranging from a simple beating to fucking water boarding, but obviously never thought how his daughter would cope with the rapings and the answer I can't cope. I knew how to survive the torture but I don't know how to live after." She lets out a long breath and the tears are flowing freely now. No wonder she didn't want me to touch her, I don't want to react in front of her but my blood is boiling. I climb across the bed and wrap my arms around her
"You fight Vi. We destroy these bastards and then you and I will find a way for you to be happy again. All I want is to make the woman I love happy." She relaxed against me and I lift her onto the bed, lying down with her on top of me, I lift her head and wipe the tears from her cheeks. I gently press my lips to hers and she kisses me back softly
"I love you Vi."
"I love you too."
"Now tell me who these bastards are so I can destroy them. I want them to suffer in ways they've never imagined" she sits up so she's straddling my hips and grabs the folder up off the bed. She rolls off me and curls up against me looking at the pictures, I wrap my arm around her
"These three. It was them and then those two gave me a pretty good beating." She closes her eyes and shuts the folder, she drops it and then buries her face in my chest
"It's ok Vi, you're safe. Erica is going to come and keep you company while I'm gone" I kiss the top of her head and she looks up at me
"I'll be ok, I'm just going to sleep while you're gone."
"Well the old ladies and a few guys will be downstairs if you need anything. I gotta go, but I'll be back as soon as I can." I say kissing her gently before getting out of bed. I wait until she's comfortable and leave.
Lucy POV
Seeing those faces brought everything I had been trying to block out back, but I didn't want Bones to know that. There's no way I'm going to sleep now, after seeing those faces and because I know Bones isn't here. I know I'm safe at the clubhouse but I don't feel safe anywhere right now.
I know I should still be staying off my feet but I get up and walk into the bathroom. I study my face in the mirror, the black eyes, the fat lip and the bruising scattered around my pale skin. I can just see the gash on my head peaking from my hairline that Doc must've stitched up, along with the other large wounds on my body that were stitched when I woke up.
I take off Bones shirt and look at my naked body, the once milky skin now purple, yellow and green. Cuts and scrapes covering every part of me. I sit on the edge of the tub and lift my foot, the bottom swollen bruised and gravel rashed from me running without my boots. I turn on the water for the tub and watch it begin to fill, I add some bubbles before going back to my room so I can play music.
I climb into the hot water and lie back against the tub as Red Hot Chili Peppers fills my ears to distract my mind. I drift off to my happy place, a technique my dad taught me to go into an almost trance, it's what I did while I was being beaten and I barely felt a thing. My happy place is on the beach with my Mom, The Doors playing in the background as we skip along the sand, searching for shells or jumping in the water splashing each other. I can feel the sand on my toes, the water splashing my legs, I hear the waves breaking and my Moms voice calling my name as we run along the beach together. I never want to leave my happy place, there's no pain, no death, no suffering, time stands still with just me and my Mom in our favourite place.
"Lucy? Lucy can you hear me?" I hear her voice, further away this time
"Mom I'm right here" I reply as I turn and see her climbing on some rocks, I follow her and smile
"Violet didn't work, Lucy didn't work, what do we do?"
"Mom what are you talking about? I'm right here with you." I stop and watch my Mom continue to climb rocks, something doesn't add up. Oh crap. I wave to my Mom and leave my happy place, coming back to reality to find Doc, Matt and Erica standing over me
"What the fuck?" I ask sitting up, I'm on my bed wrapped in a towel
"I came in to check on you, you were in the tub, your eyes were open but you were unresponsive. I was worried something happened so I got Doc" Erica says grabbing me some clothes
"I'm fine, I was just in my happy place. How long have you been trying to wake me?" I ask taking a shirt from her. I hold my towel up as I slide it on then remove the towel
"An hour, you scared the hell out of us" Matt says turning back around to look at me. I laugh and begin drying off my hair
"It's a technique my dad taught me, it's like a trace or meditation even. Sorry I scared you guys"
"That's the first time I've seen you laugh" Erica says, a smile on her face.
"Want me to carry you downstairs to get some food? Or want to hang out at the bar and have a drink with us?" Matt asks
"Food sounds good, let me grab some sweats" I say as Erica hands them to me. Matt turns his back to the bed, I hesitate, but remind myself I am safe, Matt is a friend, I climb on his back and wrap my arms around his shoulders. I'm safe, I trust Matt.
"I could get used to being carried everywhere. Onward slave" I say fake whipping Matt and we laugh as he carries me down to the bar. I feel better, it's amazing what my happy place does. I know I'm safe, I just need to keep telling myself that. Matt sits me on a stool and Erica goes into the kitchen to grab some food.
I sit with Erica, Matt and Doc while I eat and they drink and I feel human again. Yes I keep having to remind myself I'm safe but I need to do this, I can't spend the rest of my life in Bones bed. I hear Fleetwood Mac begin playing and look at Matt
"You hit me cos I didn't know who they were so I thought it would cheer you up" I smile and close my eyes to listen to the music. The doors fly open and I see the guys begin to pour in, then Bones steps in and I nearly fell off my seat
"Shit, Matt get her out of here" Bones roars as the man he is holding fights against him, his eyes land on me and I feel my body begin to shake
"Well hello there Lucy, miss my cock?" He says with the smug grin that haunts me. Matt suddenly lifts me off my seat
"No get the fuck off me" I scream as I fight against Matts strong arms to no avail. There is no fucking way I will be in the same building as him, or any of them, even if I have to do something drastic.