I had nothing written but I saw the notification that someone voted on the first chapter.
That was enough motivation for this newbie.
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Taehyung searched for his manager's face in the crowd. It was a pain because both of them were in disguises so they had no idea what to look for.
Taehyung thanked the god for the manager's smart brain when he received a selfie from his manager. He looked around and spotted the guy, looking around at people with his phone in his hand. Taehyung ran up to him and resisted the urge to scream his name and jump on him because he had to avoid receiving attention. But Sejin had other plans.
As soon as he noticed Taehyung, he ran and gave him a tight hug, bombarding him with questions.
" Are you okay? How's your father? Did you eat? Oh god, why did you have to make me so worried? I was-"
Taehyung cut off his rant by pulling him into another hug. How much had he missed having someone around who actually cared?
" Calm down, Hyung. I'm okay now. " He said, trying to stop the tears from falling which were gathered in his eyes.
Sejin took his arm and gently dragged him to his car, and immediately they left the airport, on their way to home.
" I've told the members that you are coming back today. They said they'll wait for you at home. " The comfort he had felt being with the manager left and once again, the dread came back.
" Are they angry? " Sejin simply pursed his lips, trying to come up with suitable words to say.
" They were really worried, Tae " The short reply didn't soothe Taehyung's heart at all.
" But are they angry as well? " He pressedthe question and Sejin sighed.
" They'll be fine once you explain everything, okay? I don't know why you still haven't but make sure you tell them. " Sejin gave him a disapproving look, clearly showing his dislike for the younger's secrecy.
Sejin knew that Taehyung suffered the most and he is now as well and although he had a special soft spot for him, still, all of the members were Sejin's responsibility to take care of in all matters and he would risk his own life before letting anything bad happen to any of them.
The previous month or so was really hard for him. He was not just worried about Taehyung who was all alone in Daegu but also the rest of the members who were so worried about Taehyung, calling and texting him multiple times in an hour, asking if he's okay and when he'll come back.
" I will. I just wanted them to hear it from me and see that I'm fine. They would've been even more worried otherwise. " That wasn't the only reason, however. The main reason was because he knew that they'll insist on coming to Daegu right away.
And after what happened to his father, the one thing he would never do was get his member's life in danger, especially when the criminal was still on the loose.
" You're right. Just so you know they might be angry but I want you to know that they were really worried, okay? They won't eat or sleep properly and call me million times a day to get any news about you. "
The words brought a wave of guilt on Taehyung's heart. He sighed and looked down.
" I'm not saying that to make you feel guilty. I just... Even if they say something in anger, remember that you're still very important to them and it's just because they were very anxious and that's why they're acting that way. Keep that in mind. "
Taehyung nodded his head, the guilt still there. The car was silent for the rest of the journey as
he stared at the almost dark sky outside.
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Taehyung's hands shook as he stood in front of the door, with his keys in his hands. After convincing Sejin to leave him at the door and not come in, he was standing here for the last ten or so minutes, trying to calm himself down and go inside. But that stupid heart with fear in it, he just couldn't make himself to even touch the door.
Suddenly the door opened on his own, startling Taehyung. He put his hand on his chest, breathing even more heavily now and stared at Namjoon.
" How long are you planning to stand here? " He asked, raising his eyebrows.
Blushing, he took his suitcase and followed Namjoon inside the house.
The older didn't say a word, making Taehyung even more panicky. He had expected anger, hell even a warm welcome would have been less shocking then this silence.
They entered the living room. Namjoon went forward and sat down on the sofa where Jungkook, Jimin and Jin were watching television. Suga and Hoseok were sitting at the dining table, doing something on the laptop.
No one said anything and continued with what they were doing.
Taehyung didn't know what to feel. So, he went for the safest approach.
" Hi hyungs and kookie "
Silence.
Jimin looked up and gave Taehyung an almost half awkward smile and returned to the tv again. Hoseok and Jin also looked up at his greeting and simply gave a nod.
Taehyung sighed.
Well, what did he expect?
" I'll go freshen up. " Again, no reply.
He left the living room and went up to his room, taking his stuff with him.
He fell on the bed, rubbing his tired eyes and took out his phone.
" Taehyung-ssi " Doctor Park said as soon as he picked his phone up.
" Yes hello. Uh, I just wanted to ask if anything happened since I left?"
" Well, your mother was a little upset that you visited your father so she argued a bit with the staff but they lied and told her that they didn't let you visit your father, just like you wanted."
Thank God
" Nothing else? Any news on Dad? " Taehyung asked, hopeful.
" I'll tell you as soon as there's some good news, Mr. Taehyung. "
" Oh okay. Is he still getting worse? " The doctor didn't say anything for a while.
" I'm sorry but yes" He finally replied, making Taehyung hang up immediately and going into panic mood.
Stupid stupid stupid
Why do you ask him when you know the answer?!
Do you really enjoy torturing yourself?!
I do deserve it though. Why should everyone else suffer except me? I should as well. This is my doing after all.
A knock on the door brought him out of his miserable thoughts.
" Taehyung, dinner is ready. "
Before he could reply, Jimin left.
He didn't even come in.
He must really hate me now
He hurried up and forced himself to took a shower and leave for downstairs.
As soon as he entered, he saw everyone talking and eating together. Taehyung felt a little pang because they never ever start eating until everyone is on the table.
He sat down and still no one paid any attention to the newcomer.
Taehyung had no appetite even though he hadn't eaten anything except for the banana in the morning.
He went ahead slowly and put some black bean noodles on his plate, trying to ignore the chatter on the table.
I have people I love around me but I still feel alone.
He forced the noodles in his mouth.
It seems like everything I do is by force these days. There's nothing I'm doing because I want to do it.
Jin was looking at the second youngest, who looked deep in thought. Everyone was talking except for Yoongi and Tae. It wasn't unusual for Yoongi but taehyung never enjoyed being quite.
Or thinking, as a matter of fact.
Yes, everyone was angry and ignoring him but they were expecting an apology.
And an explanation.
But the younger did nothing and ignored them like they were ignoring him.
Which wasn't Taehyung at all.
Jin looked curiously at him as he struggled to swallow the noodles in his mouth.
Yoongi elbowed Jin gently in his stomach.
Jin turned his head a little towards Tae. The two oldest ones had learned how to communicate with each other without speaking out loud, being roommates for so long.
" Are you noticing the same thing? " Jin seemed to ask.
Yoongi nodded slightly, giving the second youngest member another look who hadn't eaten anything else except for that one chopstick of noodles.
Both of them shrugged at the same time and went back to their food.
After all, they were still angry at him.
After a minute or so, Taehyung got up and was about to leave when he was stopped.
" Aren't you going to eat? "
Everyone stopped talking and looked at Yoongi who had spoken up.
Jin was surprised when someone else said the exact words he was thinking. Jin was glad Yoongi had asked because he never would have done it himself despite how thin and malnourished Taehyung looked. Yoongi had always been direct and said whatever his mind was on and the older had never appreciated that trait up until now.
Taehyung turned around, completely shocked that someone was actually paying attention to him that he almost smiled.
He shook his head at the emotionless Suga staring at him. He was about to leave again when he was stopped, again.
" Don't you have anything to say to us? " It was Namjoon this time, who crossed his arms, having a staring competition with the younger while everyone else tried to look anywhere else other than Taehyung.
Taehyung's short-lived relief was gone and instead the same apprehension and fear came back.
" I - " He didn't know what he was supposed to say. A simple apology was not enough. He could start with that but what would he say next. He spent the whole airplane journey thinking about it and came up with absolutely nothing.
" Why was I even expecting anything? Whatever. Go do whatever you want." Namjoon spat and left the dining table, heading for his room.
" Hyung, I'm - "Taehyung stepped forward and grabbed Namjoon's arm.
But again nothing came out.
Namjoon's soft look that came when he saw the younger looking so exhausted and scared was replaced again with anger and frustration and he tried to get Taehyung to remove his hand which was grabbing his sleeve but he wouldn't let go and finally, Namjoon exploded.