dear calum,
fuck you.
fuck your secrets, fuck your pain, fuck. you.
did you not think i was suffering too? i was, you selfish asshole, and now i am more than ever
i wanted to love you so fucking bad, but you drove me away, and now look where it's landed you. six feet in the ground.
this is what you get for driving everyone away calum. overdosage of cocaine.
you never told me you still loved me and i tried moving on. if you just told me that, or hell, told me you needed help, you might still be alive.
i'll never forgive myself and i'll never forgive you. but i'll never forget you because i love you so much, god you don't realise how much i miss you baby. i need you so bad.
love always,
ashton. xx