///Random one-shot///
((THIS ONE-SHOT WAS HEAVILY INSPIRED BY THE SONG NAMED 'Appetite of a People-Pleaser'))
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'I need a whole personality,
something inordinately sweet,
order anything you'd like,
nothing's changing my mind,
I don't care how unhealthy it is,
'cus there isn't anything,
I'd rather be.'
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She tried to please everyone, make everyone, and just be good enough. She would even eat so much despite feeling sick, everything she does is just because she wants everyone to be happy, wants attention, just wants to be good enough.
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'Sometimes my appetite,
is eerily erratic,
give me your dire expectations,
and i'll consume perfection,
you are what you eat after all.'
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She tried to get the 'perfect identity'.
She worked hard to get it, doing everything she could, and she got the 'perfect identity', but....
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'Now that i've become a full-course identity,
take a bite of me,
i hope that i've become a favourable delicacy,
say that i am worth something,
I'll eat em' all,
the thoughts of anyone i'll ever meet,
just to make them happy,
wondering why i'm a burden,
or so it seems,
aren't i everything?
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she was still not good enough for others, so she tried something else, thinking everyone will 'like her without it' so, she tried starving herself. Trying to get the 'perfect identity' again. Hoping she was good enough, but...
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'AND NOW THAT I'VE BECOME THE PERFECT IDENTITY,
WHAT ELSE DO YOU NEED?
'CUS I DON'T KNOW WHO I'M SUPPOSED TO BE ANYMORE,
AND I'M S T A R V I N G,
I'LL PURGE 'EM ALL,
THE THOUGHTS OF ANYONE I'LL EVER MEET,
WHY AREN'T YOU HAPPY?
NONETHELESS, I KNOW MY INSIDES ARE E M P T Y,
AREN'T I MORE THAN EVERYTHING?'
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SHE.
STILL.
WASN'T.
GOOD.
ENOUGH.