Songs for the chapter are:
These Four Walls- Little Mix
Over Again- One Direction
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Niall's POV
"Alex, please." I take a step towards her but she motions her hands for me to stop.
"No. Leave me alone! Get out!" She commands and pushes at my chest.
"Wait, hear me out!" I plead but she shakes her head.
"I can't do this with you! I'm sorry. It wasn't right for us. I didn't feel it anymore, Niall. Okay? I didn't feel for you since I woke up from a coma. I tried to tell myself I did but I didn't and I'm sorry. We can't be us anymore. Just, go!" I open my mouth but no words come out. She's lieing, she has to be. What.. what about all the times she's told me she loved me? Or when we had sex and she gave her all to me, and it felt so right.
I turn on my heels and walk out. Anger fills my body and my fist punches into the wall, nearly busting a whole through the thin shit. I thought she loved me like she said she did. She fucking lied, and that's why I won't be sad about this bullshit. While I was falling for her she was playing me, and this fucking hurts.
I continue walking until I'm in the lobby. I ignore the damn girls that are running up to me and screaming.
Fuck.
Paparazzi swarms the front of the building and I groan pushing past them.
"Niall! Is it true you and Alex broke up?" One asks and I flip around, anger on my face.
"You want a fucking story? Here it goes! Get your damn video camera ready 'cause here it goes!" I shout, the anger and hurt building up in my body.
"Alexis Green was the biggest piece of shit i've dated. Fuck her and anyone who has anything to do with her. I should've let Harry have her, because-" I cut short when I see Alex across the lot. Her eyes are bloodshot and she holds a hurt facial. I am the epitome of a fuck up.
"Alex," I breathe and break out into a full sprint to meet with her across the lot. Almost as soon as I reach her, she backs away until she trips over the sidewalk.
"How could you!" She screams, tears pouring down her cheeks, and stands back up. She doesn't seem embarrassed. "Do you not realize I said all of that out of anger and hurt. I came to apologize. I love you, Niall." I begin to speak but she holds a finger up. "Let me finish. I'm fucking in love with you, and I thought you felt the same. Now, I finally see your true damn colors. Fuck you too, Niall! I'm done! You played me while I was falling in love with you, making me believe you truly cared when you didn't! How could someone be so cruel!?" Her voice strains and she closes her eyes to let the tears fall.
"You don't understand, Alex! I-" She cuts me off.
"No, I don't want to hear it!" She holds her hand up to my face and she turns to walk away but I catch her wrist.
"You're not leaving me again." She pulls away from my grasp and falls back onto the concrete, but quickly shuffles to her feet, this time her cheeks blushing.
She doesn't say anything, just turns on her heels and walks away towards the building.
I just lost the best thing that's ever happened to me.
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(Three weeks later)
Alex's POV
I feel numb. My body aches for his touch, kiss, voice, smile, eyes, breath, him. Nothing compares to the way he makes me feel.
It's my second week at my new job, bartending. I've moved into an apartment with two other girls I met at the bar and now work with.
Justin left the day I last saw or spoke to Niall, which was when he told me media I was a piece of shit.
I slide the tight, black cut off shirt over my head and stare in the mirror. It exposes my belly and I feel a little uncomfortable, but it's uniform. My shorts show my ass when I bend over and I feel like a whore with the knee-length brown heels my boss has provided. My boss, Winny, is the biggest whore I will ever meet. Her father owns the bar and gave it to her for her twenty-first birthday. He spoils her and spends all his money on her and he lives in shit.
Thankfully, one of the girls I'm living with, Ashley, doesn't work tonight and she's offered to watch Kaylee. Millie has watched her while I look for work. She occasionally would come to the apartment and Ashley or Kaila ,would be home. Good thing is, they get along. She doesn't forget to remind me she doesn't approve of my new job, or what I'm doing with my life, but at this point I don't care.
"Thanks again." I tell Ashley and pull my purse straps over my shoulder.
"No problem! You know I love this little girl." She smiles and I giggle, a fake, soft, broken laugh.
"Come give me kisses." I tell Kaylee and she rushes off the couch to hug me.
"I love you, mommy." I retailite to her and press a kiss to her cheek.
When I get in the bar, Winny already has me handing out shots and drinks. I take multiple shots with different people until I can feel myself getting woosy. Thankfully, I work nights.
"Alright!" Winny shouts in the bullhorn and the bar gets quiet. "Who's ready to dance?" Hoops and hollers are heard through the bar. It mine and Deklynn's turn to dance on the bar tonight.
When the music starts playing I put my best fake smile and climb on the bar. My hips move to the music and before I know it Deklynn and I both have drinks in our hands. I gulp mine down, burning my throat. I need to be a little more drunk before I dance like I'm suppose to.
I gulp down two more, quickly, and grow the courage to grab onto the poll. My body moves in ways I didn't know I could. My mind doesn't move with my body and me and Deklynn are dancing on each other, enough to drive the men wild. I don't understand the big hype, but the hoops and hollers of the crowd is how I get my paycheck.
I stop in the middle of the table, Deklynn stopping aswell. The alchol is coming up, and It's only seconds before I chunk on everyone. The music stops as I jump off the bar and rush to the bathroom.
My head hangs over the toilet as the liquids leave my body. It burns my throat coming back up and I clutch onto my my shorts.
I sit back on the floor after I finish throwing my guts out, running my hands through my curly brown hair, which is almost down to my hips.
"Alex?" I hear Winny's voice. I hurriedly flush and stand to my feet, running my hand through my hair to tame it.
"Here," I open the door and a fake smile pulls on my lips.
"Are you alright? What happened?" She asked, setting a hand on my forehead.
"The alcohol," I point towards the toilet. Her eyebrows push together and she tilts her head slightly to the side.
"You haven't had much to drink, Alex. Not enough to throw it up. Are you sure?" I nod, kinda unsure of myself.
"I'm fine. I guess my body's weak to it tonight." She shakes her head, pursing her lips.
"Go home, honey. I'll take your place tonight." I raise my eyebrows and she nods, patting my back.
I don't argue, and leave almost immediately. I choose to walk back to the apartments, since it's just around the corner. I can get my car in the morning. Maybe it's a cold, isn't there a bug going around?
I arrive at the apartment at almost midnight. Everyone is already asleep so I choose to take a shower and go to bed. The shower doesn't loosen my muscles as well as it used to, and I barely sleep anymore.
I lay in bed, the covers bunched up under my almost naked body. I'm wearing Niall's plain black t shirt that hits the top of my thighs. His scent is leaving the shirt and I think of a way I could sneak back in and get another one.
I could call him, but that would sound a little weird and I know if I see him, I'll fall back into his trap. While I was falling in love with him he was watching, waiting for me to break. Maybe all he wanted was sex. He couldn't have told me? I wonder why he kept it up for so long. All the hugs, kisses, "I love you"'s, they were all fake. He could've did this at the beginning when I wasn't this deep. What if I would've said yes to marriage? He kept it up for six months of my life, now here I lay in this cold and empty bed, heartbroken. Not to forget, Kaylee loved him too. He was her real father.. was.
Maybe we went too fast. I only knew Niall for a month before we went to Ireland, that's when I met his family and the day we got together. He had left One Direction that day and he held me while I cried on his shoulder.
Another tear left my eye and I sit up, pulling the comforter up my body. If I could reverse the clock I would go back to the day I found the eviction notice on my door. I would've went to a different hotel, found a different person, and wouldn't be feeling like this right now.
"Alexis Green was the biggest piece of shit I've ever dated." Replays through my head as I climb out the bed.
I find the light on in the kitchen on my way to the bathroom.
When I enter the kitchen I find Ashley sitting on the counter, staring at her phone screen.
"Hey." I say. She smiles but never taking her eyes off the screen.
"Hey.. uhm. I was just about to wake you up. I just got breaking news." She hands me the phone and I read the headline.
Two popstars from the famous boy-band One Direction at local bar. Insiders say the two are looking for Ex-Girlfriend Alexis Green.
Niall Horan and Harry Styles make an appearance at the local bar where ex-girlfriend Alexis Green is rumored to work. Niall tells reporters he received a text saying she "blew chunks everywhere. But didn't have much to drink." Horan was running around Winslow worried about his lost love. He also tells paps "an old family friend saw her tonight, and gave me directions to her apartment."
The phone slips from my hands and clatters to the ground.
"I have to get out of here." I tell Ashley but she shakes her head and jumps off the counter.
"You can't keep running from him, Alex. Set him straight and tell him to leave you alone. If he ever really loved you, he would respect your decision and let you be." A knock on the door breaks our eye contact.
"Alex! Open this damn door!" I hear his voice plug my ears, squeezing my eyes shut.
"Make him go away, please." I beg Ashley and sink to the floor.
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