Please everyone, if you have been dealing with some personal issues just please, don't read this if you don't want to get reminded about your past or anything.
I only make this book because I wanted to let it all out.
I wanted to let my delusions out.
My delusional mind out.
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This is where it all began...
I just sit there, ignoring my sorroundings as I read on my phone.
Just to make me forget about the world and my problems.
I smile as I read, my mind already working for the perfect world that I have been created for so long.
A perfect world for me.
A world where I can be anyone and be free of any negative things I had in my life.
I try to hide my smile.
I'm excited to imagine my own reality.
I snap out of my daze as I try to focus on my surroundings, afraid that my family would look at me and question me about my behavior.
Oh, how I love to escape this wretched reality and how I wanted to create something impossible.
Impossible to almost everyone.
I waited for night time to come.
Preparing for the reality I would come into.
The reality I oh so desperately need.
I feel ecstatic at the thought of meeting my own world that I have created.
I couldn't stop twitching and smiling from excitement.
I went to do my nightly routine before going to my bed.
The bed where I can imagine all the things I wanted for my world.
The closest thing that I would like to call "safe haven" but that won't be long for I will be in it once I got on it.
I was shaking and my stomach feels funny.
I shakily grab my blankets as I lay to my bed, tucking myself in.
I slowly close my eyes as a smile grow to my face.
Say goodbye to this world and say hello to my world.
This is where I start my own reality.
I open my eyes and look around.
I knew I was in my house.
Just like the way I imagine it.
I let out my satisfactory smile and I was still shaking from excitement.
I can't believe it.
I can't believe that I would be able to do this.
I was in my ideal world now.
Sad that I would have to left this world because I have to go back to that world I am from.
I take some steps, each step makes me feel more excited than ever.
It makes me feel like I'm alive.
Like I have reason to live.
I walk over to a mirror, deciding to look at myself.
I grin, seeing myself just the way I wanted.
Without any flaws, just pure beauty.
I touch my face.
This felt real.
It's too good to be true.
I couldn't get any more happier than I already am.
My happines cut short as I heard a knock on my door.
I look at the door.
"Come in" I said.
Oh, how my voice was so angelic and luring.
The door opens to see one of my fictional character crush, Leon Scott Kennedy.
I feel ecstatic once again.
I am happy that I meet one of my fictional character crushes and I couldn't wait more for them to meet them all.
I let out a crazy and ecstatic laugh, not caring if someone is looking at me because I can control everything here.
I am finally finished with my laughing sesssion as I smile at Leon.
"Yes, what it is it?" I ask and he looks at me in the eye with his handsome smile.
"You have to get ready or you'll miss breakfast" He said as he smirks and I pout.
"You know I won't, Kennedy" I teased making him chuckle.
"I know you will" He said before going out of my room.
I was just standing there smiling big and shaking from the excitement flowing through my veins.
I have never felt so good!
I have never felt so alive!
Never felt so happy!
I got to calm down because there will be a limited time for me here.
I do the daily morning routine and change into something comfortable.
I wear a black shorts that ends in the middle of my thigh, a blue crop top sweater and some comfy slippers.
I tie my soft and shiny brown hair into a ponytail.
I take a deep breathe and got out of my room.
I walk downstairs, looking everywhere in amazement, satisfaction, excitement and happiness.
I don't want to leave here but I have too.
I wanted to do anything to make me never come back from that world again.
But I'm too scared to do it.
Scared to do a big thing that may cause my life.
I resist punching the beautiful walls of my house.
I lean into the walls and put my arm on it.
My heart is pounding, my breathes are quick but deep, my body is shaking again but not from excitement and my eyes are wide.
I clutch my head.
I have to calm down.
You don't have to bring it here.
Keep calm, don't let it get you.
Keep calm.
You need to keep calm.
Yeah, keep calm....
I calm myself completely and I turn my face up with a smile, like nothing happens.
Yeah, like nothing happens.
I got in the kitchen to see my other fictional character crushes there who I decided to live here in this world.
I smile at them and greeted good morning to them, of course they greeted me back.
I sat on the stool as Soma from Food Wars served me some interesting breakfast.
"Thank you" I said as he grins at me.
"No problem!" He said, making me giggle.
The ecstatic feeling came back to me again.
I take my time savoring these hot breakfast that I have.
It's too real, too real for me to handle.
I just couldn't really help it..
Everything was just in my mind and all but....
Everything was so real.
I really hope I could stay longer or even forever.
I finished eating my delicious breakfast and decided to wash it.
"Hey, let me do that for you" Mikasa from Attack on Titan said and I just shake my head at her, smiling.
"Thank you for the offer but I politely decline" I just noticed how I speak.
How it sounds like music to my ears.
I get their plates and wash it.
I was humming.
A lullaby that I used when I was a kid.
Before I start to do this.
I know that I have to go now.
After I finish, I back away and closes my eyes.
"Goodbye, my own reality" I said before I open them again and I was back in my room again.
Back from this world again.
I frown.
'Back to this life again' I thought as I got up and do my daily routine.
I look at the mirror and my reflection was glaring back at me.
Back at the girl who is completely delusional.
I smile.
Soon, I will be in my world forever and ever and ever and ever and ever.
Forever happy.
This is just the beginning so everything was a bit messy but soon.
Oh so soon it will be ok.
"I will come back again" I said as I grin and then began to laugh.
"I promise, I will" I said one last time before I immediately went back to my lifeless and pathetic self.
Don't worry, I will be back again and I will never go back.
This is the start of my creation.