Alec felt incredibly nervous before going to Magnus' house the following day, as he knew that there was going to be an awkward aura between them. He hoped that Magnus saw that this situation was mostly his fault, apart from Alec prying for Magnus to come out, and that he didn't blame Alec. If Magnus would continue to act the way he had recently, then Alec would cut him out, permanently.
Magnus rushed to the door when he heard the doorbell ring, taking a deep breath before opening the door. His mother said that she would leave them be and not disturb them, knowing that Magnus wanted to try and fix things, without her interrupting every two seconds.
The door swung open, Alec standing in the doorway, an awkward smile on his face, his black hair slightly falling into his eyes like it usually did. "Hi," Alec said, Magnus noticing the pale green bruise that was painted on Alec's cheek, feeling guilt slap him in the face. Magnus replied with a short hello, opening the door wider so that Alec could come in.
Magnus shut his bedroom door behind him, Alec sitting on the floor, pulling his bag off of his shoulder and zipping it open, retrieving his usual stuff and a bottle of diet coke. Magnus got out the decorations, seeing that they had practically finished, just having to add finishing touches.
Silence invaded the room like a poisonous gas, Alec working as quickly as he could, not looking up at Magnus. Magnus kept checking if Alec would look at him, noticing that he wasn't; he was looking down at the decoration in his hand. His expression was concentration, but Magnus could tell that he was using that to hide his nervousness.
Magnus finally spoke up after a few minutes of silence, "So, uh, on the actual day of prom, what time are we meeting? To put the decorations up." Alec looked up, immediately looking back down at his hands, knowing that if he looked too long he would find himself forgiving Magnus too easily.
"I don't mind, but I think my friends will help me put them up if you don't want to." Alec said, refusing to look at Magnus in the eye. Magnus said that he wanted to, smiling as he looked at Alec, even though he couldn't see the gleaming grin. Silence flooded into the room again, Magnus slowly shuffling closer to Alec. Alec noticed, doing nothing but trying to keep his eyes down.
Magnus quickly moved his head so that his lips pressed to Alec's, Alec pushing him away in shock, his eyes wide and lips parted, feeling like Magnus had stolen a kiss from him. Alec felt his restraint snap, knowing that he would regret it later, pulling Magnus by his shirt so that their lips connected again.
Alec missed the feeling of Magnus against him badly, moving them so that they stood up. Magnus felt all of the feelings he felt for Alec hit him at once, the absence of their relationship pumping adrenaline through his body. He moved them so that the back of Alec's legs hit Magnus' desk, Alec using his arm to push all of the books off of the desk, letting Magnus push him up onto it.
The entire thing was so fast, Alec feeling his heart race, wondering how on earth they were just sat in silence and now they were making out on the desk. They were both breathless, absorbed by the moment. Alec eventually came to his senses, pushing Magnus away before any skin was exposed, moving off of the desk.
"I'm still mad at you," Alec breathed, ignoring the senses in his body that told him differently, flowing through every vein. He straightened out his shirt, moving towards his bag, indicating that he wanted to leave before Magnus could affect him any more. Magnus noticed, telling Alec that he didn't need to leave softly, holding his hand.
Alec withdrew his hand, "What you did, with the lockers and the thing at the canteen yesterday, really fucking hurt me, Magnus. I don't want to do this." Alec's tone was frantic, beginning to shove all of his things into his bag.
"I want to be with you, Alec. I'm so sorry about the way I was acting before," Magnus pleaded, Alec refusing to look at him. Alec said, "Many people are afraid of coming out, and I know that it can make people do strange things. But there is no excuse for writing that slur on the lockers or hitting me, Magnus."
Magnus stayed silent, Alec continuing. "When you hit me, you looked exactly like Noah. You're just like them, although they can admit it to themselves." Alec knew that him comparing Noah to Magnus would be what affected him the most, seeing his desired effect work when Magnus looked upset.
"How many times do I have to say that I'm sorry? Tell me what to do, Alec. I want to fix this." Magnus said, his voice holding desperation. Alec felt his attitude soften, hearing the willingness in Magnus' voice. He believed that Magnus would do a lot to fix this, or he would say that he would, but Alec didn't think he would follow through.
Alec turned to face him again, "I want you to be comfortable in your own skin before you think about me, especially with people from school. You need to focus on yourself before we can be together again, it's obvious that you're going through something." Magnus listened to Alec's words, yet he disagreed.
"I know that I'm bisexual, and everyone else knows now. I'm comfortable." Magnus said, adding a meek smile to look more convincing. Alec asked, "Have you even talked to your friends about the picture? Told them that you still like girls? Have you said anything?" His tone was direct and slightly harsh.
Magnus sighed, averting his eyes. Alec took this silence as his answer, moving towards the door. Magnus said, "Alec, wait, please. I'm going to, I'll do it right now!" Alec continued walking towards the door, Magnus panicking, saying the first thing that came to mind. It came out as a quiet declaration, "I love you."
Alec halted in his step, feeling shock paralyse his body. He then scoffed, "No, you don't, Magnus." Alec left the doorway, rushing out of the house before Magnus could stop him. Magnus was shocked at what he had said; he didn't really know what to do. He had just told Alec that he loved him.
Was it even possible to love someone after only properly knowing them for a few weeks? Magnus didn't really know if what he said was true; he had never truly loved anyone before, apart from his mother, but that was a different kind of love. Alec had reacted badly to it, so he didn't think that he would be declaring it again any time soon.
Magnus had his final two football games this week; one tomorrow night and then the other the day after that. Then it was prom, and then he graduated, hopefully. His public displays of violence weren't helping him. He knew that he would have to talk to Noah, and face the music.
He walked into the locker room, seeing that most people were changing, all turning to look at Magnus when he walked in. Noah noticed, saying, "Everyone, put some damn clothes on. You're clearly making Magnus nervous." His tone was sarcastic, an evil smirk growing on his features.
Magnus rolled his eyes, paying no attention, moving to his locker, getting his gear out. Magnus finally felt the effect of Noah's taunts that Alec had withstood all of these years, knowing that it didn't feel the best. "I can still pick up more girls than you," Magnus snapped back with a sarcastic smile, pulling his shirt off quickly, putting on the jersey.
"Oh, so you're into girls and guys? Good luck getting into another girl's pants after that photo; they all think you're gay. I'm guessing that you aren't looking for anyone anyway, as you're so infatuated with Alec Lightwood." Noah said, Magnus trying his best to ignore him. He knew that what Noah was saying was somewhat true, but he wasn't interested in anyone but Alec.
Magnus ignored his words, finishing changing into his gear before the game began. Magnus knew that Alec wasn't a big fan of sports, but he still had some hope that he might show up. His eyes scanned the crowd, seeing all of his friends, but no Alec. Magnus sighed, feeling disappointed for getting his hopes up.
It was hard to concentrate on playing the game when all he could think about was Alec and how he could fix things between them; their relationship felt so worn out and broken. It wouldn't be easy, but Magnus finally felt ready to fight for their relationship, publicly. He thought about what he might do, knowing that he had to come out to the school properly, for himself.
Magnus smiled as he saw his mother sitting in the stands, a large grin on her face as she waved at him. The game wasn't necessarily bad; Magnus played well, but the victory didn't help his mental state at all. The other guys on the team treated him harsher, but that just made Magnus fight harder and bring them more success.
Alec sat in his room, alone, as his siblings had gone to the football game. His arms were wrapped around his legs that pressed against his chest, resting his chin on his knees. He couldn't stop thinking about what happened between him and Magnus the day before, wondering if his words were too harsh.
Magnus had fucked up badly concerning Alec, but Alec felt the urge to forgive him just as badly. He was all that Alec thought about, for good and bad reasons. Alec stopped himself before he tried to text Magnus again, throwing the phone on his bed. He wanted someone to tell him what to do. Should he forgive Magnus, or stop seeing him for good?