Simaya:
I ran inside my dressing room and grabbed all my stuff as fast as I could. I didn't expect that and I couldn't take all this bullshit. I changed as fast as I could before Amina came in and started asking questions.
I quickly put my loose crop top over my bikini top topping it with a XO sweater Abel gave me. I covered my bottoms with some leggings, putting on my Jordan's I rushed out. Reaching the exit I opened the door to be hit with fresh cool air.
Walking through the parking lot I hear my name being called. I didn't bother to look back at Abel. He grabbed me by the arm to stop me.
"Get off me Abel!"
"Can you fucking stop Maya."
"Stop what? Shouldn't you go back with your crew before they find out your fucking with a hoe from the strip club?"
"Maya it's not even like that, you wouldn't understand. Let me take you home so we can talk."
"And in talking, you mean fucking and then leaving right?"
"You can think what you want."
"Just leave me alone Abel, I can't do this anymore. I thought I could but I just can't, You know you're the only guy in my bed while you fuck with other hoes knowing I love your ass."
I could feel the rim of my eyes water and get blurry. I didn't hold back, I told him I loved him.
"Maya.. I told you not to fall in love with a nigga like me. I can't give you what you want, you knew this from the beginning and you still fucked with me."
"Well, I'm sorry Abel I have fucken feelings that I can't control. Just forget everything, I gotta go."
I got in my car and started crying. He made it my fault that I loved him and I kind of agreed.
Tomorrow couldn't have came any sooner, I needed to see a face that loved me back.
-Sunday Morning-
Waking up I thought it was all a bad dream, I missed falling asleep with Abel's touch.
I checked my phone seeing that Amina texted me asking what happened with me last night, I texted her saying I wasn't feeling well and I would call her after visiting my grandma.
I went through my Instagram and saw that Abel enjoyed his night with his crew and some females. After seeing that I put the 'do not disturb' mode on my iPhone, I didn't want to bother with anyone. I got ready to see my nana, It seemed every time I would see her she forgot me more and more.
Before going to see her I would always pray for her to remember me long enough to have a conversation with her.
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It was a beautiful cold day in Toronto, the sun shined down and the air was crisp. I walked up to my grandmas facility bracing myself to who she would confuse me with today. I learned to play along and make her comfortable.
"Hey Estelle."
"Hey Simaya, how are you pretty girl?"
"I'm fine, thanks."
"That's good dear. Your grandma is having a good day today, she'll be happy to see you."
I walked to where my grandma was sitting and sat next to her.
"Hi nana"
"My baby, I've missed you so much."
Her embrace was what I needed, I felt her squeeze me tight and kissed my cheek. It's been almost two weeks since she remembered who I was.
"I love you and missed you too." I felt tears fall down my cheek.
"Why are you crying baby, you're too pretty to be sad."
"I just missed you that's all."
"Awe, I'm here. Let's not be sad and tell me what's new?"
"Nothing much nana, just work & school."
"No boyfriends yet?"
I sniffled and smiled, she was worried about me being alone.
"There was a guy I was seeing but it didn't work out."
"Why not hunni? But I'm happy you finally met someone."
"Um, it's complicated.. he's not ready for love or a relationship."
"Don't lose faith baby, it will be okay ..... Did your grandpa come with you?"
When she asked for my deceased grandfather I knew she was in a different time
"No nana, he didn't come with me."
I left feeling a bit better, every time I needed my nana she was always there to comfort me. I got home just threw myself on my sofa. I remembered when Abel fell asleep on here and I started to remember all the nights we spent together. Reminiscing of his touch I closed my eyes and fell asleep.
~2 1/2 Months Later~
I've been having a stomach flu all week, I couldn't even go to school or work. Amina was texting me all morning saying she was going to stop by with a guy friend we go to school with.
I got ready as best as I could, sweats and a tank top for me. I sat on the sofa waiting just going though my Instagram & Twitter, I saw that Abel was officially dating a girl named Valerie. He would post pics of both of them, I could feel this burn in my chest. I deleted him from all of my social media, I didn't want to see anything.
*Knock..Knock*
"I'm coming"
Opening the door I saw Amina with Sean, a guy that we go to school with.
" Hey, come in"
"I would hug you but I don't want your sick germs"
"Gee thanks, my own bestie doesn't want to touch me. Hey Sean it's nice seeing you"
"How are you feeling My? And I don't mind a hug or your germs"
"I bet you don't"
I heard Amina whisper.
While hugging Sean I shot her a awkward look and she threw her hands up confused.
"You guys hungry?"
"I am, of course!"
Amina made her way to my kitchen to make something to eat.
"I would love to stay ladies but I gotta be at work, I just came by to see how you were Simaya. Can I text you later?"
"Thanks Sean, and yeah you can text me"
I closed the door behind him and thought it was strange that he was so concerned to see me.
"Mmmmmm.... You got a new boo!" Amina sat at my table eating.
"Don't say that! He's just a friend, and I don't want to be with anyone anytime soon"
"You need to play the field My, you've been like a granny lately. You need to get over Abel by getting under someone new"
I couldn't help but laugh at how blunt my friend was.
"I'm just focused on graduating next yea----"
I had to vomit so I ran to my restroom to relieve this nausea.
"Are you okay My???"
"I'll be right out"
After another 5 minutes the nausea went away so I cleaned myself up. I walked back to my living room feeling much better.
"My, I think we should go see a doctor. You're very pale and don't look good love, all this vomiting could be making you dehydrated"
"I'll be okay Amina, I'm drinking fluids, I'll get over it"
"I'm free today My, let's just get you checked. Maybe the doctor can give you something so you can hold something down and finally eat. If all is okay I won't bug anymore, I promise"
"Alright, I can't stand this vomiting anymore"
Amina drove us to the hospital since she thought I was weak and needed emergency care, she's so dramatic. I was sitting filling out papers while the RN's did some basic triage on me (weight, blood pressure, and a urine sample) I sat waiting until I was finally called into a room. The RN had me strip down into a hospital gown so I could be examined.
"You're going to give the doc a free peep of that booty"
"Amina! Tie this gown up right! I don't want no old man looking at me"
"My I did my best it's just too big, just keep yourself wrapped up with the blanket"
*knock.. knock*
"Hi ladies, my name is Dr. Mancilla. Miss Arias??"
Thank goodness she's a woman.
"Hi, I'm Simaya Arias"
"Nice to meet you Simaya, so can you tell me what's been going on with you?"
Before I started to speak she started to check me.
"Well I've been having this flu for the past 2 weeks, and it seems to be off and on"
"When was your last menstrual?"
"It's so irregular so it can come every 3 months"
"I see, I'll be right back with your urine analysis but you are dehydrated and in need of fluids."
"I told you My!"
Amina blurted.
"I just hope they don't keep me here, I hate hospitals"
The doctor came in and started going through some paperwork before raising her head at me and smiling.
" So my dear, we did some routine urine analysis which gives us an idea what's going on with your body. You are dehydrated and you are also pregnant. Since you don't know when your last menstrual was we will be sending you up stairs for a ultrasound. And since you are pregnant we have to keep you for tonight and place you on a IV to give you fluids"
After she said pregnant my ears didn't hear a word she was saying.
"My..."
I heard Amina whisper.
"Yeah..."
"I'm guessing this wasn't a planned pregnancy?"
I stood quiet.
"It's just a bit of a shocker doctor, but I'll make sure she does everything you instructed"
Thankfully Amina was here because I was in shock.
"My are you okay?"
"I'm pregnant how the hell does that happen??"
"Well you know..."
"I know.. but we were careful. What am I going to do? I can't have a baby now, especially with a guy who doesn't even love me. I fucked up"
"Simaya, you need to relax. You have me and I'll be here throughout everything love. But you gotta get dressed so we can go upstairs"
I got dressed and held my tears in.