life of a depressed person

wake up

I always see those quotes saying that "i wish i fell asleep and never woke up again" and i get that too much to be normal. I wouldnt want to shoot myself yet because it seems like an act of revenge and if i fail well ill be locked up in a mental ward for the rest of my so called childhood speaking of which i dont have one I try too hard to act like an adult even though I know ill regret it. as somebody somewhere has probably said, just because i know im colorblind doesnt mean i can see colors any better. Enough ranting for now