He doesn't love you. He didn't save you. No one did. You were almost the hero and Quill took it away. Why even be the stupid hero? Being the hero has only lead to trouble. It's how Uncle Ben died, it's how Liz moved away, it's the reason you've distanced yourself from everyone. It's almost got you killed. Why do you continue? There's no point, you don't get praised for it. No one ever says thank you, no one ever appreciates what you do.
"Hey kid, are you alright?" I looked up and saw Bucky. I sighed wondering when was the last time I was truly okay?
"Yeah, just thinking. I wonder how long we've been here. After the first year and a half I lost count." I said looking around, everything was the same, nothing ever seemed to change. It was bothersome for some reason, just the same thing over and over.
"I know it sucks being here. No one's exactly happy with it, but it's not that bad. I mean I miss them and I know you do, but it's not permanent. You know they're still trying, don't give up. Okay Pete?" I smiled and nodded, I doubted they were still trying why would they? Besides the most powerful people were here like Wanda, Doctor Strange, I mean there strongest people they have out there are Hulk and Thor. Hulk didn't even help last time. How would they even win?
"Peter just because I'm not there doesn't mean they won't get us out of here." Wanda said walking over to me.
"Why were you in my mind Wanda?" I asked annoyed and she sat down next to me.
"You looked troubled and I had a feeling you would've just lied to me instead of telling me what was wrong." She said and I sighed, it was true but so what? She can't help, no one can.
"Besides you know that we survived without Hulk and Thor, we were fine when we only had Natasha, Clint, Rhodey, Steve, and Tony. We'll be fine now and they'll get us out. Have some faith Peter." Wanda said and I rolled my eyes, sure but that situation was different. They weren't fighting a mad titan at the time and they almost lost. Not exactly the dream team, especially after the fight. Besides we almost won, we were so close to victory, and it got ruined within seconds.
"It's just that- okay I'm just mad since we almost had Thanos beat. But then as soon as we almost had him beat-"
"I ruined the plan. Just like Gamora did. I know I'm sorry." Quill said sitting down, "I know it was stupid of me, and I'm really sorry. I got too emotional. Its just I lost my mom and Gamora in the same way, sort of. My stupid sorry son of a bitc-" he looked at me and stopped, "okay pathetic excuse of a father put a tumor in my mom, that sounds weird, anyway it killed her and he said he had to kill her. He didn't and neither did Thanos, he didn't have to kill her. That wording just got to me. I'm sorry and I wish I could go back in time to stop myself, and no matter how many times I say sorry won't fix anything, but I truly mean it. It's all my fault that we're in here." Quill said and I knew how that felt.
"I didn't mean it, I know it's not your fault. I'm sorry Quill." I said starting to think about all my mistakes, wishing I could fix them.
"If I may interject, you two shouldn't blame yourselves. Quill, it was the only way that we could win. It wasn't meant for us to win quite yet. Peter your uncle, while it was unfortunate, he passed away, it was for a reason. You've helped more than you or anyone credits you. We needed Spider-Man and if your uncle didn't pass away you wouldn't have taken the role of him. If was necessary for both of those incidents. Don't give up you when we've come so close to a victory. Quill Gamora is looking for you, Groot is missing Rocket again, he needs you." Strange said before walking away. Wanda was thinking while Quill walked away.
"Peter you're depressed. You're doubting everyone including yourself, why?" Wanda asked and I glared at her. This is why I can't trust her. She can never mind her own business!
"Wanda would you stay out of my mind?" I asked angrily and stormed off. I got more annoyed looking around, same stupid scenery no matter where you went.
I walked for five minutes before my spidey senses went off and I saw a piece of wood come flying at me. I dodged it and ran to it when it fell. It looked like a part of groot... I looked up and saw him acting out. I walked over to him.
"I AM GROOT!" He yelled throwing another part of him.
"Wow Groot calm down, what's the matter?" I asked and he stopped.
"I am groot." His response surprised me.
"What do you mean? There's no way Rocket could hate you. Why would you think that and why do you think it's your fault we're here?" I asked and he sighed.
"I am Groot. I am groot." He said sitting down.
"Groot that is not a reason for Rocket to hate you. He loves you and you giving him attitude won't change that. Also being on your game didn't trap us in here, Thanos did, it's not your fault." I said and he rolled his eyes.
"I AM groot." I frowned at him.
"He did not, he tried to save you. He couldn't as much as he wanted to and you know that. He did not give up, he's still trying to save you, well us but mostly you. I promise once we get out of here he'll never let you leave his sight even for a second. Then you'll be wishing that you were back here. You want to know why?" I asked him and he gave me a questioning look.
"I am GROOT?" He is really blaming himself.
"Not because you're in trouble or he doesn't want you to mess up, because he loves you. Groot if he didn't love you do you think he would've raised you? Don't you think he would've left you?" I asked and he shrugged his shoulders.
"I am groot." He mumbled.
"You guess not? Come on if Rocket doesn't like you, you would know it. Everyone here knows he loves you except you. Don't lose faith, he's still fighting for you." I said and he smiled proudly.
"I am groot?" I nodded and got up to give him space. I walked away thinking and my spidey senses went off again, Wanda picked me up so I was in the air.
"Wanda leave me alone, put me down!" I shouted and she shook her head. Why the hell was she bothering me again? Can't she just put me down and leave me alone?
"Not until we come to an understanding." She said and started to walk, keeping me in the air. She walked where Peter and Gamora were. Why are they here?
"Wanda I don't think you had to do that to get him over here." Gamora said and I shouted,
"Thank you!" Wanda then dropped me.
"Ow." I said getting up, was the drop really necessary?
"Now Peter, let's take a walk. These two won't be too helpful." She said and as we were walking away we heard two Hey's! We giggled and she put her arm around me.
"Now Pete. What's on your mind?" She asked in a soft tone.
"I'm fine Gamora, I don't need to talk about my feelings or thoughts." I lied, she looked unimpressed, she knew my tells already.
"Okay maybe you don't, but I still want to hear them. Either Wanda goes through your mind again, or you just tell me." She said and sighed in defeat. Although I'm sure Wanda will go through my mind anyways, if I can keep her out I will.
"Okay fine. I've been having these thoughts that have really been affecting me. They're stupid thoughts that I know I shouldn't believe but after hearing them for so long with no one to prove them wrong, I can't help but believe in them." I said and she nodded.
"Peter, you don't have to tell me your exact thoughts or anything. But tell me how you're feeling." She said and I thought about it for a second. Should I lie or be honest for once? She knows when I'm lying and Wanda will tell her, might as well just tell her.
"Mad, frustrated, sad, hopeless, helpess, worthless..." I said stopping at the last one, why did I admit to that? While I was questioning that, she hugged me.
"Peter trust me, you're not anything close to worthless or helpless. You just helped Groot, something me and Quill have tried to do but can't ever really do. You're always helping people here, it was you who helped people find their families when we got here. You brought me to Quill, and helped Mantis and Drax find Groot. I also heard you're the one who almost beat Thanos with your plan." She said and I shrugged. Who cares what does that do for me or anyone else in here? We're still here aren't we?
"Sure but what does it matter now." I voiced a little annoyed and she shook her head.
"This isn't going to work. But I know what will." She said leaving me confused.