Evans POV
Any moment I'm still in the ware house I'm worried about Dell and I'm bugged by Luke is fucking annoying
"Your guilty, so you'll break"
"Yea right"
"Everyone has a breaking point it's happens sooner or later"
"Luke leave me alone"
"Your the one who let me come back."
I feel sad
I felt tears but I held them back
"You better fucking leave me alone"
"I just want to know. Oh I also learned it wasn't 2 years you left me"
"When was it then?"
"4 mother Fucking years Evan"
My heart sank
"Your lying"
"when did you meet Tyler?"
"4 years ago...."
I felt sad
Ashamed
Cruel
"I don't feel like saying shit to you"
"Real Nice Evan"
"Yes I know but I'm a gang leader dunbass"
"Leaders don't leave members behind"
"Shut it"
We stare at each other. My eyes soften but his stay firm
"You've changed so fucking much"
"Haha you too"
"I missed you" I say trying so hard not to let tears spill
"Don't you cry on me" Luke says holding me from falling over
I'm so sorry
I wish I could tell him I really do
"I need to go"
"Evan"
I look at him ready to hear those same words
"You can tell me later" he sighs
I sigh walking away
What.
Did..
He say....
Later?
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Smitty Pov
"Okay honestly I came first twice, but babe cmon I tried for you" I say begging her
" I'm sorry but no" she giggles
" your doing this just to make me mad"
"I know" she laughs even more "but I'll give you this for trying"
She kisses me softly but passionately
"Keep trying" she laughs
"Where you going?l I ask seeing her about to leave the room
"Out"
"Alright be careful"
"Why because I'm a girl"
"No because gangs know your with us"
She smiled
"Love you" she waves
"Love you"
She leaves
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Your POV
I walk down the street with a knife on my thigh and a gun in my pocket I whistle happily, I stop at my destination
The coffee shop.
I look to see it's pretty busy like when I worked there. But no BBS. I step inside
*ding*
There it is.
"Hi welcome" a female greets me
I wave back
" hi can I have (what you order)"
"What's your name?"
"(Y/n) (l/n)"
He smiles as he looks up
"Hi hank"
I say waving
"I'm sorry"
"What?"
"We don't serve your kind here"
He looked pissed
"What does that mean!"
"Your a good for noting gang member"
"How do you know?"
I frown
"News is everywhere sweetie"
"Piss off"
"And I know you fucking. Fucking shot Kitty"
I gasp. Starting to tear up
"You know i-". "Save it I don't wanna hear it, you killed my motherfucking girlfriend" I gasp. Unable to breathe anymore "ah-wh-what!?" I started crying he was crying "I didn't know"
"Nobody did" he chuckles "you shot her, Ohm fucking.. killed my brother"
"What!?"
"Depression hit me so hard a week ago (y/n)" he chuckled crazily
Everyone stared at us
"I'm so sorry"
"Fuck off" she smiled
"I'm a murderer" I cry
"Who isn't these days"
"What?"
"Me too" he smiles
"You've killed someone"
"Hoping that your little gang would come back to take me away too, but they only wanted you two."
I sniffle
"Now I'm going to kill someone else"
"What does that mean?" I look up after rubbing my eyes
"I've waited for you to come back, I knew you would, like any guilty person"
"Don't kill me!" I say pulling out my gun and aiming at him
"No you honey"
We stare at each other
"Oh, tell Ohm what I've done dear." He took a deep breath and pulled a gun to his head
"HANK!"
RINGING
All I can hear is ringing, I can't see, I close my eyes and hide behind the counter crying for my life
Everyone screaming and leaving ding, ding ding everyone's rushing out. I cry hard.
———time skip———
Evan POV
I was walking looking for Dell hands in pocket I turn to see that little coffee shop we found Ohm and (y/n) at. I notice blood all over the counter and back wall, its like someone exploded. I then look down to see a girl crying her fucking heart out.
I enter
*ding*
"HELP ME PLEASE DON'T TELL ME OH MY FUCKING GOD" she screams wiping her eyes
she looks up
"Evan?"
"(Y/N)?"
"what is going on?"
"Hank, my old boss, I think he killed someone."
"why?"
"I don't know"
she cried even harder now "it's pretty bloody" I said trying to get her to stand
I peek behind the counter to see who I'm pretty sure is Hank on the ground with a blown out skull, gun nearby body. seems to me someone in the store has real good aim or he killed himself.
shes already fragile might not want to hell her. I won't
"thank you." she says as i help her get up.
I smile trying to make sure she doesn't look behind her
she peeks I notice this and turn her to face me
"it's alright (Y/N)"
"Th-this is my fault" she cried falling over again
"no it's not"
"he reached his breaking point" "we all have to one day" is sigh thinking about Dell and Luke.
"he wants me to tell Ohm about this" "who said that" "Hank himself." I sat down beside her in a booth.
"I'm so sorry" she laughs
"why are you laughing?"
"i'm being dramatic"
"nonsense"
"I'm such a fucking cry baby"
"it happens to the best of us." this clearly made he giggle and smile
"thats right" she leans her head on my shoulder, she takes a deep breath which is shaky, I hold he hand and close my eyes starting to cry a little
"you didn't know Hank and your crying over him?" she laughed slightly
"it's dell"
"whats wrong?"
"he left" i cry
"forever?"
"no"
"good" we both smile as I wipe my tears "he'll come back, he loves you too much" she smiles making me smile. "your right, so is Luke." she breathe deeply as she takes her head off my shoulder. "he killed himself right?" she asked "yes, if I would say he did it by sticking it to the back of his throat" "why would you know this?" "4 years" she sighs
"you left him for 4 years too." she whispers to herself
"what?"
"nothing!"
"not you too!" I get mad. "why is everyone on my fucking back about this." I squeeze her hand she tugs "ow" i let go. she rubs her hand "i'm sorry!" "everyone is up my ass about Smitty ya know!" she screams "I MADE ONE MISTAKE" "I JUST HAD TO GET DRUNK" we look each other and cry and laugh like maniacs. "I LEFT HIM" "I LOVE HIM" we cry harder
we go silent
"so your gay?"
my breath hitches
"y-yea" I sigh
"who knows" she asks wiping her red puffy eyes "everyone now" "what about dell?" "hes Bi." our eyes both stained with tears and red from the crying. "you love him, whats wrong with that?" she says "you love Smitty whats so wrong about that?" I say "everyone." she replies "same" we look at each other and hug
"respect" she says
"only for you" I say hugging her tightly
"dumbass breaking point"
we laugh
"it's starting to smell, let's get back to the warehouse." I say, she nods as we walk back together. I give her my hoodie since it's cold and she's wearing a tank.
we enter the warehouse.
"Mr. steal yo girl" John says pointing at us, we both forgot we were holding hands and basically hugging while walking. SHIT. i let go and shuffle away but not before everyone saw.
"congrats" Luke says
smitty looks upset, but mad. but like he knows it's nothing.
"i'm back" I cough
"me too" she says hugging me one more time before heading to smitty
"YOUR EYES! WHAT HAPPENED" Smitty says
"tears" she replies I smile and laugh
"tell me everything" "it's private i'm sorry Smitty." Smitty looks sad but okay with that. she winks at me as the two go upstairs together.
"what the fuck happened to your eyes, were you crying too?" Luke says
"yes" I say shivering. she still has my fucking hoodie.
"will you ever tell me?"
I cough in shock.
"really now?"
the pressure is starting to make my stomach churn
I see (y/n) coming back with Smitty after she washed her face
"I don't feel well" I say
"word vomiting" Luke says getting closer to me
my face turns red
I hear voices telling me to tell everyone, to yell it, to scream it, to fucking get rid of this dark secret.
"wanna know why asshole?"
"YES"
everyone looks at us, EVERYONE
i start crying
"BECAUSE I FUCKING LOVED YOU"
I cry harder after everyone stares blankly at me
Luke steps back
"what"
"I had a crush on you dude, I needed to get rid of it."
"so you fucking pushed me away?"
"YOU LEFT ME TO ROT FOR FOUR FUCKING YEARS"
I cried even more, rushing outside only to be chased by Luke
"YOU SON OF A BITCH"
he's now crying
"Look i'm sorry"
"sorry ain't good enough"
"and how could you love me?"
"how do I LOVE DELL?"
"WHAT?"
"it's suppose to be man and woman not this way"
"hey dude"
I CRY SO HARD TEARS RUNNING LIKE A RIVER
"don't think that way, your made beautiful like everyone else, we're all different and amazing." i sniff my snot away
"I love him, I do. I loved you, I don't anymore, but like. I was so young."
"4 years"
"yeah that..."
Luke hugs me
"bro. I got mad respect for you though"
"what do you mean?"
"you remembered me after 4 years."
"how could I not you mugged a mother and baby, you killed a cop."
"haha i remember that, but what I mean is most normal people would NEVER come back, you did."
we both wipe our eyes and smile
"i'm over this, I just wanted to know why."
"now you know"
we hug
"I hate this stupid breaking point"
"me too Evan, me too.
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A/N
HOLY FUCK THIS CHAPTER IS LONG AF.
it hurts to type. yea im typing but still be warned of fucking errors. I can't write or grammar, sorry. anyways me and my friend just had a fight and got over it so quick, this made me cry writing it. it made me feel like it was me and my friend, it's not based off that though. don't worry im better now
hope you like this book so far :)
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word count: 1657
see what I mean by long ass chapter