I lay in my bed staring at the ceiling. Tears fall. I still haven't told Mason. He was playing video games with Nathan in the game room. I closed my door so I can be alone. I'm so scared. About it all. And to tell him.
I sit up wiping all the tears. What do I do? I need to tell him soon, fast. I can't keep it from him. Maybe for a day!? No! I squeeze my eyes shut and let the tears fall. We're actually so fucking dumb. How!? I don't even know. Lila insisted on coming in but I said she can go I Anyways need to tell Mason sometime when I get the balls. I'm so scared for his reaction. What if he just leaves me? He wouldn't. It's Mason. My phone buzzed and I look at it. It was him.
You home done yet? It's been a while?
I didn't want to answer. I was scared. I stare at the text I see the 3 food pop up again but go away then pop up again then go. I put my fingers over the keyboard and take a deep breath.
-I'm home
Why didn't you come to tell me! I'll be right up in 5 finishing this game!
I felt more tears spill out of my eyes. I need to compose myself before I tell him. I go to the washroom. I wash my face and it helps a bit with the puffy redness. I dab it with a cloth. Then I feel sick and kneel to the toilet and puke. It just kinda kept coming.
"Shit!" Mason comes in. He pulls my hair back for me. I think I feel sick because of everything. All the thoughts. And the stress. "Are you okay?" He asks. He wipes my mouth with the cloth. This is making me more emotional. He's being so nice and sweet.
"Ya" I nod. Oh god. I get up and brush my teeth quickly.
"So what did the doctor say?" He asks when I'm done. I turn to face him he looks worried. I felt my lip quiver so I bite down on it.
"Uh..." I start. I walk into the room and sit he follows.
"Babe!? You okay?" He asks.
"Yeah" I nod. No not really. "It's just..." I start. He looks completely worried.
"Maddie you're kinda freaking me out" he chuckles nervously.
"I know. Sorry" I sighed.
"If this is like a trick to tell me you just have the flu I'll kill you" he says. My lip quivers again.
"It's not" I shake my head. I look away. I take a deep breath.
"Okay. Then what's going on?" He asks he turns me to look at him.
"Uh...I...I'm pregnant" I finally come out with it. His lips part and his hand drops. I felt the tears about to come up but I hold them back as hard as I can.
"Is this a joke?" He asks.
"Yeah does it look like I'm joking?" I stated. He takes a sharp breath in.
"But no...it's not possible" he shakes his head. "B...what" he's looking everywhere but me and I felt the tears about to pour out. He's gonna leave me. Isn't he. "She. She made you take a test?" He asks. I nod. "Fuck." He says in pretty much a whisper. "I don't understand."
"Fuck!" He said louder. I bite my lip. He glances at me again. He looked like he was about to say it. Say he wasn't gonna help, gonna take care of this kid with me. Leave me.
"You don't want to have anything to do with it. Do you?" I asked. His eyes snap back to me.
"What!?" He asks.
"If you don't want anything to do with the baby Mason tell me now" I breathe out ready to burst into tears.
"Maddie. What the fuck no!? Of course I want everything to do with it" he says. "I'm just. Confused. Scared. Confused again." I felt a wave of relief crash over me.
"Mason. What are we gonna do!?" I asked. The tears pool in my eyes. "We're 19" I add. "W-what are we gonna do?" I said I'm a whisper. I felt the tears fall.
"Maddie it'll be...okay" he pulls me into a hug.
"Will it though. We know nothing. We're still in university, we don't know what we're d-doing with our lives and we are dumb and pregnant" I said crying into him. It felt so good to hug him.
"Listen. We'll get through this. It's us. Maddie and Mason" he says.
"I'm scared" I cried.
"I know. I am too" he sighs.
"Do...do you want to keep it?" I asked.
"I mean. Yeah I would actually" he says. "You?"
"I do" I nod. "But. It's...it's just so early, but I don't want to abort it" I tells him.
"Yeah" he nods.
"I also need to tell my mom. We need to prepare. This is all so much. We live in a dorm not an actual apartment or house, we have school-" I start rambling. He pulls me away from him. He wipes away some of my tears.
"Maddie, calm down. You can't be stressing right now. We'll deal with it" he tells me. His calm voice and eyes made me relax a bit.
"I'm scared" I said again.
"I know baby" he says. "I know, just relax right now" he tells me.
"How do I tell my mom?" I asked.
"Maddie" he gives me a look. "She's not even here" he said.
"I know" I sighed.
"Maybe you should rest" he tells me.
"I don't think I can" I said honestly.
"I don't want you stressing" he says.
"I can't stop" I mumble.
"Maddie. You're having my kid...you need to relax and not stress" he says. And not gonna lie that sentence made me happy. "So just lay down, sleep or watch a movie" he shrugs.
"Ok" I sighed. "You gonna be with Nathan?" I asked.
"No I'll stay with you" he tells me.
"You don't have to" I shake my head.
"I want to" he sighs. I could see the confusion, worry, surprise, and scared look in his eyes. I lay down. My eyes were puffy and swollen. I was actually getting tired from crying and puking the whole day. He lays next to me. "Are you okay?" He asks.
"I will be" I sighed in reply. He pulls me close to him.
"Just know I love you Maddie" he says.
"I know. I love you too" I reply. He kisses me lightly. It was so nice and felt so good for him to be reacting like this. I'm happy and relieved and still worried.
I started to feel myself drift and then.
"What the fuck is happening" Mason mutters under his breath. I don't know.
~
I wake up feeling immediately nauseous. I run the bathroom going to the toilet and puking again. I heard Mason her out of bed coming to the bathroom. He gets a cloth and kneels down holding my hair back. He wipes my mouth for me. He pours me a cup of water. I rinse my mouth. I flush the toilet.
"You alright?" His voice was groggy and raspy from sleeping.
"Yeah" I nod. "Just annoyed" I said.
"Maybe you should eat. You haven't really today" he says.
"Ok" I nod. He helps me stand up. I run my eyes. How long does this last.
We get downstairs and Nathan was there with Lily. They look.
"Oh hey guys!" She grins.
"Hey" we reply.
"Did you just wake up?" She laughs I nod. "You feeling any better?"
"No not really" I sighed. Nathan looks at me.
"Have you taken any meds?" He asks.
"No" I shake my head. "I'm going to eat right now" I said. I look at Mason who was looking down at me.
"K well. Make sure to take something. What did the doctor say?" And I froze. Mason notices.
"That she should just keep taking Tylenol" he butts in. I nod.
"Ok" he nods. We go to the kitchen.
"Thanks" I said.
"You don't have to thank me Maddie" he said back. "Just sit I'll get you something" he says I nod. I sit down. He gets me food and sits next to me.
"When do we tell them?" I asked.
"Whenever we're ready" he says. I take a bite out of the food. And immediately I was about to puke. I jump up.
"You okay?" He asks confused look on his face. I run to the washroom. I quickly shut the door and puke again. Mason comes in.
"Didn't know my cooking was that bad" he jokes. I wipe my mouth.
"Haha" I muttered sarcastically he laughs.
"Sorry. You alright?" He kneels down next to me. He hands me a cloth for the fiftieth time.
"Well. I am because I've been doing this for a whole week now. I'm kinda used to it" I mutter. I stand up. I rinse my mouth with mouthwash.
"How long does it last?" He asks.
"I don't know. It's called morning sickness. But it's throughout the whole day" I muttered annoyed.
"Yeah I can see that" he nods. We go out. Nathan and Lily looked over to us.
"Jeez Maddie. You're puking like a pregnant person" Nathan says. I felt my cheeks flush.
"Yeah I know" I muttered. "It was Mason's good this time" I replied.
"Thanks" he rolls his eyes.
"You said so yourself" I said. We were better. Less stressed. Less worried. I liked it.
"Yeah. But it's fine when I say it" he laughs. I stick my tongue out to him he grabs it I smack his hand away.
"You sicko. Don't touch my tongue" I said.
"You kinda forced it on me" he shrugs.
"Yeah ok" I roll my eyes. Maybe. Just maybe this would all be great. Hopefully my mom doesn't hate me. Hopefully Nathan doesn't either. I just want this to be so good for us.
********************
A/N
Well...enjoy guys. I know a lot of...say drama. Xoxo.
-Jana🤙🏽