By SaltyOtaku
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Ok, so I've thought I was Bi for a long time.
I knew I felt attraction to women, even when dating a guy.
As for this guy, I did love him to death, but not long before we broke up I began to question my feelings for him.
I realized he wasn't someone I wanted to be with, and I wasn't ready for a very sexual relationship.
My friend mentioned to me that I'd never been in a lgbtq relationship, so that caused me to question myself again. Was I straight? Gay? Bi? Pan? Ace?
I was extremely confused and a month or so later, when I was getting back into dating again, one of my friends asked me out. After a night or so, we went out to the beach together and I accepted her. We dove into a kind of on and off relationship. She broke up with me twice before we broke off all together. In all honesty, this relationship was one of the best times of my life, despite the little arguments we sometimes had.
Later while I was completely stressed, with keeping up with my classes, after school activities, etc, she broke up with me, all together. It wasn't until I'd gotten online after school the next day that I saw the message. I still have screen shots, for Irene's sake. It practically shattered my heart. I talked to my friend Bre a few days after when she had asked why I was so upset, pissed off easily, etc. I explained it to her and she helped me through the break up.
About a month or so later, another of my close friends admitted she had a crush on me. I won't go into detail on the conversation, but after some convincing from Bre, I ended up asking her out. We are still dating to this day.
As for the sexuality thing, I've finally figured it out. As I was talking to Bre about the relationships I've been in, I slowly realized that I had not felt any type of love other than platonic love for a guy since my last boyfriend. I realized that while I thought I was Bi-demi, I was Lesbian-demi. (I prefer the term gay oof).