I'm sorry
I'm sorry if I broke you heart,
I'm sorry for hurting you from the start.
I'm sorry that I lie,
I'm sorry that I made you cry.
Why did you choose him over me?
I thought you said we're meant to be?
Why can't I just let you go?
And accept that you don't want me no more?
Oh, why can't I just believe?
That you ain't gonna stay, but leave.
I'm sorry I caused you pain,
I'm sorry I left you in the rain.
I'm sorry for all the things I've done wrong,
but don't worry,
soon I'll be gone.
I love you to the moon and back,
my angel, but now I'm sad.
Martinus
Wow. I was speechless. He wrote a poem for me! I felt something in me was telling me that I need to wake up. I want to wake up! I wish all this was just a dream and that I'll open my eyes and all will be back to normal.
I realized this is true. I want to go back! I flew to the sky and then I was back to Sasha.
Me: I want to go back!
Sasha: Please calm down. You can't go back. Maybe after some time, but not now. You need to protect Martinus.
A tear rolled down my cheek. I wish all were just a bad dreams. I need to go back! I'll find a way. I walked out and there was sitting Annabelle.
Me: Hey. Do you know how to get back to life?
Anna: No. But I think my grandma told me about this one time. I tried it, but it didn't work.
Me: I need to go back!
I kicked the stone all the way to Anna's house. I was deep in thoughts when something hurted me. It was pain in my heart. I stepped one step back and put my hand on the heart.
Anna: What's wrong?!
Me: P-pa-in.
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I heard voices in my head saying 'you need to go back' and in next moment, I opened my eyes and breathe hard. I looked around and doctors were there.
Tinus: Is she okay?!?!
Doc: She's awake! We'll leave you all alone now.
They leaved and it was them!!! Mac and Tinus were here! I started to cry as I saw them.
Mac: What's wrong?!
Me: Ma...
I couldn't get anything more out of me. It's still a hope that I'll speak one day. But one day may be far from here.
Tinus: Shhh, you need to rest. We'll leave you alone for some time.
They leaved and I saw a pen and a paper on the desk. I took it and started to write.
One day
One day
may be far away,
but it still
seem so real.
One day I'll wake up from all this drama,
and you'll be gone like my grandmama.
One day now seems unreal,
but my love is still clear.
If I could take away one day,
that smile would never ever go away,
and you'll believe in that one day.
It was time for us to go different ways,
you should go and live your life,
and I will in heaven spend my days.
If I had just one more day,
that smile would never go away,
and we'd believe in that one day.
I put the pencil and paper down. They walked back in and I smiled a little. That was not my real smile.
Tinus: Are you feeling any better?
I nodded and they put chairs next to my bed. I looked first at Tinus and then back at Mac. I moved my hand back to the paper and hide it.
Tinus: What have you got here?
I nodded my head from right to left. He looked at me with his big puppy brown eyes. He was looking at me until I finally gave up. I gave him my poem and he looked at it.
Tinus: Before I read this...I wrote a poem for you too. Here.
He gave me his poem and I know what was written on it. I remember all that happened while I was on the other side like they call it.
Tinus: That's amazing!
I took his hand and he smiled a little. I looked around the room and saw a doctor. She was young and she seemed nice. Like my mum or mostly of her.
Tinus: Alicia? Do you want to be friends again?
I slowly nodded and smiled. He hugged me and then took my arm.
Tinus: Promise me, you'll never do that again.
I looked away and his small smile faded away. He was sad and I was breaking inside. I can't even lie now. He was talking quiet.
Tinus: Alicia, please. I need you more than you think. I need a friend like you. You are perfect in evrything and I'm sorry for making you sad. But please, don't cut yourself.
I looked away again and tears formed in my eyes. I let them out and they were rolling down my face like a river. If I could only tell him about my feelings. I heard doors opened. Then I heard their beautiful voice.
Mac: Is it over?
I just gotta know
Cause I'm reaching
But where did you go?
Tears are falling
While I'm calling
Can't make it alone, no
It's so silent
Nobody's home
Tinus:
Tell me is it gonna be another lonely heart tonight?
Without you
Without you
Cause I don't wanna wake up in the morning knowing you're not mine
Without you
Without you
Gotta get you back to me
Get away my misery
(woah-oh-oh woah-oh-oh-oh)
Tell me is it gonna be another lonely heart tonight
Without you
Without you
Mac: I'm breathing
But I'm barely alive
I'm dreaming
Of you by my side
Now I'm broken
Words are spoken
Running through my mind
I need you
But you're so hard to find (oh-oh)
Tinus: Tell me is it gonna be another lonely heart tonight
Without you, without you
Cause I don't wanna wake up in the morning
Knowing you're not mine
Without you
Without you
Gotta get you back to me
Get away my misery
(woah-oh-oh woah-oh-oh-oh)
Tell me is it gonna be another lonely heart tonight
Without you
Without you
Mac: Try to talk, but I choke
But I want, you to know
That I never felt this way
About nobody else and I
Wanna I call you on my phone
Cause now when I'm all alone
I realize you don't know what you got until it's gone
Cause I don't wanna wake up
(nooo-no-no)
Tinus: Tell me is it gonna be another lonely heart tonight?
Without you
Without you
Cause I don't wanna wake up in the morning
Knowing you're not mine
Without you
Without you
Gotta get you back to me
Get away my misery
(woah-oh-oh woah-oh-oh-oh)
Tell me is it gonna be another lonely heart tonight?
Without you
Without you
I was crying so much. They were crying too. I hugged them both and they hugged me back. I looked at them still crying.
Me: I...I'm...so...ry.
Tinus: You shouldn't be. I should be sorry. I still love you Alicia. It's just that you don't want that.
Mac: C'mon bro. You can't do nothing about it. You can just wait. And say that you fucked up. It'll be easier for you, trust me.
Tinus: Yeah, I...I fucked up.
I laughed at them and then the doc came in. She wasn't very happy.
Doc: Dear Alicia. I've got some news from your doctor. She told me all about you.
Tinus: What about her?
She looked at me and I slowly nodded. She looked back at them.
Doc: Look guys. That's not a joke. She...she's got a...
Mac: C'mon. It can't be that bad. You're acting like she's got a cancer.
Tinus: Can you please shut up?!
Mac: Jeez, I was just telling the truth. It can't be bad.
Doc: Well, it's very bad. And if that's a joke to you, than you can go home. She...she's got a...a tumor.
M&M: WHAT?!
Doc: I told you that's not a joke! How do you think she's feeling rn? When you acted like that? But there's one more thing. It's getting worse because of her heart. It seems like it's broken.
A/N
Hey all! I'm back. Sorry for not updating. I'll try my best to write every day. I think that's fair enough. I hope you liked this part. Bye all!