Fallen Angels

Chapter 3: Stay at Home Dad

I don’t even think I feel anymore. I don’t know what i’ve become. A drunk, a sad excuse for a father, a liar, a thief, a low-life, a monster. I try to make it all go away by popping pills and drinking my life away but I still remember everything, all those mistakes and broken promises, no matter how much I try to kill and bury it, it comes right back . I cause pain, I always been that way. Causing pain everywhere I go. Its no getting around it, sooner or later i’ll make you hurt. I see all the hurt I caused in Ruth and Gabriel. Those eyes pierce my soul like a gun. It’s unbearable, I try to avoid them it’s the only way but the little bastard,Gabriel, always thinks he’s a man. He thinks he can just disrespect me, THIS IS MY HOUSE! I  lose control and everything goes black. Next thing I know am hovering over Gabe while pale and distort Ruth is crying and yelling “ STOP! YOU’RE KILLING HIM, YOU’RE KILLING HIM!. I'm no parent. I never wanted to be one. Now am stuck taking care of the two bastards.