I am laughing.
But my heart is aching.
I am smiling.
But I suppress something.
This excruciating pain.
Everything now's in vain.
Can't help but ask.
"Why? Why?!"
Just wanna escape.
Just wanna run away.
But I don't think it's the best way.
So yes, I'm gonna stay.
Feel like bleeding.
Feel like fainting.
I'm not living.
I'm just surviving.
I'm lost.
I'm lonely.
I'm sad.
I'm giving up.
But then again, I'm not.