I was sitting on the couch in my basement when I heard a ding coming from my phone. I looked at it. My boyfriend Shawn Mendes had posted a picture on Instagram. I swiped to the right and put my passcode in so I could look at the picture. When I saw the picture, I could practically feel my heart drop into my stomach. It was a picture of him standing next to model Hailey Baldwin, who was wearing a shirt that just barely covered her breasts. I felt jealousy and irritation boil up inside of me. I wasn't going to text Shawn about this. Hell, I wasn't even going to talk to him about it. That probably isn't healthy, but I just don't want to get into a fight with him about her. I soon got a text message from him.
Shawn: Hey baby girl. You probably saw the photo, and I'm really sorry, but you know that we're just friends. Okay?
Me: Yup.
Shawn: You don't believe me do you?
Me: I don't want to talk about it Shawn. I have a headache, I'm going to go take a nap.
So that's exactly what I did. I took a nap for the headache that I actually had. I think that the headache was triggered by stress. There's been a lot going on lately and now this photo with Hailey? It was just a little too much. I cried and cried, which only made my headache worse. I shut my bedroom doors and finally fell asleep. I awoke to hearing someone in my house. Panicked, I grabbed my phone, ready to dial 911 if need be. I opened the door to find Shawn sitting on my couch. There was something next to him. He looked up at me and rushed over to give me a hug. I weakly hugged back.
"Hi baby girl." Shawn said.
"Hi." I said.
"I brought you some flowers. They're tulips. I know that tulips are your favorite, and they're pink so I thought that you might like them." Shawn said, handing me the flowers. I weakly smiled and nodded my head.
"Thank you Shawn. They're beautiful." I said, taking the flowers from his hands and putting them in a glass vase.
"Just like you, my beautiful girl." Shawn said with a smile. I blushed at his words and looked down.
"That was cheesy Shawn. Good, but cheesy." I said with a smile.
"Well it's true. You're the most beautiful girl in the world." Shawn said, taking my hands. I pulled them away and rubbed my head.
"Thank you. I still have that headache." I said. Shawn had a look of concern etched across his face.
"Have you taken anything for it?" He asked.
"Yeah but it's not working. I think I'm just going to lay back down. I'm sorry you came all this way just for me to lay down." I said sincerely.
"Well why don't I lay with you? I can hold you if you would like?" Shawn asked. I would like that, but the jealousy was still boiling within me.
"No you should go home Shawn, watch the television or something. I don't want to weigh you down or anything." I said. Honestly, I kind of felt like maybe I was weighing him down. He should go be with Hailey. She's prettier than me and he seems to be at least friendly with her anyways.
"Is that what you really think? That you're weighing me down? Baby that is so far from the truth. Just forget about Hailey." Shawn said.
"Easier said than done, and it's especially hard when your boyfriend posts a picture of him together with her and she's wearing a sexy crop top." I said, the irritation coming back. Shawn sighed.
"Please baby girl. I don't know what to do. I need you to help me because I don't know what to do to help you." Shawn said. Now it was my turn to sigh.
"I don't know what to do either Shawn! You're liking her photos, you're posing with her, it's just too much!" I yelled, starting to cry. Shawn rushed forward to hug me but I backed away from his attempted hug.
"Baby please. Just let me hold you. We can figure this out." Shawn said. Could we? I couldn't stand feeling this way.
"No Shawn. I need to lay down and think. I need some space right now." I said. Shawn looked hurt and I couldn't stand to see him hurt so I looked down at the ground.
"Y/n please." Shawn pleaded. I shook my head no.
"Please just give me some space." I said.
"Okay... I love you." Shawn said.
"I love you too." I mumbled. As mad at him as I was, I still loved him and nothing was going to change that. Shawn left and I resumed my crying as I laid in my bed, crying myself to sleep.
I woke up the next day with a migraine. I felt like I didn't even want to move. It felt like a hundred of the sharpest knives were stabbing my forehead. I didn't know what time it was but then I heard my alarm go off. I yelped as the pain became worse and I turned my alarm off. That meant that it was seven in the morning. A few minutes later and the migraine hadn't lessened at all. There was no way that I was going to school today. I heard my phone ring, someone was calling me. I didn't even check to see who it was, I just dismissed it. Then the person called again. Once again, I dismissed it. After the person called for a third time, I turned my phone off. A little bit later I heard my front door open and then shut.
"Baby girl?" I heard Shawn yell out. I wanted to ask him to stop yelling, but I was in too much pain. I heard him walk into my room and sit on my bed. I looked at him and tears filled my eyes. He looked like he had been crying and he looked so concerned. Plus, with the pain I was in, I felt like I needed to cry. "You okay?" He asked, his voice a little too loud for my migraine.
"Can you whisper please? I have a really bad migraine." I asked and said. Instead of saying something in response, Shawn picked me up. I gave him a look of confusion but he didn't say anything. He sat me down on the couch, put my shoes on me, and carried me out to his car.
"I'm taking you to the hospital." Shawn whispered. At this point, I just nodded. We got to the hospital and they gave me fluids and medicine to help me. I told them that I had been getting headaches every single day for a week and they said that they wanted to keep me overnight so they could keep an eye on me.
"I can't, I have school." I protested. Before the doctor could respond, Shawn did.
"Babe, I know that you're a hard worker, but you need to listen to the doctor." Shawn said. I nodded at the doctor.
"Okay." I said. The doctor finished talking to us and left. I decided to take a nap. When I woke up, Shawn was still there. He looked up at me and gave me a concerned smile.
"Hi baby girl. How are you feeling?" He asked.
"Better." I said.
"Good. Can we talk now?" Shawn asked.
"About Hailey?" I asked.
"Yes." Shawn said.
"Fine." I said.
"What can I do to make you feel better?" Shawn asked.
"I don't know. I just always feel like you're going to find someone better than me, especially with her." I said, starting to cry.
"No, no, no. Don't cry baby girl. It'll make your headache worse and I don't want to see you cry. Honey, no one gets better than you. Please believe me baby girl." Shawn said, putting my hand where his heart is. "My heart beats for you, and only you. Okay?" Shawn asked. I nodded.
"Okay. I just feel like she's so much better than me and -" I said before Shawn cut me off with a kiss. I felt sparks shoot out throughout my body. I felt my blood pump faster. I felt my heart race, and I felt butterflies erupt and fly around in my stomach.
"No one gets better than you." Shawn said, emphasizing every single word. I smiled at him and nodded.
"Okay. I just... I need you to keep reassuring me of these things, and I need you to be patient with me when I get jealous like this. I don't want us to end and I'm just scared that we will end." I said.
"We're never going to end baby. Never. I love you too much to let you go and let myself lose you. Okay?" Shawn asked.
"Okay. I love you." I said.
"I love you too." Shawn said with a smile.
"Shawn?" I asked.
"Yes beautiful?" Shawn asked.
"Will you kiss my forehead?" I requested.
"Of course. Come here." Shawn said. I leaned forward a little and he placed two slow kisses on my forehead. He then rested his forehead against mine and smiled.
"Thank you." I said.
"Of course. Anything for you." Shawn said. The doctors let Shawn stay with me overnight and he held me in the hospital bed as I fell asleep. God am I lucky or what?