You traveled your fingers across your rosy lips for the millionth time in those past three days that you had stayed away from him with only that memory floating around on your mind.
You had not kissed him directly yet the fact that he made such an action meant that he desires to kiss you but because of the veto he can not come in physical contact with you and that fact had made you worry a lot this past days but had made you happy as well.
Your heart would not stop beating rapidly at his recalling and your happiness would increase just by having him on your thoughts but at the same time fear was knocking on your door.Fear of falling in love with someone you clearly should not and in general fear of the unknown future that lies ahead .
You had noticed your feathers that had starting changing color and you knew well that this was bound to happen as the exposure on that land was not without a risk for an angel to do yet even though you had knowledge of such information you were hoping that it would not give effect on you so quickly since you had always tried to not stay long. Unfortunately it seems you had calculated things wrong and the effects of that air had starting showing by changing your feathers color.The thing is that according to the books you had read about this it said that the feathers that get polluted fall then become black ,while On the contrary however yours as you had noticed became black and some remained attached while others would fall.
That had made you think that probably not all your feathers changed color for the same reason and while rereading the first page of the mysterious book that unable you to pass through the Celestial wall you had grew to understand that you might be taking a road that will probably make drastic changes on your life as an angel because you were changing ,even though you were trying to not admit it.
From the first moment you had actually seen him, something had changed inside you yet you could never name that feeling that had been created inside you and you still can not but you are aware that you had not had such feeling before and that is a change in itself.
These three days that you could not go and see him were the undeniable proof of how much you had started to get attached to him , to meeting him, talking to him and thinking about him. And that itself was scary to how you loved him like this.Him, whom you know so little.Him, whom you should not trust.Him,whom you are so different from.
You left a deep breath escape from your lips as you plopped your body back on the fresh green grass under the tree near the Celestial wall were you had been staying and reading books at afternoons these past three days.You would stay there , enjoying the nature while continuing your research on how to save Jimin from the land of Demons. You had not found anything however you definitely were not going to give up even if you had to read every book on the library or as a thought that definitely shouldn't had passed on your mind had made you think of that forbidden option for a mare second, infringe the rules and enter at the room that only the Archangels have access to, so you can be able to take a look at the book of life that belongs to him,as surely him must have one as well because every creature god had created had a book of life that is kept on the Golden archive .
However that place is almost impossible to enter if you have no authority to which means that you that were not an archangel would surely not have a change to even touch the surface of the gate.
That thought was indeed crazy and you had to get rid of it but as time ticked away the feeling of missing him was making you feel like the minutes were pushing you more and more towards that option that was a wrong doing and angels should not even have a thought of doing something that is wrong yet here you were not only thinking about it but truly considering of doing it as well.
"What is wrong with me?" You mumbled while looking at the clean afternoon sky with the glowing sun that was once again warming the atmosphere and giving life to many flowers and other plants that were around.
After you had spoke those words the book that you had lied above your bag together with some other common books ,started lightning up winning your attention. It's light strong as always blinding you and making you close your eyes tight waiting for it to calm down thing that it did even though once more the process seemed to take a little longer in each every passing time making you wonder for the cause of it.
Once the light cooled down you quickly reached out and grabbed it before you opened it and rushed the pages to the new page anticipating for the new piece of information that it may give this message .
"Your steps have been craved and as thus can not be undone .
From this point on there is no turning back so keep your eyes to the front and your heart to the back .
While you travel in this path you may get lost inside the dark , if you wish for home again just recall the ageless tale .."
You read and reread the words thinking hard to give them a logical explanation but only one thing came to mind regarding one of the words mentioned in there.The ageless tale. It is said that the only tale that remained the unchanged from universe to universe throughout ages is the tale of Angels and Demons so you understood that the solution of this had probably to do with both of you.
In the tale Demons and Angels are two opposites never to accept each other or be friendly with each other but you and Jimin are not like that at all which means that if you ever wanted to go back to the beginning and lose all the progress you had done till now the only thing you had to do is become his enemy but that was not something you intended to do. You understood that the book was there to protect you and warn you but you were not afraid and you had faith that you would not get swallowed by that darkness .You could pull him into the light before that happened to you and that was all you wanted to do.
Don't worry my dear friend , i will not fall prey .I will just reach out to him and clean his soul and bring him where he belongs.
You patted the book being thankful for his loyalty and kindness that had showed towards you just like a dear friend would and you engulfed it in your embrace waiting for the sky to transform it's clothing to a darker color as it already had started the process. The sun set creating a masterpiece with his unique colors that were never the same even though a human might find them difficult to tell apart with the poor capacity of his eyes.
The minutes seemed to pass by agonizingly slow as your heart could not wait any longer to see him . To say you had missed him was to little to express your yearning to meet him or after that indirect kiss, the burning desire that had started growing second by second of wanting to touch him.
After you had waited patiently time had finally rewarded you with a night sky full of beautiful stars and a chance to finally see him. Wasting no more time you placed your bag on your shoulder as always and approached the wall , placing your palm upon it's surface and once again creating your liquid passage that formed a smile of anticipation on your lips.
Unfortunately though that smile vanished when you looked around but he was no where to be seen.
You walked some steps and took your seat on the ground thinking that he was probably going to run late and that you had no reason to be expecting him to always be there before you just because till this moment had happened to be so. However when you would find him waiting for you would make you rather happy thinking that he wanted to meet you as much as you did as well as the fact that not being in this land alone made you feel less alert and insecure things that without him there you were feeling them rising, as you could not help but observe the death around you and hear the painful screams that would echo around the chilly atmosphere.
"He might had forgotten that this was the third day" You said after some minutes that you had left to pass by then you stood up feeling somehow disappointed that you did not saw him and that you had to wait one more day for that to happen.
Now with a sad expression on your face you touched the wall and went back home leaving Jimin that was waiting for you to leave, observe you from afar with a sad expression as well.
It was not that he didn't want to meet you or that all this past days he had not thought of you most of his time but he could not face you today as he too had come to realize something after that indirect kiss and that was what had made him stay back and rethink his plan of winning his ticket to paradise as he would have had a long time ago if it wasn't for his love and that heart of his that you awoken, making it beat and call for you.
Go back to your coffin you little weakness of mine .Just go back because i won't hesitate to hurt you while i will be undressing her from her white beautiful wings to open this path of mine.
He spoke inwardly to his heart while in his eyes a fearful glow made it's way ,letting the demonic side of him that got created from the blood drops he left to flow and stain his soul and drown his already hurt heart to death.
---To be continued.....