Brian
I'm the luckiest guy alive. I can't believe, I can't believe she decided to give me another try after all I've done, after how much I've hurt her. I would be a fool to mess things up again. I love Paige, I love her so much and I'm hoping with all my heart that nothing goes wrong.
I just finished preparing a meal for us. I smile as I think of how Paige would smile when I tell her I made the meal myself. Today will be the start of something new, today will be the rebirth of our relationship because honestly, when I think of settling down, the image that comes to mind is Paige.
I know I have screwed up alot with other girls but still, Paige is the only one I truly love and I know she loves me too. Those other girls, they don't care about me, they are just seeking pleasure or money from me and I'm aware. Nobody loves me the way Paige does, no one is down for me the way she is, I've never seen someone as tolerating as she is. I have a rare jewel in my hands, I don't want to make the mistake of losing it because of the consequences of my action.I also don't want to hurt her anymore.
Today, when she told me she was with Kyle, I got scared. I got scared and I realized that I didn't want to lose her to him or anyone.
"Brian, are you having a party of some kind, why are you decorating the dining and what are these candles for?" Mum asks as she's about to leave.
I stare at her lost for words. I don't even realize that I'm smiling till she asks, "Why are you smiling so hard? It's about that girl right? What's her name again?
Paige? "
"Yeah mom. I've not been a very good boyfriend lately and I want to make things up to her. I really like her. "
Mum smiles.
"That's so sweet Brian. I wish I could get to meet her again. "
"Well you can, she'll be here soon enough. If you return early, you might get to see her."
"Alright Brian, I'll try to be home before your dad. I really want to get to know my son's happiness better. "
I smile.
"Love you mom," I say hugging her goodbye.
When she leaves, I change my clothes. I am putting on the exact clothes I wore on the day Paige agreed to be mine. I don't think I'll ever forget the smile that painted her face and how her eyes averted shyly away from mine as she agreed to be mine.
As the memory plays in my mind, warmth feels my heart. Today I'm going to remind her of that day and I'm going to ask her to be mine again. I'm going to plead that we forget the past and start over.
"Brian, there's a lady waiting for you in the sitting room, " one of the nannies says as she knocks on my door.
Paige, my heart is filled with warmth again.
"I'll be right there and tell the others we need some privacy, " I say.
I take one glance at the mirror, shuffling my hair. I'm trying to make it look better but I think I just worsened it.
Oh well, I should hurry. I don't want to keep my girlfriend waiting.
As I start walking down the stairs, I wonder why she didn't just come straight to my room. That's what Paige would do, she wouldn't ask people to tell me she was around, she would show up herself.
"Hey Beau, " she says to me when I arrive in the living room.
Just one problem, she's not Paige.
"Daphne? What are you doing here? I thought I mentioned I wasn't interested in having anything with you anymore? "
She really has to leave. This Is my fault, the first day we talked I gave her my address and I told the security guard that if anyone named Daphne visited, he should let her in without questioning. But that was before I came to my senses and cancelled everything with her. I forgot to tell the guards that I changed my mind.
" Yeah you mentioned but I was thinking maybe I could change your mind, " she says and starts moving towards me and I move backwards.
She's barely clothed. My mum would freak out if she saw her plus I don't want to be alone with her.
"Daphne please you have to leave. I don't want anything to do with you anymore. Please just go. My girl friend will soon be here. "
"Hey, relax. I'm not going to tell her anything. You'll just have to text her to wait a bit before coming. You don't even know why I'm here, " she says as she caresses my shoulder.
At this point I should take her hands off but her touch seems nice in a way. Uncomfortable, but nice.
"Daphne, why are you here? Listen I've screwed things up alot with Paige and I just want to make everything right. I just want us to be happy, so please I'm begging you, just go."
"Brian stop, I'm leaving town tomorrow and I'm never returning. I just wanted a piece of you before leaving. "
She presses her body against mine and I'm scared of the way my body responds.
"Good luck with your trip, Daphne. "
I ask her to leave again although a part of me wants her to stay.
"I know you want me too, " she says as she plants a kiss on my lips.
I try resisting the kiss, I start walking backwards till my back hits the wall. She comes forward and kisses me against the wall. I'm about to resist her again but her hand goes below my belt and my sense of reasoning shuts off.
All I can think of is that there's a barely clothed girl alone with me who's practically throwing herself at me and that I'll never get to see her again.
In that moment my body decides to give up resistance, I'll never see her again anyway and I swear it's the last time I'll ever do something like this. This is the last time I'll ever cheat on Paige.
When our clothes start coming off, I know I have to delay Paige.
I start typing a text, I don't reason as I'm typing it. Nothing else matters, I just want my body to be satisfied at the moment.
Me - Baby girl, can you wait a little before coming. I'm a bit busy with mum, I'll text you when we're done. I love you.
Immediately I finish typing it, Daphne's lips comes on mine again and so does her body and my brain shuts at the moment.
After a few minutes, thoughts of Paige start coming to my mind, and guilt clenches my heart. What am I doing? Why didn't I resist this? Did I get a text back from Paige? All of a sudden it's like my brain is functioning again. My body is being satisfied, yet my heart feels heavy.
I try to stop Daphne's rhythm on me.
"Babe what's wrong, " she says, starting to touch me again.
I don't want her to touch me again. I don't want her on my body anymore. I grab my phone to check if I've gotten any response from Paige.
That's when I realize something.
I never sent the text.
God, please no.
"Daphne, you have to leave now. "
I gently push Daphne away from my body and try to dress up before my girlfriend arrives.
Just one problem, it's too late.
Paige is here, in the living room, eyes transfixed on us on the couch. Her eyes are streaming with tears and her hands are clenched over her stomach.
Has she been watching us?
Her eyes meets with mine and tears stream down my eyes too. I try to say something to her but she shakes her head in a way that makes any word from me superfluous.
She gazes directly into my eyes and I see the exact hurt that I've caused her.
Without saying a word, she leaves.
I'll never forget the look in her eyes, I'll never forget the look in her eyes and the way it shattered my insides when I realized I've lost her and I'm never getting her back.
I sit on the floor and let the tears stream down my face. I've lost her. I screwed things up again.
"Oh. I see you're having an emotional moment. I'll be leaving now. Nice body though, " Daphne says as she leaves.
I've let a moment of lust destroy the chance of happiness I could have had for a long time.
At the realization of what I've done, I break down and sob.
"Brian, I came home early so I could meet Paige. Brian, what's wrong? " Mum says as she sees me sobbing on the floor.
"I've lost her mom. I've lost her, " my sobs makes my voice barely audible.
"Hey, what's wrong? " Mum says sitting besides me.
"I screwed up again. Mum, your son is a bad guy. Mum, I'm a very bad guy, " I say, sobbing.
My mum pulls me into her arms and silence engulfs us as everything in me breaks down.