'CHRONIC BACK ACHE'
from the bottom of my spine, it travels slowly upwards.
slithers around my back like a snake, slowly the pain spreads.
don't move, don't move my back.
vertebrae crack.
33 of them.
crack. crack. crack. crack. crack. cracks.
pressure lingers at the bottom. and then it drifts off again--
returns twice as hard, digs through my skin, stabs my shoulder blades,
hold on to the staircase.
bite my lip till it bleeds, till the metal taste spreads on my tongue
and i start to feel dizzy because of the smell.
pressure on the column, aches on the blades, squeezes on my pelvis,
pains, it pains, it pains--
"it's the way you sit, my darling."
"you don't move enough."
"you're stressed, stressed, stressed."
"you're posture isn't correct--"
pressure on the column, aches on the blades, squeezes on my pelvis,
pains, it pains, it pains--
pressure on the column, aches on the scapula, squeezes the life out of me.
i see, i see, i see;
tears, stars, dust, glitter, and my life scattered. all apart.
i have been broken, torn, spattered, i can see the glittering pieces spread across the musty wood. breaks have been cut. blood on the bleeding wind shields.
i lie on the floor, back against the heater. i stare at the ugly green wall. my head aches, my back's killing me, my brain wants to give in.
i'm swallowing tears; or are tears swallowing me?
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open to interpret, but it's basically about my back aches (have them since summer 2017) and how they've been affecting my life a lot actually.