Chapter 14
Wakas Pov
I was half laid on center bed on one side of my darling wife sleeping and on other side of my baby boy sleeping after telling them story they sleep saroo has back pain so she didn't sleep last night so as me and she sudden having carve of listening some fairytale story shams all yelled so I making both them sleep she sleeping holding my right hand and shams lay on my left leg with open mouth make me smile I crease his head place kissed on her head closed my eyes before I dozed off my mobile vibert I carefully took my phone from side as I saw it's Bhabhi
Why bhabhi call me
Actually zaid give her no as she need anything if zaid not there so she can ask me I carefully down bed laying shams on bed and pull my hand back carefully
I walked balcony
"Asalam Alikum"I said but return I heard her sobbed
"Bhai.m.....bhai.."she sobbed with difficulty she took my name
"Bhabhi why are you crying what happened"I asked worriedly
"Bhai...zaid ....zaid... faint.. please.. come I'm in Jesus hospital...Bhai.. please...come"
"What!!!..I'm coming stop crying bhabhi "I said with rush
Zaid!! Again panicked attract I took wallet car keys when Sahar wakeup
Shiiit
I can't tell her in this state
"Where are you going baby "she said rub her eyes I can't tell her she will be panicked I smile pilaster going toward her sat on knee
"Sweetheart I have to go office for some urgent work I'll be back soon till you rest the food in fridge eat if u hungry"I said she smile nodded I kissed her forehead and left
I hope you fine zaid
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Third person Pov
She take him hospital with the help of driver he still unconscious she was waiting outside receipt ayatul kursi
When wakas come to her
"Bhai Bhai..look zaid"haya crying badly wakas put hand on her head she sobbed badly
"Bhabhi clam down nothing happen to him INSHALLAH first take water " he said give her water she didn't sip it little he sat beside her
"Bhai..I can't live without him Bhai I will die" she said again sobbed
"Shhusss nothing happen ALLAH protect him behna just stop crying mere behn "he said she crying more put her head on his shoulder as she got her brother he patted her head as a Bhai
when doctor come out from room
"Doctor how's my brother"wakas said he smile
"Don't worry he is fine now "
"ALHAMDULILLAH"both said
"But what Happened him sudden"haya asked
"He had panicked attacked which shoot his BP and he fell in unconscious"doctor said make them eyes wide
"Can we see him"haya asked
"Not now I give him injection he will wake up in hour relax "he said haya tears still didn't stop
"I will recommend this case to our other doctor doc Geeta she will tell u in detail don't worry he will fine"doctor said and left
"Bhai I want to pray shukarn-e-nafi.."haya said he nodded and show her prayer room
She perform her shukarn-e-nafil salat and Dua
"Allah SWT shukre rub up izzat for save him I don't want anything then him just granted him healthy and happy life I don't know what happened to him give.me strength to fight with it" she completed it went out
"Choty has something "wakas said lovingly giving her a sandwich and coffee but she smiles weekly on. His brotherhood love but shook it negative
"No Bhai first zaid wake up then I will have something" haya said stubbornly and went to his room he lying peacefully after storm her world she sat near him held his hand
"You are very bad very very bad I will not talk to you you know how much you made your rapunzel cry "she complained him with sobbed
"Zaidi your haya waiting for you wake up na I can't live without you please your haya will diy " she cried badly put her head on his arm when door knocked she straight herself
"Jee come in"she said wiped her tears wakas came
"Choty actually doc call you want to discuss about him"she nodded and left
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"Hello mrs zaid have a seat" doc said she went and sat but her eyes freeze on name plate "doc Geeta psychiatrist" she observe haya and smile
"Mrs zaid relax your husband not having any mental problem"she said haya look her
"Then why doc recommend you?? please tell me my zaid is fine na " she said worriedly
"Hey..relax beta okay first take water"she give her water as she started crying
"First tell me your name"doc asked haya who sip water little then put glass on table nervously worriedly
"Haya..zaid.. Ahmed''she said doc smile and walked towards her sat beside her make her relax
"So haya Firstly put this in your mind psychiatrist doctors are not for mental patient we use to treat those persons who somewhere stressed or bothering some anxiety or having some daily life problems so don't think your husband having mental problem relax" she explained politely haya relaxed now nodded
"I call you here buc no one know husband better than his wife I want you comfortable so we can work on his panicked attacked"she nodded again
"So tell me before ever he having these attack ??"she asked haya shook her head in no "not front of me at least"
"when you guys married and what kind of marriage it is umm love or arrange" she asked taking pad and pen to noted
"10 months almost Umm actually it's arranged marriage and all sudden type we are cousins but we both strangers for each other...." Haya told her whole story of marriage
"Okay filmy I must say " she chulked haya smile too
"So after that how's zaid I'm mean behavior don't mind but I need to know it buc of observe all side of his" she said he nodded and continue
"Actually start is awkward for us but my in laws always make me feel comfortable but in start I was confused with him.." she said doctor get attent
"Confused??"
"Yeah at start he was caring for me And all sudden he became strange I mean he act like I'm not exist ignore me when I try to talk to him he avoid me make him busy in work"haya told her and remind that time her eyes filled with tears
"Humm how much time does he act like this??" she asked
"3 months he didn't look at me, not say and also not harsh words but he didn't even talk with me then..."she said paused
"Hey don't worry feel free to tell me your all secrets are safe"
"Then he wants us to shift to London , which unexpectedly he loves his family most and Mee too no one wants this except him. the pain I saw in his eyes but he want to come here at any cost when I try he yelled at me first time "haya told her she carefully little and noted
"Then we moved and all sudden he changed "
"Changed ??"
"Yeah he care for me Frank with me ask me be friend closed to me sudden we become so closed to each other" she said and smile doctor smile too
"Umm can you tell me what type of closed "she asked hastily which make lil haya uncomfortable
"Umm actually like teenager couple who try to understand each other romantic caring" she said
"Umm sorry haya don't mind did you guys have been physical relationship " she asked make her eyes wide the lower her head and shook negative
"Okay..and didn't you ask him ever why??" she said haya playing with finger it's really personal thing but there is nothing hide from doctor
"Actually i...did"
Flashbacks
They were lay on bed she was in his arms she rested her head on his chest he was put his chin on her head enjoying movie together but haya was in her world she was playing with his shirt button with deep thoughts he stocking her right cheek
"Haya.."he called her softly
"Hmm"
"What's wrong"he asked look down towards her she looked him then divert her graze
"No.. nothing"she said nervously he sighed
"Stop lie haya I know there is something bothering you tell me" he said in quite strict tone she look bhi again lowered her eyes she don't know how to say it for her it's embracing
He sighed pull her straight and cup her face
"Hey rapunzel you can share with me anything there is no place embracing or hesitation you can share with me silly embraced thing without bother it's right ALLAH give you I'm not only your husband but your friend right ??"he explained her softly she looked him with watery eyes then again lowered her eyes the tears dropped down he hold her hands
"Actually...I want...to..ask...you something..."she said nervously he nodded wait for her and wiped her tears
"Are yo..u still think I'm....not... comfortable.....with...you"she said he confused on her question
"No but why you ask sudden" he asked politely not make her more nervous
"Then why....I mean ...why...you.. don't...you know "she stuttering badly he don't understand what she want to say
"Haya what you saying I don't understand"he said she playing with her fingers badly don't know how to say she take deep breath and shut her eyes
"Then why don't you calm me as your"she said in one breath with close eyes he looked shocked
"What" his reaction in shocked she get more embraced to ask something like this but it's disturbing her like they both look comfortable he tease her being naughty with her but never asked her to be his why
He smile and hold her arm and pull her embrace she put her head on his chest and silently cry he crease her cheeks wiped her tears
"Haya.." he called her but she grip him not want to Face him
"There is no need to embrace as I said it's your right there is no shame to share these type stuff with your husband " he console her softly with rub her back he look him up he smile and wiped her tears she sat straight wiped her nose which actually red
"Then why you don't want me did I done something bad did you irritated with me or think I'm not ready "she said in one go he stare her amazed what she thinking before he answered she cut him
"If this is what you think I swear zaid I'm ready I never stop you I want to be good wife zaid I promise I will never irritate you I never empty your charging not disturb you in work but please don't be.."she saying in one breath when he put his finger on her lips to stop her
"Shusss ALLAH !! Haya where you get all this'' he said than sign
"Relax and come here first "he said open his arms he looked him innocently then hopped in his arms he hug her waist she hide her face in his neck
"Mine innocent begum"he said kissed her head she smuggling more
"Haya there is nothing the way you think "he said softly
"And about why I don't claim you mine so I don't need buc you already mine he mine rapunzel"he said husky and kissed her side neck she pull herself then looked him confusing
"Haya I know we comfortable with each other I know you never stop me or complained me but haya I want we both understand each other fully where I trust you with whole heart where you trust me fully there was no place of misunderstanding where I fall in love you madly as well you I want you being crazy childish silly front of me where I want to be open front of you I'm not saying I didn't trust you I trust you haya but I face many things haya I face worst past which I want share I want share everything with you I want you listen me haya after that we can move the beautiful phase of relationship and only I knew how badly I want you " he said she listen him politely
"Haya I saw people who love each other but not respect not understand each other and I don't want this with us I want give you right to chose not because you haven't choice this is your right haya I Never force you anything I want to be happy with you laugh with u motivated you scrolled you when you wrong play with your silly games not just Being physical and then get frustrated each other you are so innocent you don't know how much people suffer because of this " he explained her so calmly but his voice full of pain
"I'm sorry zaidi" she said with tears her eyes he smile on her called him zaidi for first time he pull her closer tuck her hair wiped her tears
"I'm really sorry I think so wrong you were just.."she saying when put his finger on her lips
"Shhss Mrs Khan take a deep breath its okay but I'm happy you shared " he said she again put her head on his heart
"Did I hurt you??"she asked looked up him he smile shook his head
"Nah you heal my hurts"he said lovingly she smile like a child
"Really??"she asked childishly he chuckled kissed her nose make her giggle
"Really!!"he said pulling her closer in arms
After silently few minutes he spoke
"Btw where you get these all thinks I know you haven't that much brain"he said teasingly she hit his chest playfully
"Zaidi.." she cried his name again make his heart flying he pull her make her eyes big
"What you said call me again" he said she nervously smile playing with his button
"Zaid..zaidi" she said with blush he smile and kissed her cheeks
"It sound great I want to listen more from u " he said making her shy lowered her eyes
"Haan tu i was asking where you get " he again come to topic
"Umm woo women's magazine"she said speechless he laughed pulling her he make them lay and covered with blanket hug her tightly as well she closed their eyes
" that day isn't really far I can't wait more to love you wait that day I swear after that I will not let go easily"he whispered in her ear she shivered with his husky voice then duck his teeth on earlobe make her groan then smooch it
"I'm waiting.."she whispered slowly but he heard smile widely kissed her head
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"Umm worst past people...."doctor analysis her words
"Hmmm something weird confusing you find did he shared with you his past " doctor asked haya shook her head
"Umm so you never being closed again"
"Expect today"haya reply nervously
"Umm actually today we were so closed that way... before anything happen he having attack"she said nervously then last tears welled in her eyes
"What actually he saying doing in attack" she asked
"He yelled stop hating me stop it leave me then faint " she said doctor patted her shoulder then walked back to her seat
"Doctor zaid is okay?? He is fine na?? nothing serious right"haya bombed questions
"Relax haya beta nothing worry what I think zaid suffer some past memories which bother him to being start his marriage life he having some pain in past which didn't overcome from it that's the reason he have this panicked attacked "
"Then do something na please " she said worriedly
"I'm not going treat him but you will"
"I..what do you mean???"
"Look haya which you can heal no one can do this so you should heal him help him care him not force him but made him trust you enough encourage him that he will open front of you and other thing leave on me " she said haya nodded she prescribed him few medicine diet
"All the best dear"doc said haya smile
"JAZAKALLAH khair..I mean thank u " she said and left her cabin
Zaid I promise your haya pull you back from darkness
INSHALLAH
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She went to back when wakas stood on corridor with smile she walked him
"Behna zaid wake up go meet him he asking you"as he said her lips whispered ALHAMDULILLAH with smile and teary eyes she about to run when stop
"Bhai come na Meet him "she said she
He smile patted her head
"I already meet him and doctor also check him he's fine you go"he said place his hand on her head as a brother she smile and almost run
Ziad POV
With a heavy head I open my eyes and don't know what happened where I'm? what place ?? The view clear I saw Wakas with smile uffffffffffff my head ALLAH
"Ahh my head" I holding my head
"Hey you okay?? Doctor"waqas said then yell for doctor I sat on bed he helped me he give me water
The doctor come check me asked me how I'm feeling I told them my head really paining he give me injection
"Doctor when we can take him home"Wakas asked but my eyes finding my life my haya
"Tomorrow just today let him here for observation"he said and after guide about my health to wakas went out
Where is haya ??
Before I asked wakas hug me tightly bone crush hug I patted his back with small smile
"Moron you scared shit out of me"he said and punch me on back still hugging me his voice crank
"Ouch"I said he back off but his eyes little wet I look him idiot
"You are crying?"I tease him he quickly wiped it and glared me
"No way why should I cry for the rascal " he said manly manner let my laugh out god mad man
"Aww buc you are choto cry baby "I make fun to light up atmosphere he glared me and punch my arm
"Idiot..it hurt"I said he smile then sat on chair let his laugh out with tears
He is bestest friend anyone can have
"Zaid haya have right to know your past please it's high time "sudden he said I look him who serious I lower my head
"How is she??"I asked lower voice
"Very bad condition she cried a lot didn't have anything just cry she's really innocent you are very lucky zaid " he said
"I want to see haya bring him here please"I said wakas smiled nodded patted my back he left
I was restless I want to see my haya
She must be cry so much ALLAH
Why why I can't control my panicked attracted why this horrible past why because of me haya my haya have to survive she going through she deserves all happiness this is the reason I never want to close her because I only give her pain nothing else
Yes I'm suffering from these panicked attracts mom dad think I'm recovered after treatment but I hide from them only Wakas know this because whenever I have panicked attracted he was with me always sahar also didn't know this!! Im taking pills also for this but from two days I didn't take them I forget it haya also didn't know this I kept them in office but the result front of me I was thinking I can leave it now but no
Today we were so close she was happy I know but is she deserves me?? she deserves a broken soul?? She deserves a man who can't give her happiness but pain ??
God this I never want. I never want to see her pain, who I love the most, who my life is, my jaan, a man should protect his wife and what im...just a burden to a mental patient... ALLAH I should protect her but I'm scared one day because of me she will face to monster I will hurt her
Wakas is right she have to know this it's her right but
But what if she hate me what if she left me alone again
Noooo nooo I can't let her go I can't alone again she have to with me
Ahhh my head
You are selfish zaid !!!
You are mean only because you need her, you keep her in pain ......
Noo..but I can't live without her !!
I..
.you what ????
You are the most mean person...
No nooo ....
I'm not mean I just love her, damn it I love her alot !!
Hhahahh zaid is a mean selfish hahahahaha
Ahhhhhh stop it no I'm not
Haya will hate you yes you will be only deserve hate
You only give everyone pain nothing else
Ahhhhhhhhh nooo noo
"Zaaidd" i heard haya scream