Make a wish
My mother would say
On my very special
13th birthday
I would blow them out
13 plus one
Making my wish
Leaving the damage to be done
Wishes don't come true
Not from the time or candles on the cake
Because my simple wish
Is that I would be no longer awake
That wish wouldn't come true
All by itself
I have to do something to cause it
I grab the pills on the shelf
I press down the cover
And pour them one by one
Fucking society
I cannot believe you have won
If only finding a boyfriend was this easy I thought
As I downed the pills fast and dry
But you cannot make a boy fall for you
But you can make yourself die