Later after her death, I found her suicide voice note, which she told me not to open untill she was gone.
G O N E
F O R E V E R
N E V E R R E T U R N I N G
And thats how she was so I decided it was time to listen to it.
Hearing her voice again made me almost spill my guts. In the voice note, she talked about why she left and how people would finally love her and how she wanted all the pain to go away, how people that treated her like shit would be not giving a single fuck about her even after her death. The truth was, many people attended her funeral and they all cried, but i knew that they weren't crying about her but how miserable and guilty they were feeling, thing I understand cause they killed her.
She also talked about some things she left unsaid to their parents, classmates, "friends" and me. She said I was the only thing she would miss from earth, apart from music and Rich, her guinea pig. That last thing made me cry harder than I thought I could