Sad Chapter 😭😫
*Louis POV*
"You're what?" Mark says with wide eyes
"I'm gay Mark" I say beginning to feel tears drip down my cheeks
"Oh Louis" Mark says suddenly pulling me into a hug
I'm surprised but I hug back just wanting to be comforted at the moment
"What does that mean?" Daisy asks me
"Well it means I like boys" I say smiling at her innocent little face
"But you're a boy?" Phoebe says confusion evident in her voice
"Ya well some boys like boys and I'm one of them" I say sadly
"Oh okay that's fine I still love you LouLou" Daisy says smiling
"I love you too Lou" Phoebe echos
"I love you both so so much" I say
"You're g-gay?" Fizzy asks
"Yeah" I say looking at the floor
"When did you know find out? Fizzy asks
"Today actually I just sorta realized it" I answer
"Well that's fine we still love him right Fizzy?" Lottie says smiling at me
"Ya of course" Fizzy says smiling up at me
"I'm kinda tired so I'm gonna go to sleep okay?" I say feeling exhaustion wash over me
"Alright sleep well Louis" Mark says
I walk up the stairs and go into my room. I feel as if a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I crawl into bed and drift off to sleep
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I drive to school again but Mark doesn't seem to mind me using the car. Once I arrive at school Niall's waiting for me at the entrance.
"Hey Louis" Niall says waving at me
"Hi?" I say
"Why aren't you with Liam like you usually are" I say
"Well we're still friends and I wanna hang out with you today" Niall says smiling at me
"Well okay" I say and walk inside the school with Niall following me to my locker
"So anything new with you?" Niall asks trying to make conversation
"Well.." I hesitate. Can I tell Niall? I mean we've been friends since 2nd grade
"Um..okay well" I begin taking a deep breath
"I'm gay Niall" I say looking down
"What you're g-" Niall yells but I quickly hush him
"Any louder Niall!?" I say rolling my eyes at him
"Sorry it's just I didn't expect that" Niall says apologetically
"Neither did I" I say looking away
"Well I'm happy you trust me enough to tell me" Niall says giving me his best smile
"You better not tell anyone" I say warning him
"Never" he says smiling
The bell rings telling everyone to go to class. I turn around and see Zayn staring at me with wide eyes
Omg had he heard what I told Niall?!
He just gives me a cold smile and walks away
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I walk into class my legs shaking. What if Zayn heard what I said?! He would know I'm gay and tell everyone!! He would tell Harry!!
I sit down next to Harry and he smiles at me I ignore him and get out my notebook
He frowns and says "Are you okay Lou?"
"I'm Fine" I say trying to keep my voice from shaking
"Louis are you sure you seem..off" Harry says concerned
"I'm fine Harry really" I say giving him a sad smile
"Lo-" he starts but is interrupted by the teacher beginning the lesson
Harry tries to talk to me during the class but I just pretend I don't hear him.
Why am I doing this to Harry? It's not his fault I'm an idiot and Zayn heard that im gay. It wouldn't matter anymore anyway. He would find out I was gay and then pretend like I didn't exist
I walked out of class as soon as the bell rang. I was slammed into a locker and my head hurt so bad
"You're a fag Louis?!" Zayn spat in my face
"What?! No no i-" I begin to say seeing people begin to whisper
"Don't fucking lie to me!! I heard you talking to you're little blonde friend. It would be a shame if he suddenly got hurt wouldn't it?" Zayn says smiling coldly at me
"Stay the fuck away from him Zayn!!" I shout in his face surprised by my sudden courage
Apparently so is Zayn because he looks at me in shock but regains his composure
"And who the fuck do you think you are telling me who I can and can't hit?!" Zayn yells at me
"I-I" I begin
"No shut the fuck up Louis!!" Zayn yells at me
"Why don't you tell the whole school who you are!! What you are!! Huh?" Zayn smirks at me
"Zayn please" I beg
"Tell them Louis!! What are you!! Or else you're friend gets hurt!!" Zayn snarls at me
I feel tears begin to form in my eyes my throat feels dry
"I'm gay" I squeak out
"What did you say Louis?! Louder so they can hear it!!" Zayn yells
A crowd has gathered around us now
"I'm gay!!" I yell out chocking back tears
"Good boy" Zayn snarls at me
He releases me and walks away
Feeling all my emotions begin to take over my body. I run to the bathroom and barley make it before my body shuts down and I fall and began to cry. I begin to think about my mother's passing and about how Mark hit Fizzy about how Zayn bullies me and all the things that are wrong with my life.
I curl up into a ball and cry my heart out. I begin to shake uncontrollably and gasp for air.
No one cares about you Louis
I hear a voice say in my head
No one cares
I believe the voice so easily and begin to cry harder.
No one cares about me the only person who cared is gone now
I'm all alone in this world and theirs nothing I can do about it
My cries turn to whimpers and Im barley able to say
"No one cares about me...No one"
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Omg why why why?? I'm sad for 2 reasons 1. This chapter is so sad it pained me to right it and put Louis through this pain. And 2. Harry's 24 now omg 24!! That's not old it's just he's growing up to fast!!😭😭
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