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Chapter 5
Amber’s Pov
Backed into the corner, wedged in between the TV and the wall I couldn’t help the silent tears falling down my face as much as I tried they just kept coming and coming, I’d learnt not to scream or cry for help it made things worse.
Slumped down my body trembled with fear, god this was it he has going to kill me, me and the baby oh god oh god, please let it be quick I begged god over and over again as my entire body shook with pain and fear
"move your fucking hands you fucking whore" he bent down in between blows and yelled into face making my ears ring out as he screamed as if he had a megaphone, his voice still echoing in my head long after he’d stopped screaming.
I couldn’t help it, it was instinct my hands were shielding my tiny bulging stomach, I needed to protect it. I trembled under him my entire body shaking, battered and bruised
“If you won’t get rid of the little fucker I’ll do it myself. I don't want the little bastard" he snarled grabbing my hands and kicking me repeatedly in the stomach. Screams of pain ripped from my throat, I doubled over in agony. I felt a warm feeling between my legs, looking down still screaming I saw blood seeping from my jeans, he didn’t stop he kept kicking and reigning blows on my head.
Everything went calm, the light turned into blackness, I felt like I was floating only to come crashing back down to someone shaking me and yelling my name
Slowly opening my eyes I realised the pain had gone I was numb, everything was better, no pain, no screaming, no more hell. I was dying, I wasn’t stupid I knew what was happening, I prayed for it, for it to end one way or another at least this way I would be pain free forever. Closing my eyes ready for the inevitable I drifted away to darkness
I shot bolt right up in bed, I couldn’t breath. Holy shit I couldn’t breathe. My chest felt like I had a tonne of bricks on it, my head bounding as I panicked for a breath I couldn’t catch. My entire body was drenched in sweat as I was shaking from head to toe.
"Amber calm down" a voice came behind me wrapping me up into a hug. Still gasping for breath I tried to speak but nothing came out, only tears fell down my face, drenching the shoulder I was crying onto.
"Shhhh its ok angel I’m here, I’m here" he soothed rocking me back and forth
"Luc" I gasped barely above a whisper not even knowing if my voice would actually work
"Luc...he....baby....Luc" I made no sense but he knew he just gripped me tighter and tighter like he would never let me go
"It’s ok angel he’s gone, he can’t hurt you again, I’m here Amber" he whispered in my ear calming me down as my breathing started to slow.
Concentrating I matched my breathing to his trying to calm myself, it was just a dream, he wouldn’t find me, he couldn’t find me, he was gone. Oh please god don’t let him come back I don’t know how I could cope if I ever even heard he’d be released. After a few moments my breathing calmed so I was able to speak coherently in a sense
"Luc" I sobbed, tears streaming like rivers, I was still shaking uncontrollably, noticing he pulled away looking straight into my eyes. Bringing his hands up he cupped my face and wiped my tears away.
I felt safe with Luc he was the only reason I was still alive, I owed him so much but I’d not dreamt about him for months my only guess was our fight had brought the past up fresh in my memory.
"I’m so sorry Amber, I’ll never shout at you again" he soothed, as if he read my mind. I cuddled up into him resting my head on his chest as he stroked my hair. Leaning over he softly kissed my forehead.
"I’ll never hurt you Amber, that bastard will never come near you again. I’ll die before I ever let anyone hurt you again" he snarled quietly as he continued to stroke my hair making me closing my eyes as flashes of red shot into my mind, my hand automatically moving over my empty stomach. Fresh tears streamed as sobs engulfed my body. My baby, my poor defenceless little baby, I couldn’t protect it, I’d never forgiven myself, and I never would.
Looking down he sighed and placed his hand over mine rubbing my belly
"I know Amber but we’ve got you, that’s the main thing" he sighed continuing to rub small circles over my flat stomach and hands
Nodding I looked up to face him, yet again more tears escaped my eyes when I saw his face.
He was a shade of white I’d never seen, his eyes were red and puffy like he’d been crying and he had the saddest look on his face I’d ever seen. I couldn’t help what I did next, it was if my head was on auto pilot as I lifted my head up and pressed my lips onto his,
"Thank you" I whispered. I pulled away looking at his now shocked gaze.
"What for" he asked holding me tight and looking straight at me still wide eyed
"You know what for" I replied honestly and softly, looking and me he just nodded and kissed my head again.
"Anytime sweetie" he replied sighing, a single tear falling from his beautiful blue eyes as if he was reliving that night two years ago.
I shuddered not wanting to think what would have happened if Luc and Jen hadn’t shown up when they did. It sent a cold shiver down my spine just thinking of it. Looking up, my eyes met his. I melted there and then I realised he was always around when I needed him, he had been for years. I just had never seen what he meant to me.
Blinking I leaned forwards waiting for him to do the same while thoughts swam round my head, he’s your friend Amber, your too much hassle amber, you’ve got too much baggage Amber and lastly the one that tore me into pieces, he only sees you as a friend Amber.
Suddenly I snapped out of my daydreams, his lip crashed to mine meshing together like that’s where they were meant to be and always had been. His hands trailed from my stomach to my waist as he continued to passionately kiss me with such intensity it took me aback.
I pulled away and looked at him, his eyes were still puffy and red but they were dancing with happiness and joy
"Amber I....I....." he started before I cut him off pushing him down and devouring him deeply with a passion I never knew I had or felt before.
His lips fit mine as if we were made from each other, he traced his tongue over my bottom lip, slightly nibbling for entrance, I groaned as I opened and let him in, his taste exploded in my mouth as we gently massaged each other’s tongues. My hands moved up his back until I was running it through his chestnut brown hair.
I felt his hand move up my top onto my bare back, I tingled with anticipation; shivers went through me to my core that was throbbing right now wanting him so badly. He pulled away and looked at me with a pained expression in his face
"Amber we can’t" he sighed looking sick as he was saying it, I knew he was lying he was a terrible liar and I could always tell him a mile off
"I can’t lose you. I just can’t lose you Amber" he said almost whimpering as his eyes glazed over with fresh tears as he battled with his self.
"It would change everything" he said sadly
Sighing I nodded. I knew he was right, I couldn’t loose him either. Ignoring my burning need for him I grabbed him and buried my head into his chest breathing in his scent. I just couldn’t lose him; I knew he’d never see me as more than a friend, a best friend and a friend nether the less. If that’s what he wanted that’s what we'd do. I took a deep breath inhaling deeply into his chest trying to ignore my body telling me it wanted him. I closed my eyes and drifted back to sleep in his tight embrace. Just as I was nodding off I felt his lips touch my head yet again as he whispered
"I’m sorry angel, I love you so much Amber"
Darkness engulfed me as I fell asleep thinking I was hearing things.......
I woke startled to the sound of the guys coming in from what I can only guess was a very messy night out. I chuckled to myself at the state of the girl I called my friend. She could hardly stand; Logan had one arm steading her waist and the other on her arms.
Kicking her shoes to the other side of the room she plopped on the edge of the bed and sighed loudly
“Where the fuck am I supposed to sleep now" she moaned looking at a sleeping Luc curled up beside me. Smirking to myself I pretended to be still asleep the last thing I needed was Jen on a drunken rant.
"Come on Jen" Logan sighed dragging her from the edge of the bed; he was used to dealing with her temper that came out when she’d had a few to drink. I opened my eyes slightly and peered through the little gap holding my chuckles in at the state she was in. He led her over to Luc’s bed just in time for her to pass out from what I imagine to be from the smell a good few vodkas.
"Charming, love you too Jen" Logan muttered to himself as he climbed into his bed, I imagine him rolling his eyes and scoffing as he said it.
"And don’t think I don’t know when someone’s pretending to be sleeping.......AMBER" he said chuckling and pointing straight at me
I didn’t move I just laid there still pretending, not very well I might add. My entire body was shaking with silent laughter. I clamped my hand over my mouth trying to stop any sound from escaping and giving me away. I just hoped the moonlight wasn’t lighting the room up too much so he couldn't see my body shaking.
After about ten minutes I’d calmed myself down and Logan started to snore. Great another snorer I thought to myself.
Swinging my legs out of bed I pulled back the covers trying not to wake Lucas up. I slithered under his arm that was draped over my stomach like the awesome stealthy person I was and quickly pulled the covers back over him. He must have fallen to sleep with me in his arms; he was still fully clothed so he must have just dozed off after I did.
I looked down and saw I was still in the t shirt Luc had dressed me in when I passed out. Smiling I looked over at him, he really was the best friend I could ask for he was always there for me and he’d given up a night out on the pull just to look after me. Then I go and spoil it by kissing him. Stupid Amber I angrily told myself. Not that it wasn’t good, damn that was the best kiss I’d ever had.
Sighing and still looking at him curled up on the bed I mentally slapped myself. Nothing like that can ever happen again, no matter how much I wanted it too. And man did I. I couldn’t believe I’d only just realised I liked him, sure he’d always been there and I knew I loved him, he was my best friends for petes sake but I never even thought about seeing him as anything more. I honestly couldn’t ever imagine my life without him in it. Plus I knew Luc and he liked his girls too much and if anything happened between us what if he just discarded me like he did the others, I couldn’t handle it. I just couldn’t loose him. I needed him in my life. No matter what form he took even if it meant I pushed all these new feelings away.
I found myself just stood in the bathroom door staring at him wishfully. Snapping out of the trance like state I was in I shook my head before turning round and starting to shut the door
"Don’t you know it’s rude to stare" Lucas' husky voice whispered through the room
I shot round to see him half sat up with his head resting on his hands yawning but with a big smirk on his face
"I....I....I wasn’t" I protested, glad of the darkness so he couldn’t see my scarlet cheeks.
"Ha-ha" he quietly chuckled to himself
"Just hurry up I’m freezing my balls off here Ambs" he called as I shut the door mortified he just caught me staring like a love struck teenager .Oh god, my hands covered my face as a sat on the toilet ready to die from embarrassment. What was happening to me lusting after Luc like that? I’d never acted like this ever, yeah I knew I was messed up but still.
Climbing back into bed silently I pulled the covers up and hoped Luc had dropped to sleep. No such luck as I felt his arms snake round my waist and pull me closer to him. He rested his chin on my shoulder as his warm breath sent shivers down my spine giving me goose bumps
"How you feeling Ambs" he whispered into my ears making me quiver
"Mmmmm I’m ok" I replied hoping he'd believe me and go to sleep. I really couldn't take any more of this feeling I was getting right now. The burning in my core for him was more than I’d ever felt ever. It was so powerful it took me all my will power to stop from jumping him there and then so I squeezed my eyes shut and shuddered at the thought of the dirty things I was thinking about doing to my friend.
Sighing his grip around me waist tightened as his hand touched my stomach
"I won’t ever let anything happen to you, you know that don’t you Amber" he said anger filling his whispered voice
Nodding I swivelled round so we were face to face and I was looking into his blue eyes. I could feel myself starting to well up; quickly stopping myself from bursting into sobs I pecked him lightly on his cheek.
"I know Luc" I smiled looking at him and quickly snuggling into his chest.
"Go to sleep" I yawned
"We’ll talk in the morning"
Drifting off in Luc's arms he kissed my head and repeated what he’d just said but so quietly I barely heard him
"I’ll never let anything hurt you Amber, you’r mine forever and day"
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