For what seemed like forever, me and shawn just rocking back and fourth but he finally speaks up.
I don't disagree with what you said.
I look up to him waiting for him to say something else but he doesn't so I do.
Did you know that it was ian?
No that was all new to me, the crazy part was that after me and her did break up he came over to help me , never did mention there fucking relationship.
He let's go of me and put his head in his hands.
I just don't understand why that when everything becomes normal again someone burst in and ruins it all.
I stop to think before I could even say more. Could shawn be talking about me. Could I be the cause of bringing up the past and letting it enter his future. Maybe I should have left all my questions to myself, maybe never have liked this boy my teacher. What was I thinking.
I stand up from the bed and walk over to the door.
Y/n where are you going.
I stop in my place and looked at Shawn
Shawn do you ever think that I could be the reason everything seems to be crumbling down.
Y/n that just sounds crazy.
He gets up from the bed and walks over to where I'm standing. He grabs me by my waist and lifts my head with his pointer finger.
I know that for a fact your not the one making everything crumble. You have made it better. Its all my fault for not facing my past when I was supposed to.
I give Shawn a hug which seemed to be a shock to him because he didn't hug back for while but eventually did.
Y/n I know this is so off topic but what about the muffins.
A pull from shawn and laugh because he always seems to lighten up the mood.
I got them once you went up stairs but they were burnt.
he smiles and pulls me closer to him.
Shawn kiss me
He grabs my face and kisses me everywhere on my face other than my lips
Shawn!!
Fine fine, your just so cute
He kisses me softly and everything around me seems to be moving in slow motion.
I love the feeling I get when I kiss you y/n.
Same mr. Mendes
Don't call me that little girl.
How rude I'm not little
Yes you are, your a little girl and keep it between me and you I find you really attractive
Well mr.mendes I find that a bit illegal
shawn starts kissing me
And by time were done we found our selves back on the bed cuddling.
I see that he is sleeping and he looked so cute.
I felt bad for moving but I really needed to take a shower. When I finally got out of Shawn's grip I went to his closet and grabbed a towel and also a flannel.
I started the shower and got it to the right temperature. It felt nice once I stepped in.
For me the shower was always the best place to think.
When I was done I dryed off and had my clothes on I walk down to the living room because I heard the TV on and I know for a fact shawn paused the movie
When I turn the corner I look into the living room and I dont see anyone there so I just walk over and turn it off. before I turn around I feel two big arms wrap around me
Maybe we could finish what we started down here up stairs
I was relieved once I knew it was shawn.
You scared the hell out of me
Sorry babe, so what do you say we finished what we started
And that was
Shawn pushed me back onto the couch and started to kiss down my neck.
Shawn I don't know
It'll be fine trust me
Shawn just stop please, remember you said when I'm ready
He gets off of me and backs up with a disappointed facial expression
I sit up and fix myself.
I think you it would be best if you went home.
I look up at him but he isnt looking back. I storm off and walk to grab my coat and shoes.
I don't say anything and just walk out of the house and go home.
I slam my front door and go straight to my room. I don't know why he got so mad he's the one who said we should wait and I fully agree. I walk to my window because its my thinking spot. I grab my notebook and just draw because it was sorta a stress reliever. I look up to see that it has started snowing again and then I see him. He was sitting on the edge of his bed with his head in his hands. This boy is so complicated its hard to know what to do. I walk over to grab my phone and go to Shawn's contact and I decided to send him a message.
y/n: i don't sleep at nights. Minutes with you are much more precious than hours of dreams.
I hit send and wait for him to pick up his phone. When he does I walk over to turn off my light and go lay in my bed. I sneak back over to see if he was still looking at his phone and he was but then he turned over to look into my room and I ducked down really fast.
I crawl back to my bed to see if he responded but didn't and so I just shut it off and tried to go to bed.
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It has been over 2 hours and I still can't go to sleep so I get out of bed to get a glass of milk. I figured since it was snowing really bad and that shawn said early, we won't have school so I sit on the couch and watch Netflix. I get the usual text saying there was no school, great but then I think about all the work were going to have to make up and that just makes me so stressed out.
After an hour of stranger things I was getting a bit tired so I got to put my glass in the sink and go to my room with almost tripping over the dog and then tripping over multiple stairs. When I get to my room I see a light coming from across the street and I see shawn sitting on his bed probably watching tv like I was before he looked sad and depressed. I sit on the window seat again and look at the round and see all the snow. It looked really pretty out the clouds were moving so some starts would appear and they shined beautifuly on the snow to were it would shimmer. my phone goes off so I look up to see who it could be and I see it says shawn. I got to read the text and it says
Shawn: your eyes shimmer as bright as the snow And your heart shines as bright as the stars
I look up into Shawn's room and see him standing at his window. I turn off my phone and he puts his down. We both look at each other from afar and it felt like even though he was only a house away, he was miles away.
He smiles and then shuts his curtains and I do the same. I got to lay in bed and think about everything. From almost the fun we hand, to the drama and just how complicated he could be but after everything,
I was ready for the challenge
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