~i never witnessed my dreams~
two
"i want to die."
jae simply said, a single tear rolling down her cheek.
"well you shouldn't have to feel that way. you can talk to me jae, i'm here for you." jungkook reassured her.
"vent to me sweetie." he told her.
she took a deep breath before opening up.
"i feel like i'm not good enough for anyone. i have friends, but i feel like i can't open up to them about this stuff because i don't want to disappoint them, or make them hate me. sometimes i feel left out, even when i'm involved. i don't know why i feel sad all the time but it's effecting my social life and my school life and i'd rather just die. i already disappointed my parents. my older brother seems to be the only person who cares for me. and i'm in my last year of school, meaning i have big exams coming up, which pretty much determine my future. i don't know why everyone expects so much from me, i'm only eighteen, how am i supposed to know what i want to do with my life? it's heartbreaking knowing that i can't live up to people's expectations, leaving them disappointed in me. and the same boys at school always picking on me because they see scars or just want something fun to do. so they target me. i'm not smart in school, even though people say i am, but the reality is that i'm a fake. i cheat when i don't know the answer and when the guilt builds up, i break down, knowing i'm not good or intelligent enough. i'm going to fail all of my exams because no matter what i study, it doesn't process into the exam questions. i'm losing sleep, my appetite, and i honestly, just want to die."
jungkook sat on the other line, listening to every word that jae told him. he couldn't exactly say that he knows what she's going through since he's pretty much got his life set out before him. he sat in silence before speaking up.
"you are more than good enough."